Poison and wine

Rachel Evans. I am a 25 year old aspiring actress and I am here well, because of reasons.

[saminboston]

Oh, wow. Now I’m blushing. You know, miss, if you wanted, you could kiss me right now to see what it’s like. I wouldn’t mind. You’re a girl who accepts a guy’s comic book habit? You must really be the girl for me. I know I’m moving awfully fast, but I think I might have a ring that’ll fit your pretty little finger if you’d like to wear it. 

[aspiringrachel]

I just might have to take you up on that offer, sir. I accept a guy having passions about something and comics are wonderful things, I might not have the same commitment but I have read a few over the years. You already have the ring? How could I say no to that.

[aspiringrachel]

Private || Samchel

[saminboston]

Hmm. I guess you have. But you’re so good at making my headaches go away it’s easy to forget  all the times you’ve given me one. Consider it your superpower. I’m glad that you want to keep me around. I feel like an idiot for ever thinking I could live without you.

[aspiringrachel]

If I can make you happy, then I am doing something right. I like my super power. Do you have one of those? Sam, you are the love of my life.

[saminboston]

Yes, as beautiful as you. It’s not charm, just simple honesty, miss. You’d be surprised. I think some girls find my trouty mouth unappealing. Or maybe it’s my comic book collection? For what it’s worth, I know it can’t be my impressions, because those are first rate.

[aspiringrachel]

You have me blushing. They find it unappealing? All I can think of is what it would be like to kiss you. Comic books are never something to judge a person on. I don't really read them myself but the art form is amazing and they work hard. I am sure they are amazing, like you are. 

[aspiringrachel]

Private || Samchel

[saminboston]

Simpler maybe, but those type of women give me a headache. I can’t lie though, I really do enjoy showing you off when I get a chance. You’re quite the catch, you know. I’m pretty sure everyone who knows anything about me is surprised I’ve done so well. 

[aspiringrachel]

I am sure that I have given you a fair share of headaches over the years. I am just glad that you see something you want to keep around. That you love me after knowing all of the secrets I never wanted to keep. 

[saminboston]

It is a long time, but I think you just know when you meet the right person, don’t you? I mean where else am I going to meet a girl as beautiful as you?

[aspiringrachel]

As beautiful as me? Now you are quite the charmer. I am sure you have girls falling over their feet just to be near you. 

[aspiringrachel]

Private || Samchel

[saminboston]

Hey, you’re more than just my trophy wife. You’re my wife, my partner, my best friend and you deserve happiness just as much as I do, more so even. 

[aspiringrachel]

I know I am more than that. If you only wanted one of those you would have married someone else and things would have been simpler but there are times when I play that part for you. And I like it. I like seeing your label have success. I know, I know. I love you and I am happy, I have you back.

[saminboston]

Oh, really? Do I qualify? Because I’ve been looking for a nice girl like you all my life. It’d be nice if I could stop looking. 

[aspiringrachel]

All your life, that seems like a long time to just settle with me.

[osnapitzemmalyn]

[aspiringrachel]

I swear, my fathers could talk anyone into a coma.

[cheeriokittykat]

Well yeah there is that an then the fact that I think this is a chance for people to see that we should hold our celebreties to a higher standard or at least I hold my clients to a higher standard. Well of course he doesn’t but that’s natural. There is nothing wrong with you both being like a long distance couple but are you sure that it’s something you want after you both have been working to patch things up? Well you’ll be there for the big day so you can give me luck then.

[aspiringrachel]

They are people and even if someone 'normal' was acting like that, there would be repercussions.  I know there is nothing wrong with it and it would only be during the week, I would fly back or he would come to visit me and he as already requested we would skype every night but I did almost lose him. For the very reason that I wanted to pursue my career and us being back together, him giving me this a big step. I want to make him proud. Yes, I can and I will but I am getting in early as well. 

[aspiringrachel]

I swear, my fathers could talk anyone into a coma.

[cheeriokittykat]

The way I look at it, his celebrity has been tarnished by his bad boy image and while that works for some people it is so not working for him. There is a reason why I tell my clients to be on their best fmbehavior and if they decide to do something terrible to keep it out of the public eye. If anything he is ruining his career because Canadian pop stars are just something you hear about on HIMYM and not really a real thing because even Avril came to the states. I think you both should take his advice, move out to new york together where Sam can work on building the label there too. I doubt you would like move out there without him. It should be me, I have been planning it for forever.

[aspiringrachel]

I guess there is a lot juggling with that. Being a real person and then adhering to the rules of the celebrity world that we live in now a days. He doesn't want to move with me. I don't want to go without him but, I know I have to do this. The label is just starting to take off here and I am so proud of him for that. I give you all my luck for your big day. 

[aspiringrachel]

I swear, my fathers could talk anyone into a coma.

[cheeriokittykat]

I actually think he could be. I was talking to my daddy and it might have been his dislike for the Biebs but he said based off principle and the amount of misdemeanors he has that as a diplomat it would make it difficult for him to defend his actions. I wouldn’t have let a screaming match happen at my wedding. I’m hoping the most drama we have on that day is the rose pedals falling into the pews and not just in the aisles. It’s good that you two still know that all you want is each other. I don’t think it’s crazy. In a way it’s like the small fights are you both showing each other that your relationship is something worth fighting for. I like that quote that the opposite of love isn’t hate, it’s indifference. If you both didn’t fight then there would be no point in even being in a relationship.

[aspiringrachel]

But unfortunately, you have the backlash that will happen, because he is in a position of power because of his celebrity. I don't know if it would be best for the industry. There definitely isn't going to be one because Sam and I are fine. Well, we are working through everything but I think we are finally seeing each others points of view. I mean, he suggested that I move to New York to pursue my dream. I hope that is the most drama you have on that day. Weddings can be really stressful. I am not gonna lie but if anyone can pull it off without a hitch, it would be you. 

[aspiringrachel]

I swear, my fathers could talk anyone into a coma.

[cheeriokittykat]

It really must be a nightmare I mean now people signing petitions to get him deported back to Canada, it’s insane. You are supposed to say that about him since he’s your other half. I say it all from a place of kindness. Of course I would have invited the both of you and maybe I would have parent trapped you by making you two sit at the same table either way.

[aspiringrachel]

Yeah, well he hasn't exactly been a model citizen and you have to think about how all of that works. I don't think he will actually get deported though. He is my other half, my better half. If things were going how they were, we probably would have just screamed at each other at the wedding but we are working things out. I am glad because I don't want to be with anyone but him. You know the feeling, right? It just works and when it doesn't, the passion that is there shows me that everything could work, that it should work. Maybe I am crazy. 

[aspiringrachel]

Private || Samchel

[saminboston]

Do you think you could just tell me all of that everyday for the rest of our lives? I love that you feel that way about me. I guess it’s just hard for me to believe sometimes partially because of our mixed up priorities, but mostly because I don’t always feel deserving of it. 

[aspiringrachel]

Samuel Evans, I hate it when you get like this. I wish you could see yourself the way I do and I am gonna spend every day of my life trying to get you to see it. I am married to a handsome man, who is talented and knows how to work with people. They trust you with their music, which can be the most secret part of a person and I know how your artists admire you. I hear their chatter while I am being your trophy wife. I wish you saw that, when you walk into a room, people want to talk to you and you are a true gentleman. How many people in the 21st Century still open doors for women, or pull out their chair? You are amazing, and you deserve happiness. I hope you can find that with me.

[aspiringrachel]

I swear, my fathers could talk anyone into a coma.

[cheeriokittykat]

I will get a test done and tell you which one as soon as I find out. Things are definitely getting done and none of my clients are like the Biebs so I’m actually thankful because then I would be in hell. Better ground with your loser does count as dish. I am so happy for you Rach! Sending you both seperate invites to my wedding could have been mega awks.

[aspiringrachel]

Hopefully you pass those traits on one day. I can't imagine what his publicist must be going through right now. It must be doing here head in. Do not call him a loser, Sugar. He is so far from that. It would have been slightly awkward but I am glad that would invite both of us.

[aspiringrachel]

Private || Samchel

[saminboston]

Of course I want you to come back to me. That’s kind of the idea right…you set her free and if she comes back to you, she’s yours? I don’t want to hold you back from what you want, Rach. I never did. I just…honestly it kind of freaks me out…I worry that we’ll grow apart. You’ll fall even more in love with New york and eventually Broadway and eventually you’ll stop needing me as much as I need you.

[aspiringrachel]

The thing is I'm yours. Your wife, completely and I know with everything that we have been through lately, it might be hard for you to believe that I want to stick around. Yes, Broadway, musical theater means so much to me. I need you. I always have. You're my rock, my place where I can just be and I don't have to worry about anything. You are the love of my life and I could become a Tony Award Winning actress but if you weren't in the audience, it would kill me. I know we have different priorities with career and family but I still love you, I want to grow old with you and hear you tell our grand children horrible jokes but I will laugh every time. I don't think you realize how much I love you, how much I want you in my life.

[patriothudson-deactivated201403]

Trust me, I’ve learned that lesson well… Having a kitchen again doesn’t hurt, either, haha.

How’ve you been, Rachel? Better than I’ve been, hopefully.

[aspiringrachel]

And your own stuff would be nice, knowing where everything is and such. 

Things have been looking up for me lately, not that I would wish ill fate on you. Is everything on the mend for you?

[aspiringrachel]

@Sam

[saminboston]

You don’t like living without me, but you’d rather live without me in New York for your career than stay here in Boston with me, right?

[aspiringrachel]

I would rather that you came with me to New York but your work is here in Boston and you know how much I have wanted this. I know what sort of position it puts you in, I know that I come off selfish with this but give me some time. I'm always gonna be coming home to you, if you want me too.