[armoredshuichi]

If I followed you, my rp blog is @multimusemadness

[armoredshuichi]

He dragged the razor over his skin again. The red line left in its wake filled in like water rushing through a broken dam. It grew heavy until the cut could no longer contain it and it spilled over his arm.

It didn't feel good, but it was what he deserved. He deserved to hurt. To suffer.

[armoredshuichi]

Nobody cares about my art or me, so why do I bother? Why do I keep digging for hope?

[multimusemadness]

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[multimusemadness]

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[armoredshuichi]

It's always with me, Gnashing its fangs from behind my eye.

It hurts me, yet, like a toxic relationship, I stay.

I know how to stop it, how to stop everything.

A click of selfishness. Hot metal couldn't possibly hurt as much.

But the thought of leaving you, of making you sad, keeps me here.

For how long I can't say, the sun always sets.

Time keeps on.

Yes, when everything grows cold, it will remain.

Bladed hands caressing my scalp until I'm lost to the pain.

[armoredshuichi]

Stupid. I'm so goddamn stupid

[armoredshuichi]

I want to die so badly

[prinxessinwonderlxnd-deactivate]

naps hit different when ur using them to avoid being alive

[hauntedandabandoned]

sometimes i wish id die in a freak accident because im too cowardly to do it myself

[visilepoem15192x]

[grimalkhiindi]

I hate you shipping discourse I hate you unnecessarily aggressive DNI banners I hate you dehumanization of those you disagree with I hate you harassment over ships or favorite characters I hate you purposeful lack of nuance I hate you false equivalencies I hate you policing how people engage in fandom I hate you actively trying to make fandom spaces hostile I hate you refusal to filter your feed I hate you making it everyone else’s problem

[armoredshuichi]

I should really end things, so I stop inconveniencing everyone around me. I hate being a burden, but that's all I ever am or will be. Nothing makes me happy now, so what am I even hanging on for? I know the few people I care about will be better off.

[armoredshuichi]

I'm having a hard time finding reasons to continue existing. It gets harder and harder as days go by.

[anxietyproblem]

[armoredshuichi]

I have no reason to keep living

[armoredshuichi]

Why can't I just go away? Like, be erased. I'm just a smudge on this Earth, an annoyance to most and a painful reminder to the rest. Like, people see me and say: Oh yeah, that's the disappointment. Yeah, that's the bad friend. That's the one who has no ability to connect to another human being. The broken one.

If I'm so unwanted, why can't I just vanish? Why is that wrong?