(Macy had sort of just started staring off into space. She was feeling weird. As is mod.)
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Sabrina didnāt mind. Sheād seen this behaviour before. She held her and soothed her, murmuring reassurances and periodically bouncing her on her knee.
(Macy cuddled closer before starting to cry.)
Shh, shh, shh. Thatās it. Let it out. Have a good, big cry, Macy. Do you want me to get anybody for you?
(Macy shook her head, gripping onto her like crazy.)
Iām here. I know.. Youāre vulnerable and emotional. Life feels so hard right now.
Do you want me to take my dress off so that you can feel my skin against you?
(Macy nodded, though she made no attempt to loosen her grip.)
Sabrina managed with some difficulty to take off the lilac dress she was wearing.
There we go.
She guided Macyās head against her chest so that she could listen to her heart.
(Macy was hyperventilating.)
No, honey. Breathe. Deep breath in and deep breath out. Youāre going to be sick or pass out.
"Help?"
(Macy managed to sob.)
Do you want a sedative, lovebug? Just a mild one?
(Macy nodded.)
Sabrina got up, carrying her through the house. She didnāt care that she was only in her underwear. Macy needed her.
Here. I have one just for you. Itās a liquid and itās strawberry flavoured.
She drew up a syringe full.
Open.
(Macy did as she was told.)
Sabrina pushed down on the plunger of the syringe.
Now swallow. Thatās a good girl.
(Macy attempted to but immediately threw up on herself.)
Oh, precious girl.. Letās get you in a nice, warm bath and clean you up. Itās alright.
She walked into her ensuite.
Poor little girl.
(Macy was still sobbing. This is based on the fact I will throw up if I ever have to take liquid medicine, I do not care, give me the giant pill.)
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!"
Itās alright! Nobody is hurt. Would you prefer a pill, honey?
"I'm sorry! Sorry!"
(Macy clung to her.)
You have done nothing wrong.
Sabrina ran the water and helped Macy undress which was no easy feat considering the way she was clinging to her.. But she managed.
"I'm so stupid!"
You are not and you have never been.
"I want to go home!"
O-Oh.
Sabrina felt rather dejected at that.
Iāll take you.
(It was less genuine request and more overwhelmed toddler.)
Sabrina was autistic and did not compute that.
After we take a bath and give you that pill.
"You... hate me!"
(Macy was ugly crying.)
No, I donāt. Thatās your mind playing tricks on you. I love my little Macy.
"Hugs! Hugs!"
Sabrina squeezed her tightly.
Shh, shh, shh.
(Macy is baby. I do not make the rules. Macy sobbed for a bit longer before finally settling enough to let Sabrina put her in the tub.)
Sabrina set her in the tub and climbed in too.
Sometimes when Ammie was busy I would bathe the twins in here. They always loved it. Theyād giggle and splash each other.. And me. By the end of it I think there was more water on the floor than in the bath!
(Macy pressed her head against Sabrina, trying to cover her eyes.)
There you go.
I used to let them play with little toy fish and sailboats. Theyāre probably still in the cupboard actually.
(She tried to hide her face in Sabrina's shoulder.)
"Did.. they like them?"
They loved them. Riff Raff especially liked the fish.
"I want... to go an aquarium one day..."
(Macy covered her ears as well.)
Weāll go for our next date.
She covered Macyās ears with her hands.
"Too loud... and bright..."
Sabrina let her push her face against her breast and covered her ears firmly.
(Macy nodded.)
"Better..."
Good girl.. Good girl.
Sabrina murmured even though Macy couldnāt hear.
"Can... we stay here forever?"
In Amaranthās home? Of course my love.
In the tub?"
In the tub? No, baby. Imagine how pruny our bodies would become!
"But warm... and you're soft and nice..."
The water will get cold, sweetpea.
Do you want me to be softer? Like my sister?
(Macy nodded.)
"When... when we get out can you carry me?"
Of course I can. Weāll take a nice warm bath every day. More if you want.
Youāre just a little baby. You need to be carried.
"Thank you... Thank you..."
Eventually Sabrina drained the tub, scooped Macy up and swaddled her in a towel, carrying her back to her room.
Do you want to get inside the castle?
(Macy nodded.)
"And can you hold me tight?"
She dressed Macy in a nightgown then helped her into the castle, crawling in beside her.
Iām starting to think that Amaranth doesnāt just have morning sickness. I feel a little green myself.
"The whole castle could... could be sick...
Hugs? Cuddles?"
Maybe.
Sabrina wrapped her arms tightly around Macy, squeezing.
Iāve got you.
"Yes... big hugs...
Sabrina... you love me?"
I adore you, Macy. With all my heart.
"Forever?"
Forever and ever. Til death do we part.
"No matter what? Can we curl up together?"
Sabrina nodded, curling up against Macy sleepily.
"You're like... my big sleepy dragon..."
A big sleepy dragon?
Sabrina laughed.
"But you're also my girlfriend... girlfriend dragon... protecting her princess..."
Iām not that big, a-am I?
"No... I'm just... playing pretend with you."
O-Okay.
Sabrina nodded meekly, closing her eyes.
"You... want to be something else?"
No, Iāll be a dragon. The princess fell in love with a dragon, did she?
"I did... and you protect me now."