greek tragedy

i ponder of something great, my lungs will FILL and then d e f l a t e — they fill with fire, exhale desire. i know it's diar, my time today. i have these thoughts so often i ought to replace that ( s l o t ) with what i once bought, 'cause somebody stole my car radio, and NOW i just sit in s i l e n c e .

[ari-cosmos]

So I’ve been thinking for the past week or so now, and I came to a shocking revelation last night. 

My muse for Ariadne was strong. I knew what I had planned, it was great. However Ariadne was in a sense a symbol of my depression and a way I could navigate it. I haven’t been struggling with depression for a little over six months now, but the Ariadne I have in mind has been entwined with my depression subconsciously since possibly the day I laid my eyes on her bio. That’s why my muse is so flaky and fleeting, why it hits so hard and then disappears almost a minute later. I love Ariadne to death, it’s why I’ve held her for over a year now (I missed my year anniversary but it was at the end of September) with a hope that I could turn things around for her with no avail. When I think of Ariadne, I think of my depression and it doesn’t equate or blend; my depression is no longer holding me back at the moment but it’s holding Ariadne back and while she does struggle with depression, hers and mine are not the same. It’s this weird conflicting weigh of overbearing negative thoughts that clash and tear her apart. I can’t continue as Ariadne until I can separate her from my own issues. I won’t make her unplayable, in case someone out there falls in love with her just as I did and can take better care of her. I hope if that doesn’t happen, that I’ll be able to apply for her again when I can accurately portray her. Until then, I will not be playing Ariadne. I will forever hold her dear to my heart for all sorts of reasons, but also because if it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t have ever applied and joined this place. She means the world to me, I just hope whoever picks her up can get whatever help they need from her just like I did.

[brittanyrobertsons-deactivated2]

caitlinjstasey scammin’ me for likes

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[norahfields]

Sometimes I get really insecure and make hurtful decisions because I can’t imagine why you’d want me

i’m sorry (via yourenosaint)

[anamorphosis-and-isolate]

― To Write Love on Her Arms (2012) “I can’t do life anymore. I just want to die. Everything’s so messed up.”

[limitlessplaylist]

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When you curl up in bed and, just you in your head now, Are you living? When you look straight ahead and, you wish you were dead now, Are you giving?

[stephanieofrp]

“Don’t,” She furiously wiped the tears from her eyes, “Don’t say that you won’t leave me. Everyone says they won’t leave,” She hiccuped, pressing her palms against her eyes before letting out a loud sigh, “But they always do.”

“I won’t leave you,” he said. (via stephanieofrp)

[tenwordstory]

They asked what my greatest accomplishment was. “Surviving,” I said

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[killurparents]

You can’t keep dancing with the devil and ask why you’re still in hell

Something my friend told me the other day (via sad-theater)

[difficult]

Kiss me until I forget how terrified I am of everything wrong with my life.

(via difficult)

[stormiestfu-deactivated20151206]

“does november not exist in america because it’s only the sixth and they’re already playing christmas music on nearly every station. if i hear mariah carey singing last christmas one more time, i’m buying a gallon of bleach and funneling it down my ears.”

[ari-cosmos]

“Mariah Carey is overrated and horrendous so I can understand the aggravation, but is ruining your ear drums the best solution?”

[viviette-von-schweetz-deactivat]

I mustache you a question, can eyebrows your computer?

[ari-cosmos]

“Oh wow that was clever,” she chuckled, “But it’s not a computer, it’s an ipad.”

[dylan-flores-deactivated2017080]

Holding a box in his arms with colourful tinsel lining the top of the pile, Dylan shrugged, “Well, it’s never too early for Chrismtas decorations, right?”

[ari-cosmos]

“The only ones who are bothered by Christmas decorations at this time are American’s because they’re too self absorbed to realize only they celebrate Thanksgiving. You’re fine, so where are you planning to hang all of those?”

[pllrose]

3x23 - They don’t make a loofa that scrapes out the inside of your head.

[ari-cosmos]

“Do you ever wonder — why the hell am I putting myself through this?” Ariadne sighed, the grass beneath her tickling her skin as she stretched her arms up above her head and turned to look at the beauty beside her. “Like, why am I here? Does anyone actually care?”

[feliznavidiz]

“You don’t say! I feel like my heart’s about to pop out of my chest!”

[ari-cosmos]

“What event got to you?”

[justamir-deactivated20160709]

“That was kind of the point”

[ari-cosmos]

“I just didn’t expect for it to be done so well. Typically this doesn’t bother me because I live in Hell; it’s mainly sub par in comparison.”