Paranoia hyperconnected

I am watching in front of me... there is deep darkness... but a little light still calls me. Do I need to jump?

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Images: Left - Paranoia Agent ; Right - Serial experiments lain

Shortly about myself:

• videogames and virtual reality engineering student

• writer, creative mind, vortex full of worlds

• AuDHD, dyslexic and dyscalculic, with CPTSD

• Italian, 34yo, she/they/it (queer girl), AroAce

• open-minded Catholic person

• with unidentified chronic illness

Do you want to know more?

I am an introvert person with extrovert sides.

I have many interests:

I love stories… alla kind of stories: books, mangas, comics, videogames, movie, tv series, etc.

I love computer science and electronics

I love listening music, but often always the same songs for long time

I love drawing and colouring

I love writing

I love languages

I love games like sudoku and chess

I love cute things, like Tamagotchi, plushies, cute stim toys, cozy games, etc

I love to connect with people, but I struggle to be consistent… because I am often overwhelmed by many thoughts in my mind

I deeply bonded to Anne Frank; I reread her diary and short stories, etc, every years

Everyone are welcome in my blog, if you are respectful of me and others.

This is a safe space for trans, and all LGBTQA+ people, neurodivergent and with disabilities. And also for all people with different religions or life philosophy.

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lain

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Articuno, Zapdos, Moltres (2019) - Sky Legend Artwork Illustrator: Mitsuhiro Arita

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Serial Experiments Lain (1998) — Layer 01: Weird

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I want to show I am not only words. I always will do what I want to do in the end.

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マンタが泳ぐ生八つ橋考えました。ラムネ味かな？

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★ 【ICHIZEN-RYUU】 「 🐻 」 ✔ republished w/permission ☆ follow our YT interview show!

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Why are you crying lain? Because you deleted yourself from everyone's memory? I thought that's what you wanted . . .

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I am depr3ssed.

Since the d3ath of my dearest cat, my insomnia got worse a lot.

Looking me outside seems I am pretty okay. Inside I am suffering a lot. She was like a sister to me. She spent her life always with me, in my room, on my chest or anyway near to me. She was "my little soul".

I suffer of insomnia since a while (not always) but since her d3ath, I always go to sleep very late and I sleep very bad. I am tired, depr3ssed and exhausted.

I am was "prepared" to lose her: she was old and sick. But when it happened, I feel something got broken inside me.

I kept her ashes: I will put a pic of her on the top.

I don't know what I am looking for... Only support. Kindness. Understanding.

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Almost one year passed… and the pain it is the same.

I see you in the shadows, sometimes.

I hear you in the other cats meows.

I search for you… always: I need confort, I need a life friend. I need you. Sometimes I feel that have only you near to me, purring and meowing softly how only you was able to do, would heal such sufference.

You are in my hearts.

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