Still Alive

nerdy horse girl trans guy

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Are you comfy there, buddy?

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He shy.

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I made this apoxy clay and crystal pendant and I love how it turned out ok

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Poking my head back in here as I used to have some good friends on Tumblr (I was once known as immortalspark?) and I kinda miss them. Wanted you all to know I'm not dead. Actually life is pretty good now :) it's been a rough decade or so but I'm Still Alive.

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Update, I have a 13 year old daughter.

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Have you ever missed a place so much that it hurts?

[Photo Description: a covered equestrian arena, two paint horses silhouetted in evening light. A saddle and bridle hang on the fence. Scene is peaceful in that tidy-cluttered sort of arena-dirt-dusted way of a beloved barn]

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Op’s caption was: Single father supports his sons :)

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Eyes burning from smoke. Lungs screaming.

Everything is normal obviously.

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Angst under cut

I never realized how much fear builds upon itself. How once you've learned to fear for your life, your safety, your treasured posessions...or even chronic things like not knowing if you'll have food or a job or working body parts or if youll need to evacuate or if you won't be able to get to a town for months during a disaster or if your brain will just die for no apparent reason someday or how you're going to lose control of your body and mind functions long before most people hit that part of the aging process...how all of that levels up your brain until your "normal" is most people's "horrifying"

And also how even when things are less dire, one little natural disaster like your entire state being on fire can bring it all back again and put your brain straight into worst-case scenario mode.

But even as disruptive and physically harmful as fear is...I can appreciate it. It means I haven't given up. I'm not suicidal. I'm still fighting. I still want to live. As long as I'm afraid, I'm ok, and I may be an emotional wreck digging deeper into already nasty mental scars, but ill be OK.

I've got a 4 wheel drive. I've got stuff packed and water and there's multiple ways out of here. Doesn't make it any easier to ignore the anxiety demons showing me what all my stuff will look like burned up.

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if my bones are gonna crack like glow sticks every time i move i think i deserve bioluminescence. both to complete the aesthetic and as a consolation prize

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*jokeships*

Hey this song fits that ship really well lol.

Hey that headcanon is cute lol

Hey I'm thinking about this a lot lol

Hey

Hey

Hey I'm not sure this is a joke anymore lol

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I got no sleep last night because I remembered that ao3 is a thing.

I mean

After years of avoiding fandom, suddenly I'm at warp speed someone stop me I'm not getting anything done and I need to care.

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This isn't giving up,

It's letting go.

18+ Indie RvB RP and Ask blog for Epsilon and the AI Fragments. 10+ years rp experience. I'm here for fun, casual fandom interactions, and getting my heart ripped out by some juicy writing threads. No drama BS. Yes, that beautiful helmet is mine.

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I'm RPing again. AI stole my heart. Forgive the crappy promo, I'm stuck on mobile for the time being. But just in case RP blogs are wondering why I'm following them, here's a redirect to my sideblog @sanctuaryofepsilon

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I'm moving this weekend and my brain has gone into "I'll sleep when I'm dead, now is the time for battle plans!" mode 🙃

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@thecosmicoutlaw replied to your post “I never understood the lyrics to Take me to church so “take me churh…”

I think the fact that Christians also hear the Amens and think that song is Christian is deeply amusing

You’re telling me he’s not saying amen???

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He is...but the song is about sex? I mean they say f u to the actual church and how they treat us, we will worship each other instead...and there are some very suggestive and not christianly lyrics, but most people just hear Aaaaaameen and go yep that's a good song to sing in Sunday school

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i’m losing my mind

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bert was always my favorite muppet as a kid and TBH I stand by this as an adult. 

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anyways its been like four days and I have yet to stop laughing even slightly less at ‘OH GROOVE WITH ME BABY’ (THUNK THUNK THUNK) so 

im starting to suspect bert and ernie sketches were just the basis of my sense of humor

[kiwi]

gay people use halloween props as home decor year round

[valtsv]

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The Glass Pumpkin of Chocolate is classy, ok? We won't talk about Googly the Spider.