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I hooked up w the sexy german lawyer woman

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Omw to work I wait at a certain bus stop and a few times there has been this older woman. Everytime she sees me smoking she tells me to quit. Today I saw her again on the bus and she sat next to me. She asked me where I'm from and I said Turkish. I asked her as well and she said she's Armenian. I had assumed she was Polish based on her accent and she assumed I was Russian. This led to us talking about history. I assured her that I liked Armenians. The whole time we sat on the bus she complained about Turkey and Azerbaijan and I just listened bc that's what she grew up with. Being the failed linguist that I am I told her a few common words in Turkish and Armenian like the common word for grandfather: dede.

Anyway the moral of the story I had today was that even if this person might have certain opinions or story or whatever in her head and in theory she dislikes me, everytime she saw me smoking she did feel some sort of motherly sympathy for me and wished me the best by telling me to quit smoking even though I was a total stranger to her. And that's what I like about people. Deep in our hearts we recognise each other's humanity and that's the solution for anything and everything.

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I did the most unexpected shit my pussy ass would do and asked the german lawyer woman on a date (movie night at my place). We decided which evening it's gonna be and I asked: "Date?". She didn't reply to that question but she did confirm the movie night after i asked if it was gonna be a date. Is it a date now or not i don't fucking get it

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Turned 26 today, 18 months clean this week, living on my own again since March and it's going better than expected. First time in my life where I'm feeling proud of myself, somewhat accomplished or at least on the right path to accomplishment. All thanks to the 12 step programme and schema therapy along with medication. I've never been this happy in my active addiction. Back when I was regularly active on Tumblr I was miserable. I couldn't accept life as it is and wanted more by using drugs. I've slowly started accepting the little conciousness I was given and the fact that I'll still want more from life from time to time. 1,5 years later and I can clearly see the growth, mostly because my cognitive capacities aren't affected by drugs anymore. I have the memory to remember how it used to be and how it is rn. I have the energy to do something productive everyday. I have the mental space to talk to people. I look at my tumblr feed from time to time even when I don't rb anything and it makes me so happy to see the familiar blogs, same names and same pictures❤️ i will always love this place

[luumu]

[allthingshalloweenn]

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My Latvian friend taught me how to write and read in Georgian and took me to the Russian store and showed me all the Georgian food :)

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1 year clean today

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My homophobic dad gave me lots of money and i'm gonna spend it at pride with my best friend and the woman i met on HER and her mom. Also i'm 9 months clean

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Am I fully clean if I've had alcohol this whole time (only once a month)? According to Narcotics Anonymous, I'm not clean. I've had a little breakdown after some members told me today.

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It's gonna be a long summer. So much craving. But almost 9 months clean.

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How old were you at the lowest point in your life? Reblog this and put it in the tags, plus your current age maybe. I'm trying to see something.

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Sorry no cat in this one.

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We went to that indian restaurant on saturday. Then we had a few drinks in a gay cafe. Talked about language, celebrity crushes, the dating app we met on, etc. She asked me a few times if everything was okay because to her i look sad sometimes. She did say she enjoyed it. Idk if we're a match. I know I find her physically attractive

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I wanted to text her but i didn't know what to say. She texted me yesterday! Then I asked her to go an Indian restaurant tomorrow that we've been on a date to in 2023. She said yes :) but she has the flu so we'll probably postpone it until next week

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Saw that woman i went on a date with again yesterday. We had so much fun. I didn't expect to get drunk bc i only had a few beers. Hanging out with her is like an adventure, just like that date we had in 2023. First we sang karaoke, then we left the place to dance to live music. At the end of the night, we had deep talks about sexuality, family, addiction, work and our shared hatred for men. She hates men so much. She sounded like a radfem when she was speaking. I asked for her socials and i got it :) now i need so figure out what to text her, if i should text her at all idk