thinking about how harrow writes to herself “look upon me as a harrowhark who was handed the first genuine choice of our lives; the only choice ever given where we had free will to say, no, and free will to say, yes”. gideon thinks that harrow's refusal to eat her was refusal to be beholden to anyone else, and we know gideon is wrong. but isn’t it insane that while the choice wasn’t to achieve freedom (as gideon believes), the choice itself WAS freedom. to harrow, choosing gideon IS freedom. the first real freedom she’s ever known













