i am not insane i am actually normal im actually a sociable huma

hi im ariane, i TOOOTALLY have a stable personality

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i wonder if hitting my head against the wall would help me improve, all its ever done so far is give me headaches...

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skibidi

did you know japan is turning footsteps into electricity?

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i actually look like the 🤓 emoji irl its so unreal

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im such a horrible person to be with, i get way too busy and forget people.

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not that this means anything, rn i feel like i want to disappear, but i dont want to kill myself, i am scared of dying actually. but the idea of disappearing feels oddly comforting, i guess the idea of leaving the world behind and not expecting anything is an attractive idea to some

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i think i have friends, but im scared to be a burden to people. ive already done enough damage

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nice

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truly talking to people is horrifying

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f my stupid chud boring slate personality im so lonely

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communities of stuff im not into r so friendly and communities of sthff im into r so intimidating

i wanna socialize but god gives me his greatest challenges

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gosh im so busy that i had to skip medications in order to take all nighters. im unsure if they really work they just make me high, sleepy, emotionally numb.

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secrets

This place is a message... and part of a system of messages... 

This place is not a place of honor... nothing valued is here.

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silly

everything feels so stupid now. im stupid.

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tired

im slowly becoming more and more tired... and dysfunctional...

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deceit

am i lying to people?

am i scamming people?

it isnt what you think it is...

it's not....

i made this yes...

but... i don't....deserve any of this...

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confusion

im really thankful people enjoyed my recent post. from the bottom of my heart, i was a bit confused why it blew up, as i was not really expecting a lot of people would see it.

i wish this wont be misconstrued in the wrong context, but i dont understand why people say the things about it as it was, i dont feel like it was good, i just feel like it was something that i posted with little thought put behind

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uncertain

i am unsure what just happened... im not sure what to think of what happened