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[drowning-at-3am]

I look at you and I see something different Something I’ve been chasing my whole life Something that I’ve failed to seek In everybody else.

L.M https://www.instagram.com/lmwritings/ (via drowning-at-3am)

[myshkyn-deactivated20151013]

[theworldasheseesit]

1. If he starts saying the women before you have all been ‘crazy’ and it’s so nice to finally find a ‘normal girl’ or even a ‘girl like you’ you should start to think about who was really the issue in all of his previous relationships. 2.If he attempts to make you feel guilty for any decisions you have made. This is especially important when it comes to having sex. If you don’t want it and he’s pulling out the guilt card, dump him. He’s not worth the regret you’ll feel when he decides to leave you, and trust me honey, he will. 3.If he gets upset with you when you mention your exes. It’s normal to feel a little jealousy but when he starts throwing out phrases like “it makes me angry knowing anyone else has had you before me” it’s time to leave. 4.If he shows up unannounced on several occasions or comes around when you’ve explicitly told him not to. This is not cute. Sure, surprises are great every once in awhile but this type of repeated behavior is dangerous and should leave you feeling uneasy. 5.If he starts saying “I’ve never hit a girl before, but-” or “I don’t think it’s okay to hit women, but-” walk out the door before he can finish that sentence. 6.If you get busy and later look at your phone to see more missed calls and messages than the minutes since you’ve talked to him, it’s time to block his number. 7.If he intentionally stands between you and any of your friends. Walk away from him. 8.If he doesn’t believe you should go somewhere without him- unless it’s a concern for your safety; go anyways and say goodbye to him for good. 9.If he tells you he doesn’t like the way you’re dressed. If he says it’s too revealing and that type of thing should be reserved for his eyes only, tell him he can kiss your ass goodbye. 10.If he makes sexist comments. Tell him to make his own goddamned sandwich and walk out the door. 11.If he makes rape jokes. Leave him. 12.If he says anything along the lines of “If you really loved me you’d…” or “If you don’t…I’ll leave you.” Let him. This is just a form of manipulation. 13.If he gets violent. His fists don’t even have to touch your skin. If he is punching walls or kicking doors or throwing anything-leave. He is trying to frighten you and show you what he’s capable of. The next thing you know he’s leaving you with bruises and even more powerless than you are now. 14.If he gets angry when you explicitly tell him you are not his property. Leave. 15.If he becomes jealous too easily. If he is getting angry because some guy liked your picture you posted online or you smiled at someone other than him. This could get ugly very quickly. The next thing you know he’s yelling at you after he snooped through your messages without your permission for talking to a childhood friend of yours. 16.If he threatens to kill himself or harm anyone else when you mention needing some space or walking away. Break up with him and if his threats become serious, call the police. It’s easier said than done, but you need to cut your ties with him and burn all of the bridges. He doesn’t deserve you. He’s only going to hurt you.

Warning Signs//Selena V Vargas (via theworldasheseesit)

[ontdooiend-deactivated20240226]

Maybe he doesn't hit you

Love is such a strange concept because

one day you feel like this person is everything and

the other this person demands to be everything

they view themselves as an emperor and you are their legions to command

you are the lands they plan to conquer

and with every rebellion you dare to withstand

he ambushes and tortures you with sick, breaking words to capture

the settlement that is your brain

and i am not saying that that is

the truth

for everyone

no i am telling you that many not little but big women

not weak but strong women

and not only women but also men

have been through war with not only their so-called master but also with themselves

you think that

when he says you are nothing but an overflowing pond of tears without him

he must say that out of love, right?

and when he tells you to call him every night

and to not go to this party

to not drink

to not have fun with your best friend because she makes you happier than he does

he claims to love you but

in reality

he’s poisoning you

and you believe him

maybe he doesn’t hit you but

he forces your mouth shut with his and other parts of his body

of which i will not speak

because that’s all you’re good for

maybe he doesn’t hit you but

he tells people you are insane because

he makes you sad

and angry

and hit walls

and that’s “all your fault”

maybe he doesn’t hit you but

every time you tell him you are unhappy with him

he threatens to kill himself because

he says life is not worth living without you

but behind your back he’s begging other girls for blowjobs

and then you know you meant nothing

and all you can think is that he was right all along

maybe he never hit you but

everytime at 1 a.m. or when alcohol runs through your veins

you can’t stop thinking about why

you weren’t enough and

if you really are better off without him

but let me tell you, my dear

when i tell you that you are so strong

you are not alone

that i am proud of you

and that things will get better

it’s okay to miss someone even though you never want to see that person again

it’s okay to have nightmares

it’s okay to cry

because trust me, it will all pass

[maxwelldpoetry]

You wanted me all to yourself. You wanted to own me. When I tried to live my life, you tightened your chokehold on it. Living for anyone but you was wrong. Trying to please anyone but you was wrong. So I didn’t, I tried to be right according to what you wanted. I told you where I was going and if you didn’t want me going I didn’t go. Out of fear, I poured all of my love into you until I was empty. When I had nothing left to pour, I carved out the insides of my heart to satisfy you. I gave you all of me, yet always felt like I was never enough. I was a helpless bird that knew about life outside of the cage but was taught not to want it. I was taught that it was wrong, but in the end, it wasn’t wrong. You were.

Maxwell Diawuoh, Request: A girl breaks up with her girlfriend due to being isolated by the relationship and fear from saying/doing something—anything “wrong” such as hanging out with a friend or forgetting to tell them they’re going to a store. And the feeling of never being enough and feeling helpless/hopeless. (via maxwelldpoetry)

[dreaonzagle]

when i leave, there will be two hearts that break (yours and mine) but i cannot keep killing myself to keep you alive and fulfilled (and in control.)

unsent letters to my mother: one, Drea Onzagle (via susanpevensy)

[shmwrites]

you told me you loved me but i think you got your words confused because if you loved me i would not be up at two am crying about you again you are slowly destroying me we both know it and i do not know what is worse the fact that you know what you are doing to me or that i am letting you

i thought it was love, i thought it was love (via helplesslydreamingx)

[thequotejournals]

The most important thing you do everyday you live is deciding not to kill yourself.

Albert Camus (via thequotejournals)

[15th-october-deactivated2022082]

And yet, through everything, I’m still madly in love with you and if you came back to me, I’d grab you and never let you go

(via my-death-is-near)

[wordsnquotes]

I’m always soft for you, that’s the problem. You could come knocking on my door five years from now and I would open my arms wider and say ‘come here, it’s been too long, it felt like home with you.

Azra.T “My Heart is Full of Open Windows” (via bled)

[heart2heartwritings]

She has the title of being his girlfriend but not his heart while I have his heart but not the title. Funny how love works.

(via heart2heartwritings)

[logicaldreamer]

sleep until you cannot sleep anymore distract yourself throw yourself into being in love with you buy new clothes put everything he gave you into a box delete all those pictures on social media set limits on how much you contact him wait for him to text first do not rebound eat ice cream eat healthy food watch a good movie read an easy novel write him a love letter and don’t send it save it read it in a week and edit it baby steps

(T. // the morning after)

[what-the-poop-nuggets]

When I fell for him, it was beautiful. I didn’t see it coming, I didn’t expect it. It just happened and I knew it was the real thing. I knew what I was feeling was definitely love. I was terrified, I had never fallen in love before. And the thought of someone impacting me this much was entirely frightening. I knew I had feelings for him, I knew I loved him. But being hit with the realization that I was actually in love with him made me lose balanced and I toppled over. Still, it was amazing. I know I’m still falling. I know I’ll continue to fall. And it feels beautiful. To care for someone so much. He leaves me breathless in the best ways. He leaves me wanting more, so much more. Just his presence is enough to brighten my day. Even when he’s around, I miss him. When I see him, I feel short of breath, my heart starts beating rapidly, and my cheeks turn a deep crimson. Falling for him was, and still is beautiful. And I know, I’ll continue to fall. I’ll continue to fall until all the bones in my body shatter, until I have no choice but to get up. Even then, all the pain will be worth it, because he’s worth it.

Beauty in IT /// falling in love (via what-the-poop-nuggets)

[lovingregs]

You use to always tease me about why I never loved you, but little did you know that I was head over heels in love with you. But I didn’t tell you, because we could never be what you wanted or what I wanted. You like vodka and parties. I like poetry and flowers. You like marijuana and making out. I like looking at the stars and holding your hand. You use to get angry when I was distant, because you thought I stopped caring. But in all truth I was so scared of my feelings for you. But I wanted to give you a chance. Then you stopped answering, started avoiding me. It didn’t take long to realize why, you got a taste of the good life, with her. And I was just another dumb girl who fell in love with the wrong guy

(Our little love story)

[jairrrito]

In Love

Waking up to the sound of you showering & you playing our favorite songs My heart would get so warm It was so cold those foggy mornings I would curl into a ball & pretend to be asleep just to feel you wake me up & you would be the first thing I would want to see I would hear you tell me “I know you’re up dork” I look back & smile I’m sorry I never told you that & I’m also sorry you’ll never know I still replay those foggy mornings I know those mornings might not even cross your mind anymore, but they cross mine Those are the moments where I felt fine & not feel like my whole world crumbles everyday because you’re not here

[wildech1ld]

I just want to marry you I want to grow old with you I want to go grey with you I want to see laugh lines at the corners of your eyes And grey streaked through your hair I want to see you when I wake up in the morning I want to see you working late paying bills Bifocals slipping down your freckled nose And tucking small children in bed Telling them stories of our adventures Of the crazy nineteen year old hippie you took dancing And how you couldn’t get her out of your head And she couldn’t get you out of hers How the prince and the princess would stray apart Only to find their way back one day And the hippie became a princess And the soldier became a prince And they wandered the earth together

(via wildech1ld)

[blackcoffee-speysidewhisky]

I wrote things about you because you gave me the slightest bit of hope in this world, that despite the hurricane, there’s some good in this life. I wrote things about you because you gave me a little bit of love, or at least what I thought was love, and I wanted so much more. I wrote things about you because I wanted you to be different, I wanted you to give me the love that I gave you, I wanted you to stay… But like all things in this life, the truth starts unraveling and all of sudden it hits you like a freight train - what was once there might’ve been just your imagination this whole entire time. And you feel foolish, because you gave your all and he gave you nothing. And so I still write things about you, not because I still love you, but because I remember what it felt like to have someone drown you, scratching at the air just to catch a breath without even laying a finger on you. I remember what it felt like having all this faith in the world, but slowly one by one, physically seeing it start to get smaller and smaller until it’s just a piece of dust sitting in the middle of your palm. I remember what it felt like to see the light in your eyes, what it felt like to hear all those never ending promises, what it felt like to be loved. And I remember how you left; not a word, not a sound, just footsteps out the door leaving me with a burning throat and cracks in my heart to carry on with. Yeah I remember all of that. Doesn’t mean I love you, doesn’t mean I still want you. It just means you let me live, and it just means that I know how to survive when people like you come around next time.

c.f. // “i don’t love you anymore, but you’ll always carry a piece of me with you” (via flannelsandthecoffeebar)