venny

agender Mad lesbian ic: 155e28 on twt

[ashesinurcigarettebox]

pinned post. hi im venny or ashes and i like beabadoobee i dont know. they/any pronouns

filipino mixed indigenous & lowlander

mad, delusional, neurodivergent (ocd + suspected autism)

this is my alt blog for things im too scared to tell anyone else for fear of judgement

i dont have any tags i just post

[this-is-orientalism]

(yet another rant sorry if its long or tiring to read)

as! asians! (specifically asians that reside in countries different from their place of origin) why! are! we! calling! each! other! whitewashed!

a) this implies that theres only one right way to be asian. untrue. also where exactly do you get off insinuating that /your/ interpretation of asian-ness is the Only Correct One? who are you to do that? not having an accent when speaking your native language does not automatically make you better than everyone else.

b) growing up asian in a country other than the one your ancestors were from means that you already feel alienated from both cultures can we please not exacerbate that feeling.

c) being "whitewashed" is most likely a direct effect of trying to combat the problem described in reason b by assimilating oneself into the culture one is surrounded by. blame the system not the people. in this essay i will

honestly all the banana/twinkie/"Americanized"/westernized jokes about second or third generation Asian immigrants are so gross.

[this-is-orientalism]

i wish philippinophobia was talked about more

filipino people are always dismissed. we are treated like some exotic rare kind of people instead of an independent country thats part of asia.

our entire suffering oppression from the americans, japanese, and spaniards are forgotten and erased from history 90% of the time. they only teach you about the oppression we faced back then if youre in some fancy rich private school.

and even then, most schools in the philippines try to erase most of our history from our textbooks and try to paint the americans as our allies when they are anything but.

i had to research most of the filipino history myself because my araling panlipunan teacher would always try to avoid it, and painted the americans as our "heroes" even when actual history says otherwise

we filipinos are excluded from almost all discussions about asian countries. we are told that we "do not count" by fellow asians. and it hurts to see our people believe that lie and live their life unaware that we've been part of asia for years and always will be

even outside of discussions about asia, the philippines is never brought up as an independent country. in other people's eyes, we will always be seen as "america's allies" against our own will.

this is orientalism.

@this-is-philippinophobia is a blog i know of covering this niche btw

[chaoticschizo]

In the name of disability pride month start giving a shit about psychotic people NOW

[ashesinurcigarettebox]

sometimes i think of every time i’ve felt scared because of people twitching or stimming or talking to themselves, or acting in ways i didn’t understand. i was young, 9, 10, heck maybe even 8, i didn’t know any better but nonetheless i’m sorry to the people who might’ve felt upset due to my behavior. i’d never do this to someone anymore and i hope you’d never do the same, since it’s basic human decency. those are people like me and why would i ever punch down in my own community?

[44-axyer-44]

NOTICE FOR PSYCHOTIC PEOPLES LIKE ME AND THE NEW TOMODACHI LIFE: Please please pretty pretty please be careful while playing Living the Dream, esp if you’re currently unmedicated!!!

The game treats the Miis like they’re real people and makes zero mention ever that they are not, and only ever refers to them and their POV as if they are real and you are their caretaker! While playing this honestly messed with my head pretty badly at times and made me worry a lot on if I was hurting real people/not doing enough for real people while I was playing!

I cannot imagine how much worse this would be for someone who’s unmedicated, non-dormant, or experiencing breakthrough symptoms! Do please be careful and PLEASE remember to have a way to reality check yourself while playing the game!!!

Also: If you’re not psychotic, please reblog this anyway!!! It may not seem like a big deal to you but these kinds of things are REALLY important to know for us psychotic folk in a world that is both hostile and negligent to us and our needs!!!

[ashesinurcigarettebox]

“my crush looked at me for one picosecond im so delusional” no the fuck you are not. you are not delusional stop misusing terms oh my god. tell me have you ever locked yourself in the bathroom because you thought you’d be killed if you left. have you ever strategized on how to protect yourself from “the aliens that assimilated your loved ones”? have you ever had delusions, psychosis, etc? no? then shut the fuck up and stop misusing terms for MENTALLY ILL people

[wheelie-sick]

you work with or go to school with people who are actively in mania and/or psychosis. you just don't realize this.

"the only interactions I've had with manic/psychotic people have been violent" do you live under a rock? do you emerge from your house only once every 3 years? we are everywhere, you just don't realize it.

an estimated 1.1% of the population is schizophrenic. an estimated 2.8% of the population is bipolar. those are not the only conditions that cause psychosis.

[mad-wheelies]

Fun fact telling and explaining to people what will happen if they go to emergency asking for help for being a danger to themselves/others is not… bad. People should know what to expect, and make an informed choice based on available information instead of being lied to. It is not “scaring people away from help.”

You all love informed consent till it’s a crazy person.

Edit to clarify my overall beliefs 'cause people keep assuming it and it's annoying me. I am a psychiatric abolitionist, the psychiatric system is inherently oppressive. If you're looking for alternatives I reccomend looking into local mutual aid networks and anti-carcarel groups.

[grub-muncher]

This comic only mentions different hallucinations based on sensory modality (which sense it impacts) but there are other ways to categorise hallucinations such as the theme of the hallucination or the severity of the hallucination

Hallucinations don’t only affect schizospec people and can happen to people without a psychotic disorder or any mental illness/condition

[ashesinurcigarettebox]

i love the song rot for clout because its how i feel as the main character of the book,, hopefully the editor cuts out all the bad parts is this a bad part i wonder

[ashesinurcigarettebox]

being delusional is crazy because like. wdym i believe my loved ones have been taken over somewhat by potentially alien parasites (still debating on the otherworldly front with my headmates) and the only way to combat this is with the help of my buddy guardian. who may or may not be a hallucination. fuck i sound crazy but what if im onto something. what if. its like 25% a delusion the rest is real. i can still live a normal life 7 because guardian helps me so thank god for him

[wheelie-sick]

sometimes people experiencing psychosis and/or mania will come up to you on the street and talk in confusing or upsetting ways. your job is to either have a regular human-to-human conversation with that person or politely leave. your job is not to call 911. do not call 911. you might kill that person if you call 911.