[thebitterthrills]

Face the truth Ashling!!!!!

[ashlingkelley-blog]

coolcatcameback:

Cat didn’t come by Ashling’s boxcar often anymore.

There was a time when she came by a lot. It wasn’t that she was trying to check up on her, really, so much as hang out. When she’d found it empty, but still full of Ash’s things, she figured she must have just missed her.

It wasn’t that big of a deal, given that Ash hadn’t been expecting her. The last time she’d seen her they hadn’t had plans on when to meet up again.

But then Ash hadn’t been there a third time, or a fourth, and somewhere about a month in Cat was starting to get worried. That had been three months ago, and either Ash was dead or hurt or maybe she just didn’t want to see Cat anymore, for whatever reason, but that made no sense because her stuff was still all there and it was fine, and why would Ash just leave it behind?

Or at least, it had been up until today when Cat had rounded the corner, hands in her pockets and taking deep breaths as she thought to herself she wasn’t checking, really, because doing that would mean that Ash was actually missing and holy shit the door was cracked open, and there wasn’t a lock anymore.

And then Cat was running and awkwardly pulling her bat out of her backpack before it really hit her what a stupid idea that was even though that wasn’t enough to stop her from slamming the door open wider with all of her strength.

“HEY! Whoever y’are, get OUTTA my friend’s place ‘fore I pound you into paste! Get me?”

“Cat!” Ashling exclaimed from where she’d moved closer towards the back of the boxcar to inspect some things, “It’s okay. It’s me.”

It was nice to see Cat again...how long had it been? Three months? Four? She had to admit, she’d gotten used to having someone to check in on, and to check in on her, every week or so. That sense of consistency had been nice.

“I’m touched that you’re willing to beat up people who come into my home,” she said, straightening up. “We’re both a bit late, though,” she continued, gesturing to the absolute mess around her.

[ashlingkelley-blog]

The boxcar was trashed, to be sure. She’d known it would be as soon as she came up over the hill and saw the lock smashed and the sliding door open. It’d taken her nearly an hour since then to pluck up the courage to approach, just in case the perpetrators were still inside, and now there was nothing to do but sigh - a mirrored habit she’d pick up from her ‘mother’ early in her creation.

Her mattresses had been cut open and the stuffing pulled out in a search for hidden goodies, her chair was broken in two places, and her bookshelf torn apart. The books themselves at least were still fine, if tossed all over the car. “I guess they weren’t really into reading,” she said to herself quietly. Needless to say, the metal lockbox she kept behind some crates had been broken open and her entire supply of caps was gone.

Ashling bent down to pick up a couple books before dropping them back on the floor. She walked over to the open sliding door and sat on the edge of the boxcar, letting her legs dangle. She wasn’t up to dealing with this right now.

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((Ashling is back in Boston and no longer wears a wig or sunglasses.

She even lets her “seams” show on her skin. Her bandage is still in place. This means that any character who interacts with her from now on will see that she is obviously a synth. Some characters who knew her never even saw her sans wig, so...surprise!

I’m 100% down for interactions, casual, serious, planned out, make-it-up-as-we-go, whatever. The two (angelically patient) people I still owe art to: I’m still working on it, one is even like 80% done tbh. They will still happen...some...day...))

[ashlingkelley-blog]

Can you dance? Would you ever like to learn how?

I don’t know how, but I wouldn’t mind learning some day.

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((Taking a break from drawing because my eyesight is not good today but I will have the rest of those doodles up some time this weekend or early next week hopefully. Just a heads up so nobody thinks their request is being ignored!!))

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((These are still going to happen, I just couldn’t do them today due to eyestrain headache. I am determined to get them done this week!!! ))

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((LOOK HOW WRONG I WAS I still intend to do these I s2g I just sort of. Lost all energy. This happens to me a lot I’m sorry. It might be a while but. It. Will happen.))

[ashlingkelley-blog]

Are you curious what the Institute would be be inside?

A little, but I don’t ever really want to find out. I imagine it’s probably clean. That’s something nice, I guess.

[ashlingkelley-blog]

If you had to choose between owning a cat and a dog, which would you pick?

Cats are just like dogs that are small with round heads, so I’ve never really understood the cats versus dogs thing. Both sound nice.

[coolcatcameback-blog]

“Heh! Haha, yeah. Yeah, it does.” Or at the least, it felt like less of a surprise than she’d expected. Weirdly familiar, almost.

But that wasn’t a thought she wanted to linger over. Cat pulled the hair of the wig back into a ponytail with one hand and held up the mirror to inspect her handiwork instead. “Still think I like not havin’ much on my face better. The curls tickle, did ya ever notice that? S’like some sorta dog or somethin’ decided to nap on my head, ha!”

[ashlingkelley-blog]

“You’re just not used to it,” Ashling pointed out, “I have the same problem with new things at first. It takes time for my system to stop processing skin sensory data as high priority when it’s just things like clothes or hair.”

She dropped her hands in her lap, wilting slightly. “It’s...different for you, probably,” she said, “Sorry. I forget we’re not the same even though we’re both synths.”

[boastmastergeneral]

reblog this if i can tumblr im you, just slamming a muse or plot idea down in front of you

[pcthetics-deactivated20161211]

this doesn’t mean that you have to accept or agree with the idea - i’m just a scared little turtle that would like to know if that’s something that you wouldn’t mind so much 

[ashlingkelley-blog]

Is there anywhere in the Commonwealth you just won't go?

Diamond City. I’ve also heard of a place called Covenant that sounds terrible. If I knew where The Institute was, I wouldn’t go there either. I also try to stay away from places The Brotherhood is occupying. And raider places, of course.

And, I guess…places that flood easily. The coastline always rises and falls with the seasons and the weather. It leaves garbage everywhere and rots all the furniture.

[ashlingkelley-blog]

If you could alter your appearance however you wanted to, what would you change?

I guess the most obvious answer is that I would get rid of my “scar”. It’s easier to cover than my eyes, but it represents damage whereas my eyes are perfectly fine, really, they just don’t look like everyone elses’. That’s not so terrible, until other people make it out to be. I’m fine with everything else, myself. It’s the damage that bothers me.

[coolcatcameback-blog]

“Whaaaaaat! Hair’s so fun t’play with, though!” Cat beamed and took the wig. She pushed her bangs out of her face and carefully slid it into place on top of her head.

She shuffled over towards the mirror and picked it up, “Haha, I mean, shiiit, I ain’t never seen myself with it but damn I bet I look…” She felt her lips twitch into a frown for a half a heartbeat as she studied herself.

“…goddamn amazin’! Just like I thought.” Cat whirled around to face Ash again, posing melodramatically with her chin jut out and a hand behind her head. “What d’ya think? Does it suit me? Make me look classy as fuck, like some sorta pre-war dame? Eh?”

[ashlingkelley-blog]

Ashling frowned when Cat went momentarily silent at the mirror - Cat was so cheery and energetic most of the time that it stood out in stark contrast whenever she went quiet or frowny.

She eased as the moment ended and Cat turned, all smiles as usual. She must have just been surprised at how she looked with longer hair, Ashling told herself, it’s just a wig after all.

“You look nice,” she said, “Surprisingly, it suits you.”

[ashlingkelley-blog]

Have you ever felt bad for telling a lie?

Yes. But not bad enough to stop. Lies are important, sometimes. I wish I didn’t have to do it so much, though.

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((anyway here’s the first ever design sketch of Ash since I just found it in the depths of my folders, called simply “syntheticgirl.png” since she didn’t have a proper name yet. Is this anything anyone cares about. OH WELL))

oof. Anyway the basics haven’t really changed. The biggest change is her cheek damage, which was originally like...a cracked porcelain sort of deal coming from above her ear. Which I stand by as being really neat, but it just didn’t make any sense. There’s nobody who would mistake hard, crackable material for real human skin. How would she even make expressions.

Also you can see a little on the undisguised side-view, but originally I wasn’t giving to give her the standard Gen 2 synth seams but rather unique chest-and-neck-only ones to leave her arms and legs free to look more seamless and human-like, but then I was like. No. I’m already probably pushing it with making a ~sooper unique~ Gen 2 lmao.

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((Taking a break from drawing because my eyesight is not good today but I will have the rest of those doodles up some time this weekend or early next week hopefully. Just a heads up so nobody thinks their request is being ignored!!))

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((These are still going to happen, I just couldn’t do them today due to eyestrain headache. I am determined to get them done this week!!! ))

[ashlingkelley-blog]

((Taking a break from drawing because my eyesight is not good today but I will have the rest of those doodles up some time this weekend or early next week hopefully. Just a heads up so nobody thinks their request is being ignored!!))