Ask Colton Miller

OC Acc for the ADJ AU 💜 Rest in Peace Leora 💜

[askcoltonmiller]

This art ask/text blog is not canon compliant and is more or less a chaotic modern AU. [Lore Post] - [Straw.page] - [Playlist Post]

Character Masterlist

[Jimmy] - [Curly] - [Daisuke] - [Anya]

Associated OCs

[Pidge] - [Leora] - [Stephanie] - [Prudence]

Please note that characters reactions, opinions, and words likely DO NOT REFLECT the moderators own and shouldn’t be taken as such. Moderator is an ADULT and this blog has ADULT CONTENT.

[askcoltonmiller]

To mod

[sending u love and support]

I hope you’re doing ok

Mod Note

Hello darling! I’m doing better each day. I’m still struggling, but it takes time to get closure from a loss so close like this. I still miss Leora... I talk to them in my truck when I’m working alone, I listen to the music they sent me, think about art I was going to draw for them. Some nights I think “I’m so excited to call with my friends tonight, I miss Leora!” And forget they aren’t here anymore. It’s just a process of acceptance.

I appreciate the support from you, I really do. Thank you so much for checking up on me all the time. I think you’re such a sweet soul and I adore you 💕💕💕 I hope you’re doing well.

[askcoltonmiller]

Jesus colt- you need to get a grip man, you're absolutely delusional, I know you miss your kids and being with someone that loves you, but please, you can get that somewhere better.

Even if the baby was yours, then what? You'd still be miserable, the kid would be miserable if you split custody or anything of the sort

(For mod: WELCOME BACK I MISSED YOU SMMM)

Listen… I get you’re all upset about me trying to be part of this kids life, but at this point, I can’t lose another kid. I can’t… it’s going to send me over the edge.

I’m trying… I’m really, genuinely trying not to fuck anything else up in my life. I just want to feel connected to something on this rock…

It gives me the drive to not relapse again.

(Mod note: HI I LOVE U SO MUCH 💕💕💕)

[askcoltonmiller]

So… me and Grant talked, and surprisingly we didn’t kill each other.

[askcoltonmiller]

Do you think you and Curly could ever get along?

I’d like to try to be… if I want to be in my POTENTIAL child’s life, and also Jimmy’s, Grant and I are going to have to learn to play nice.

I’m willing to work towards that and put our differences aside, but I don’t know how Grant will feel.

[askcoltonmiller]

How does it feel knowing you might have to spend holidays with Curly if the baby is yours?

Please don’t remind me…

[askcoltonmiller]

Are you excited to talk to Grant?

No. But I guess this is for the best. Just hoping he can stay civil enough to talk to me about whatever he wants to talk about.

I get it, he’s marking his territory like a dog, but I’m not trying to steal anything.

[askgrantcurly]

Long overdue, I suppose.

[askcoltonmiller]

Did you see Jimmy decided on a name for the baby?

Yeah, I like Jude. I really like it! I think it’s a pretty name regardless of the gender. Jimmy did a good job picking one.

[askcoltonmiller]

Krollton Miller 🦐

… are you calling me a shrimp? Not mad just… confused.

[askcoltonmiller]

I need you to understand being all nice guy doesn't fix what you've done. You don't deserve contact with Jimmy.

While you are right, I am working on myself, I’m respecting Jimmy’s boundaries, and I’ve accepted that Jimmy won’t ever be mine. I’m not a threat. Please understand that this isn’t about Jimmy anymore… it’s about having a relationship with my kid… If the kid is mine, that is. If it isn’t, I’m gone. I… won’t be a problem ever again. To anyone. That’ll be it. None of you will have to worry… I promise.

[askcoltonmiller]

I went home today. My wife left the house… it’s been an empty shell for the last couple months. She left everything… so I went through some of our old stuff to find some of the baby stuff we set in the attic. There’s a lot of good stuff in here… stuff Jimmy could probably use.

I’m gonna ask if he’d like any of it.

[askcoltonmiller]

I just got home. The talk with Jimmy went well once he put his phone down. I feel really bad cutting out his husband from this conversation, but it was the only way to get anything good out.

I started out with a thorough apology. It was wrong what I did… I was messed up during rehab and I created a lot of unwarranted drama in his life. I shouldn’t have broken into his apartment… and I apologized for going crazy and getting possessive after we had sex… once. I was pathetic, broken, and had lost everything, and I put that all on Jimmy. He didn’t deserve any of it, especially since he was dealing with his own shit.

Once that was all said and we talked a little about that, we decided some ground rules for the baby. When he gives birth… if they turn out to be mine, he’s going to allow me supervised visitation every so often. That way I at least have a relationship with one of my kids… I offered some financial help with appointments, supplies, clothes, anything he needs when he’s pregnant, regardless of if it’s mine or his.

No matter what, Grant will be the one raising the kid, and as much as I wish that wouldn’t happen… I’ve accepted that as long as I can still be involved. Overall, everything went better than I thought it would, and I’m grateful that I finally was able to talk to him. He let me leave first so I wouldn’t follow him home, I understand his fear, and I wanna do whatever will make him comfortable.

The last thing I want is for him to stress out while pregnant.

[askcoltonmiller]

Colt, for the love of God, don't do anything stupid while you're there.

I appreciate you all looking out for Jimmy, but I assure you, I’m on my best behavior.

I’ve been sober since the day I broke into his apartment. It was stupid of me… I was going through a lot after I lost my wife, still am… but I’m in therapy again and I’m working on myself. I just… don’t want to lose contact with another kid, I can’t.

[askcoltonmiller]

I took a break to go to the bathroom but like, Jimmy’s really upset right now… we were talking just fine for about 10 minutes until Grant started blowing up his phone.

I get it. If Jimmy was mine, I’d be in the same boat as him… but he isn’t, and he won’t be. He’s married, and as much as I don’t like Grant, I respect Jim enough not to talk poorly about him again.

I’ve been trying to calm him down so we can talk again… we might be here longer than I thought because of his husband. I’ll keep you guys updated when we finish, I have to go back out to the cafe again.

[askcoltonmiller]

Alright… I made it to this coffee shop a little early.

I’m kind of nervous to see Jim again… last time ended very poorly, but I have some hope that this might be a bit more… palatable for him.

[askdrunkjimmy]

Colt texted me.