melancholia

it isnt like a beat without a melody [ ic vent blog for asomatousaria. viewed ooc unless given link ic. password protected ic. ]

[especially]

[fate]

[recaption]

[danger]

[asomatosity]

unfollowed since i guess were doing that

[recaption]

[danger]

[asomatosity]

two days ago?

[rocktheholygrail]

There are so many unintended consequences to well-intentioned actions. It feels like a game you can’t win.

[asomatosity]

the worst part about losing my memories is ill work up the courage to finally say or admit to something and as the words are coming out of my mouth i could swear i can feel the last time i said them already on my lips because at some point ive already done this

[asomatosity]

well! i tried  i gave you your window and handed you a nice little instructional pamphlet and everything  so if you meant what you said that this is for the best for you anyway and was actually a mistake then thats fine!  on the other hand if its that you havent healed enough to be able to pull yourself from your self loathing long enough to swallow your pride and say the word then thats fine too  theres nothing i can do about either of those things  i may have ended this but dont blame me for breaking this

[asomatosity]

im the only person you want yet youre so quick on the offensive  so quick with your accusations that i impede your growth and that i dont trust you and that our relationship must be a mistake  so threatened that youd rather push me until i have no choice but to leave with my own self respect?  what is it youre threatened by? the fact that you care? your own guilt from hurting me? 

[asomatosity]

wow was that the wrong thing to say!

[asomatosity]

one  you would be jealous if i so much as acknowledged windys existence in public  and two  out of the entire website  out of all the people that are here  out of everyone you choose to talk to and treat like that and “try to socialize with” and be all affectionate and cozy with  even after admitting you see very clearly how easily your actions could be misconstrued you choose your ex

[asomatosity]

i was hivesick

i think im going to go back for a few nights or maybe spend a longer period on the planet caligo showed me

[asomatosity]

i feel nothing!  i feel free  like the wind :)

[asomatosity]

i dont think ive ever been hivesick before you