"The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear."
--- H.P. Lovecraft
The door slam woke her from her nap.
âAntoinette..? I'm home, dear-â
âOh..â she mumbled, pushing herself to a sitting position. How long had she been sleeping? âWhat time is it...?â
âIt's seven, just like I said.â she could hear the clicking of her mother's heels against the wooden floor, approaching her slowly. âAre you ready to go? I made a reservation at this lovely new restaurant, it's gotten ravishing reviews-â
âAre you and father getting a divorce?â
Her question was abrupt and she knew her mother was caught off guard. âW-What..?â
âMother. You didn't bother contacting either of us for years..â her voice was distant. Broken, even. âYou last saw me when I was seven, and when you met my father on the train, you barely even looked at each other...â
She shook her head. âNo, no.. what made you think your father and I were getting.. a divorce?â
âDid you really want me here? Or did you invite me because you wanted to tell me something?â
âAntoinette...â her voice faded, and the smile that once graced her features was long gone. âN-No, we're not divorcing... I just missed you, so much...â
âT-That's not true, I had to-â
âTo pursue your career, I know. And.. I'm glad you were successful, mother, but..â her voice trailed off. She looked up at her mother, who was clearly avoiding her gaze on purpose. âWhat made you think it was okay? T-To leave us just like that..?â
âI...â her mother shook her head. âI don't know..â
âI cried a lot, when I was little.â she took a step towards her, wishing that she could see her face, to know what she was thinking. âDad said you would come back, and that you would call whenever you could... but you didn't... you never did.â
âAntoinette... I meant to.. I really did...â
Her voice cracked. â... I-I thought you didn't love me anymore..â
âN-No, never...â tears began streaming down her face. âCome here,â she whispered, holding her arms out.
And this time, Antoinette didn't hesitate before stepping into her hug. She was trying hard not to cry.
âI-I've been busy...â her mother began, her voice low and quiet. âAt first, days were hard... I could b-barely make enough to get by. The people here.. in the city, they're cruel. Sometimes I-I think they feel no remorse.â
She sniffed, still in her mother's embrace. Do not cry, do not cry..
âI was so determined.. I wanted to prove them wrong... that I wasn't like any other girl. I went after my dream.. I had to, after I gave up so much.â she stopped and looked down at her daughter. âI'm sorry..â
âYou could've came back... d-dad and I, we would've forgiven you.â
She shook her head again. âI was so afraid, Antoinette. This morning, when I met you at the train station, you were so cold and distant. I... I wondered if you hated me for all I did.â
âI could never hate you.â she whispered.
âI'm so glad to hear that.â
They stood there for a little longer before they released each other. âHe still loves you, you know.â Antoinette mumbled afterwards, breaking the silence.
âAnd I still love him.â a slow smile spread across her face. âEven if we did get a divorce.. we'll never stop loving you, all right? Antoinette, you are our child, and we'll love you no matter what.â
âR-Really..?â do.. not.. cry...
âOf course... we'll always be a family.â
Her mother patted her on the back gently, waiting until her daughter would stop and gather herself together. They stood, one comforting the other, minutes passing by and not one word said.
âI'm so sorry, Antoinette.â she murmured, placing a light peck on her daughter's forehead.
âIt's okay. I.. forgive you.â she replied, a genuine smile spreading across her face as she wiped the last tear away. We'll always be a family...
âDo you still want to go out for food..? I'm quite tired, to be honest.â her mother broke the silence first this time. She wasn't feeling too hungry either.
âNo, I think.. I think I'll go to bed.â
âAll right, then. Good night, Antoinette.â
She turned around and headed towards the stairs, but she stopped. âWait.. I need to ask you one more thing.â
âDo I.. make you proud?â
âEvery day.â she answered with a smile, nodding her head. âSweet dreams.â
â... good night, mom.â
And she retreated upstairs, a strange, warm feeling bubbling inside of her as she turned off the lights and closed her eyes... at peace.