Hey, Silas, I have a bit of an issue. Maybe you and the others can give me some advice. So, a few months ago, I got hired to take out some poor schmuck who messed with the wrong guy. But before I could kill him, my employer's wanted me to get some info out of him without raising too much alarm. Annoying, but whatever. Just shmooze up to him for a few months, get the info, ask him for a drink, and strangle him with a piano string when he's got his back turned. I've done it plenty of times before, nothing special. Only... I think I kinda accidentally caught feelings for my target? Yes, I know, rookie mistake, check your emotions out at the door and all that, but it wasn't like I was TRYING to fall for him!! He's just... different from my other targets. He's sweet and funny, and he doesn't treat me like some pretty accessory to drag around so that his rich buddies can oggle at. He treats me like a person. Like, I mean something. I've tried to walk myself through every scenario I can, trying to find a way around these stupid feelings, but every time, I just imagine those fear filled eyes staring back at me, and his terrified voice begging me to stop, and it kills me. It's like staring down the barrel of a shot gun at a stupid little puppy! It doesn't know it's about to get its head blown off. It just sees you, and that's all it takes to make it wag its dumb little tail, and you can't pull the trigger cause all you can see are those soft, naive, loving eyes! Hell, I have the information I need! All I need to do is kill him, but I can't bring myself to do it! I know I can't kill him, but I also know my employers are relentless. If they find out, they'll probably just kill me and find someone else to do the job. I feel like my only choices are to kill the guy I fell in love with or warn him, so maybe he can get away... which would mean he'd probably hate me and never want to see me again. And that's probably the best case scenario. I can't tell what's worse. The thought of those eyes being full of fear and confusion. Or the thought of them being full of anger and betrayal... what should I do? I feel like there's no right decision here. That I'm trapped.
Silas had seemed to falter, for once. The look of pure confidence in his yellow green eyes faded almost instantly throughout the confession the Anon had to make. The hurt, the pining, longing, and the fear...he just knew he had to answer this somehow, yet he hesitated...almost as if he had gone through this exact thing.
"I would suggest...warn him as quickly as possible: if that does not work, scare him away." Silas' voice was flat, soft. "Do not stop trying to scare him away if he is persistent, it only hurts you more. As he is your target and you are attracted to him, your heart will only hurt more if he dies, rather than ushering him away..."
Lacrimosa had paused, only to roll her eyes. She got up from sitting, using the ashtray nearby to extinguish her cigarette. Her tail lashed around in impatience as she stood next to the Anon, a gentle hand tilting their chin up. While she seemed to be annoyed and peevish with the question, she tried to speak with a soft yet firm motherly tone.
"...mei deliciae, if it is a mission you have to complete, you must show your strength. It does not matter if you love him...your job has to come first before that chance of being hurt by the one you love befalls you. Suck it up, and get it over with." Her voice had an edge to it. Her amber eyes narrowed. "It is not worth it getting sentimental over someone so useless..."
Silas wanted to protest, but was quickly shot down in fear and anxiety when Lacrimosa cast him a warning glare. The two fell silent, exchanging glances, then fully turning towards the Anon.
...the three of you knew how this felt...but the deed had to be done. You need to kill him...no matter how much it hurts.
