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💫 About Me! 💫

My name is Emily & I use She/Her pronouns. :)

I’m 21 and an April girlie.

I’m bi

Im a Taurus

College is kicking my undiagnosed ass. 🥲

This is my art blog, where I’ll post my art. (Surprise surprise.)

Most of my art is fanart because I cycle through my interests like crazy.

I’m not a good gamer- but a gamer nonetheless. 😎

Not doing commissions right now but if you reach out and aren’t a bot I’ll consider it.

Headcanon Masterlist here

Fanart Masterlist here

#about myself #art blog

cutecipher

reblog if its okay for people to send you $5,000 dollars with no strings attached

I hate when men can draw well.

Like how dare you, A MAN, be better at something than me. That’s not very feministpilled of you and you should cease immediately.

#shitpost #ahhhh surprise post #time to disappear until I have more art to share </3

Alucard, my beloved… 😔🤚🏼

He’s so Disney princess coded to me. I will not explain further.

#alucard fanart #castlevania alucard #alucard #art #fanart #digital art #castlevania fanart #castlevania #alucard tepes #my art <3 #my fanart #my artwork #my art

A little Levi fever dream :)))

I haven’t played obey me in so long but was randomly missing the silly guys. 😔 I’m not touching that game again tho.

#art #fanart #digital art #my fanart #my art #my artwork #my art <3 #obey me!#obey me fanart #obey me leviathan #obey me shall we date #obey me #obey me levi fanart #obey me Levi #leviathan obey me

A stupid thing I’ve been working on for way too long. 💀

#art #fanart #digital art #baldur’s gate iii #baldurs gate fanart #baldur’s gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 #lae'zel #wyll ravengard #astarion ancunin #karlach cliffgate

Finally, Ascended Astarion HCs

(Sorry, I know it’s taken me a while)

Less of a HC and more of a fact, helping Astarion ascend is bad for him. It permanently changes him, not in a good way, and gives him the power to wreak havoc on the entire world. I personally believe that people are allowed to enjoy a character however you want, and enjoy whatever ending you get for the bg3 characters. However, Larian makes it pretty clear that ascending Astarion is not his ideal ending, and they low-key punish players for doing so.

He craves power, and honestly that’s understandable considering he’d been stripped of it for so long. Allowing him to succumb to that craving, however, just turns him into the same kind of monster he despises.

I think that in his ascended form, Astarion’s entire perspective on the world shifted. He is like 2 steps away from godhood, and the way his personality completely changes is reflective of that.

Astarion would still deeply value Tav, but he would no longer be able to love them like he had. He can no longer treat them like the equal he once saw them as, because now he views himself as above all. I mean, he is practically a god, and as we know from Gale and Mystra, a god cannot truly love a mortal.

This would be a toxic relationship!!! Astarion becomes a completely different person after he ascends and there’s no way that the person he becomes is one who is capable of having a healthy relationship.

Personally, I get the feeling that Astarion tries to convince himself that his feelings toward Tav haven’t changed. I don’t think he realizes that what he is feeling is more along the lines of possession. Or even if he does, he doesn’t want to feel that way.

The reason he tells himself that he wants Tav to become a vampire spawn and his consort is because he dreads having to live for eternity without them. The real reason is because vampires (especially fully fledged ones) have an innate craving for power and to have Spawn under their control and to do their bidding.

Also he probably does genuinely hate the idea of Tav dying. Simply

While you can initially decline becoming a vampire spawn, this cannot continue for forever. He sees Tav as an object, his property. Tav being able to deny his orders contradicts the view he has of them in his head. Tav will either have to acquiesce and agree to become his spawn, or they’d eventually break up.

While Ascended Astarion lacks self awareness in many ways, he’d still never turn Tav against their will. He’d want to convince/manipulate them into saying yes (which, to be clear, is still an abuse of power and not the same as them wanting to be a vampire spawn).

Astarion would never turn Tav into a full vampire.

Tav and Astarion would genuinely enjoy eachother’s company. For a while. I have no doubts that Astarion would be hella controlling over everything Tav does and says. Eventually, Tav would lose their personality/sense of self and Astarion would realize as much.

Ascended Astarion would be a love-bomber. He’d go from getting mad at Tav treating them like shit, to giving them the most luxurious gifts he could find.

Astarion would never let Tav starve, or make them attract victims via sex. That’s too far for him.

Tav would be used more as a set piece than as a partner, and honestly I could see it taking decades before they realized it. Astarion would choose to pretend that wasn’t the case though

#wow okay.#forgot how defensive AA fans are #removing tags because wtf #literally I never said I hate him #if you don’t agree then just dni #it was never that serious

Recently got into Castlevania.

If you know me or look at my blog, it should come as no surprise that Alucard is my favorite.

#art #fanart #digital art #castlevania #alucard #alucard tepes #castlevania alucard #alucard fanart #castlevania fanart

Can I just say, I don’t like the way people will over-sexualize Astarion.

Like yes okay- he’s feminine, flamboyant, and plays into a lot of gay stereotypes, and in media those types of characters are typically portrayed to be hyper sexual.

And yes, you do have sex in his first romance cutscene. However, he later tells you that he did that for manipulation purposes and that he doesn’t really want to be sexual anymore.

He talks about how a large part of his trauma was how he was forced to use his body to attract victims back to Cazador. For like 200 years he wasn’t given a choice of when to be sexual or not, and that in turn has made him realize that sex isn’t really something he wants, especially when he is trying to connect with and get to know someone he views as a possible partner.

After killing Cazador is when he finally feels ready to be intimate again, on his terms with someone he is sure he loves and wants to be with. Even then, if you want to visit the drow twins at the brothel he’ll join you but then doesn’t really enjoy the experience and just dissociates through it.

That all being said, Astarion reads as a demisexual character to me. Some say Asexual, but eh I don’t really see that. Gale and Halsin fit way better into the hypersexual category than Astarion does imo.

Anyway, this is all fiction and believe and interpret the characters however you want I guess.

#not an art #does this count as a headcanon?#I’ll put it anyway.#bg3 headcanons #astarion headcanons #random #rant #rant post #bg3 rant #bg3 astarion #baldur’s gate astarion #astarion ancunin #text post #bg3 text post

Bg3 Body-Type Headcannons

Because 4 body types isn’t enough imo

(Keep in mind that these are all simply my opinions and nobody has to agree with me)

Karlach- The same as how Larian designed her, just more muscular in the arms.

Shadowheart- I like to think Shadowheart has a more pear-shaped body type than the hourglass Larian blessed us with. I’ve also seen people portray her with a very large chest, but honestly I can’t see her with more than a C cup. Because of the rigorous training she underwent I can still see her being quite lean but not pure muscle.

Lae’zel- Slightly more muscular, and completely flat chested. Githyanki are egg-layers and I have personally seen no reason for them to have mammary glands. They’re almost reptilian and reptiles don’t chest feed or just have mammary glands generally so like… yeah you get my point. I also feel that she should be at least a bit more muscular because she’s a fighter who’s been trained to kill from birth. None of the Githyanki should be as frail-looking as they are.

Wyll- Honestly… Larian cooked. He looks fine. The only thing I wish were different is his hair. I feel like he’d look so majestic with long locs with little golden rings and cuffs.

Astarion- I can see the argument people have for him to look like he does, and I don’t completely disagree. However, I just feel like the two centuries of abuse and starvation would make it a little difficult to be as ripped as he is. Personally, I feel like Astarion would be way more lean than he is, with far less visible musculature. (Edit: someone said he should be more “boney” and I completely agree.)

Gale- he should be a little pudgy. This man is a book obsessed wizard who spends his days in his tower with his cat. I don’t think he’s wasting his precious studying time with working out to be cut as hell.

Minthara- honestly, I feel like a paladin of her power level should be a little more built than she is. Like not body builder or anything crazy, but at least more visible musculature.

Halsin- he should have a bit of a tummy I think. Like I don’t doubt that he’s muscular, but I don’t think he should have a 6 pack either. I can’t really think of an example- but just imagine him as he is with a little bit of tummy pudge and that’s how I picture Halsin.

Jaheria- honestly, I think she’s fine? Like I dont know I look at Jaheria and think- yeah that makes sense.

Minsc - looks fine as he is, but like Halsin I could also see him with a little bit of body fat. But he looks fine either way.

#baldurs gate 3 #baldur’s gate iii #baldur’s gate 3 #not an art #baldurs gate 3 headcanons #astarion #shadowheart #karlach #gale dekarios #wyll ravengard #minthara

They are cute patootie wives. :)))))

#my art #art #fanart #digital art #baldurs gate fanart #baldur’s gate iii #baldur’s gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate karlach #baldur’s gate shadowheart #sharlach

I’m back, with my boy Zachary Fair☺️

I’ve been playing the original ffvii and I’m so sad that Zack isn’t in it and Sephiroth didn’t show up until I’d played the game for 12 hrs (I’m really slow at it ok😭)