Destiel Has Ruined Me

Hi I’m Morgan!!! Sometimes I draw things :)

[bipolar4autistic]

Ilya letting his walls down with Shane after he can’t get ahold of his brother who’s supposed to be taking care of their dying father and then Shane rejects him and maybe Ilya feels like he’s back to 12 and is learning all over again that everyone who loves him leaves .

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[meebles]

wild to me that there are people saying ilya isn't yearning in the show. like yes i read the books so i do know his internal monologue, but also conner storrie's performance and the show itself are showing us that yearning even without that context, it's just not being portrayed in the same way as the show/hudson williams is portraying shane's yearning. like.

it being ilya's idea to do the joint brand photoshoot (like this is absolutely just an excuse for him to see shane again lmao)

ilya being obvious enough about how much he wants to see shane (bouncing his leg at the airport while checking his phone, him texting shane in the locker room and definitely blushing about it) that cliff fucking marlow is able to catch on to him clearly pining over someone

the rooftop vegas kiss?? how desperate ilya is?? the way ilya calls out to shane after he leaves??

the fucking LOOK in ilya's eyes after the sex scene in shane's apartment, when shane kisses ilya's forehead. like that's an "oh. oh." look if i've ever seen one. to which he then ofc freaks out over his feelings and bolts

eh you could say that ilya turning down sasha's advances ties into his shane yearning, but ilya having sex with other people doesn't mean he's not yearning imo. i feel like that scene is more about illustrating his very complicated feelings with russia generally and him being at a different point in his life now, where he's no longer just looking for trouble, as he puts it in the first ep

okay but the bit that REALLY gets me that i see no one talking about is after the award presentation in the bathroom, when ilya tells shane if he wins MVP ilya will give him whatever he wants, and when shane asks "and if you win?" instead of replying verbally, ilya kisses him. like THAT'S what he really wants, what he's too afraid to ask for in any sort of vulnerable context, and mirrors so well with both the "we didn't even kiss" deleted text and the stolen vegas rooftop kiss.

i do understand where people are coming from but when you consider all that, and then consider ilya's sarcasm and distance being used as a defense mechanism due to most of the love in his life being stripped away from him (dead loving mother, asshole leech brother, asshole father who's never shown any pride or love him no matter how hard ilya tries) (also some of that distance post-olympics is ilya being desperate to prove himself and being completely focused on the cup/not wanting any distractions. and shane is very distracting to him) it's a lot easier to see where ilya is coming from.

anyways i love him, yes he's a bitch but he's also the ultimate loverboy and i can't wait to see where the show goes with his character from here.

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Also this look after shane leaves??? You're joking. The yearn is at 10000000%

[lapetitepedestre]

Catching feelings.

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AHHHH WHERE IS THE CROUD!?! 😭😍

[sk1nek0]

Math class doodles~ Didn't have time to finish drawing Dean so he doesn't have clothes but eh it's fiinneee.. I'm still in the process of learning how to stylize Dean. I'm terrible at drawing live action characters, I mainly draw 2D characters lol. Gotta expand my skills!! If any spn fanartists have any tips for stylizing PLSSS LET ME KNOOWW

[theognoahwilliams]

Cass

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*grabby hands*

[dejectednesss]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Dean Winchester, fresh out of law school, is trying to make his mark as a fledgling attorney. Employed at one of the nation’s top law firms, everything should be running smoothly. Wrong. He’s behind on rent, and scrambling to keep up with student loans—just barely scraping by in a city as expensive as Boston. Which is why he’s got a secret little side hustle.

He just hopes it stays that way...

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AHHHH SO GOOD ALREADY!!! Must check out!!

[swedenis-h]

Misunderstanding !

[angeltiddies]

"we didn't even kiss" what if i banged my head against a wall

[leclercari]

#loverboy acting so good he got the author questioning their own writing

[bucketofli]

🧶December 2nd!

[corrupt-touch]

Reminder that there were things, people, feelings that he wanted to experience differently than he had before, or maybe even for the first time

[castiellesbian]

Imagining Dean coming across destiel fanfic and just going "Unrealistic. I could not be on my knees for that long."

[castiellesbian]

Love this reality in which Dean and Cas are reading Destiel smut sitting next to each other

[castielcommunism]

I think dean and cas’s text conversations are 90% dean sending cas pictures of flowers he finds at the side of the road with no comment because he knows cas will like them and then cas replies with the full name of the flower because he thinks dean is asking for help to identify it for a case or something and dean just replies with yeah. and they repeat this over and over

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[witha-boxofscraps]

Supernatural is so fucking wild. Charlie can’t flirt with a guy because she’s gay, fair. So the obvious solution is to have Dean flirt with the guy??? Genuinely what the fuck is this show

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[kerushis]

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It’d be funny if Dean was like. Hey have you ever noticed any time you sit next to cas the air gets really weird and electric and warmer than usual. What’s with his freaky angel bullshit. And sam is like. Hm. No I can’t say that’s ever happened to me. And files it away under my brother is probably gay but I have a job so idrc rn. Cue dean flustered and arguing. But what’s happening is that when cas sits by sam he tucks his wings in and when cas sits by dean he lays his wing over deans shoulder