artemis

fuck it i ball | 23, she/them. main blog - mostly personal. @artemisaa87 and @artm-is87 - sideblogs. we're all the same person, believe it or not.

[artemis-87]

[fairycosmos]

#mygapingwound #mychildhoodghosts #myfleetingexistence #myfatheadache #myunexploredidentities #myendlesshame

[kosmogrl]

"whats your 5 year plan?" buddy I nearly go insane thinking about what I should have for dinner

[artemis-87]

taking care of yourself should not be accompanied by an overwhelming sense of dread and panic. what is this nightmare

[dogclownmuppetthing]

You know that thing would eat you if you died, right? (Points at your reflection in the mirror)

[artemis-87]

im so done

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, “The Electrician Sings "Easy Love" in the Kitchen While Fixing My Light”, Instructions for Traveling West

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[hypokeimena]

#'this is present in the text' is often a good first step #but those second and third ones (naming it; describing its function) are vital (via @elucubrare)

[elksewer]

oh oo ohhh ooo oh

[bippus]

Top ten reasons to kill yourself ranked by virtue

[lifeinpoetry]

If I could do girlhood again, I’d ask

to be scarier. Less whimpering—more pyromaniac

urges, more flirting with kerosene.

— Sally Wen Mao, from “Drop-kick Aria,” Mad Honey Symposium

[artemis-87]

never having kids. the cycle of abuse ends with me because it will end me #hopecore

[artemis-87]

the levels of exhaustion that come with trying to just survive should not be this high. what do you mean i can barely get up but i have to keep trying anyway

[saltair-and-webweaves]

the days I don't want to kill myself are extraordinary

hammond b3 organ cistern - gabrielle calvocoressi/heavy - hieu minh nguyen/ @alecstasy (x)/to begin with, the sweet grass - mary oliver/don't hesitate - mary oliver/ @sunrisethoughts02/a good day, kait rokowski/hammond b2 organ cistern - gabrielle calvocoressi

[89words]

“…and I needed relief from myself.”

— Mary Szybist, Incarnadine: Poems

[exeggcute]

I need a polite and effective way to say "hey your heart is truly in the right place and your anger is often righteous but I think sometimes you’re getting recreationally mad about things that are frankly not worth the amount of energy you’re spending on them, and every time you do this you're driving yourself slightly more insane with nothing to show for it," and then I need a way to broadcast that message through a loudspeaker to roughly 30,000 people at once, and THEN I need a time machine to send that message to my past self lol. and maybe a second time machine in case past me tries to be clever and sabotage the version of me who comes through the first time machine

[rabbitheatedgrrrl]

Not wanting to have sex is NOT a problem. It doesn’t matter if you are asexual or allo, there is nothing wrong with not wanting sex. It’s just an activity. That’d be like saying that if you don’t like soccer, you need to go to soccer therapy to figure out why you dislike it and figure out how to like it because it’s for your own good. See how ridiculous that sounds? IT IS OK TO NOT WANT TO HAVE SEX AND IT IS NOT SOMETHING THAT NEEDS TO BE FIXED!!!!!!