nobody gives a fuck

trauma system blog overall trigger warning

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Anya: Angel, Protector, The ‘Fun One’

(Was my co-host before the meds)

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I wish I could take something to ‘help me sleep’

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“We were so young. None of us knew to question it.”

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Anya is back full force. She was part of my reasons for going off the meds. It’s been almost two years since I stopped them completely. But she stayed dormant until recently.

It’s unexpectedly weird. I thought it would be… happier? Than this. But she hasn’t wanted to interact with anyone outside the system. And she’s only sort of talking to me. Mostly just snarky comments.

I think she’s mad at me for going on the meds in the first place. Which I get I guess. I know Boo was upset about it.

We need to find a fucking therapist asap, cause things are not good.

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HARDCORE TRIGGER WARNING

Last night was really bad. Like really bad. I’ve heard people talk about urges being so bad they give in in front of people. Last night I understood. After the trump bullshit I was paralyzed in fear. I literally thought I was going to throw up. It was so hard not to grab anything and hurt myself. Anything to kill me. I had to drug myself to get to sleep.

I’m just fucking terrified. I saw a video recently of a politician talking about deporting criminals and Hispanic immigrants when T becomes president. I was born here, but my birth father was an immigrant. His whole family, that of course I care about even if I’m not in contact with them, are all immigrants. I was adopted by a white man so that probably helps with all of this. But all of my government paperwork says Hispanic. And they aren’t going to care that I was born here.

When will it be acceptable to end it? What happens what it’s safer to die?

[met4lwhore]

yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

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I feel like I’m suffocating in my own sadness.

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I always come home when things get bad 💕

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I feel like I’m going insane

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Person on Twitter: Why is Taylor always talking about jumping off things?

My instant response: Because chronically suicidal people have a favorite method.

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TRIGGER WARNING

I’ve said it before and ill say it again, I would so much rather be slicing myself open instead of this alter-inner system sexual assault bullshit. Sexual self abuse? Idk my alters are fucking assholes and I wish I could do what I really want to do.

[deseos-de-la-via-lactea]

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I’m having a lot of really hard and confusing thoughts about having DID and I don’t feel like I have anyone to talk to… people say they are open but… are they really? Am I just having horrible night anxiety?

Fuck

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🎵You’re on your own kid

You always have been🎵

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[guitarplayermrs]

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