ok here it is the big reflection
yeeeeaaaaaah for the majority of the year I felt I was all aboard the struggle bus and just. unable to make the art I wanted to make. I mean school definitely made me start and finish a bunch of illustrations but they usually were rushed and didn’t focus on vis dev so the fact that I was creating work that wasn’t even something relevant to developing a portfolio stressed me out and wasn't a good time. and like, January 2016, I had the attitude that most people have during the beginning of a year, that this would be my year, that I was gonna make all this art blah blah blah and none of those aspirations really came to fruition (which makes me a little paranoid about this year bc ….is history gonna repeat itself?).
but in making this art summary and digging through the art I had (a LOT of in progress junk and stuff) I came out with some finished pieces. are they perfect? hell no. are they pieces that truly and genuinely reflect who I am as a person and my artist goals? pfft NO. but they’re finished and they’re there and I’m satisfied enough with them. for the most part. like I did make art this year regardless of how I feel about it, more than I remember actually! there’s like….no consistent style here which I’m gonna take as “I experimented a lot” artistically. which is always good.
shout out to June bc I took the time to actually paint that study I did at work, on my own and everything. and April too bc I still like that piece. also got 50 dollars out of it by selling it to my dad lmao. the first half of the year actually wasn’t that bad….November tho. special mention to that month for being particularly horrible in terms of artistic progression. way too much on my plate. totally struggled with the assignment the November slot is for.
I feel like I’m rambling at this point - this was so much more organized in my head so I’m gonna break it down into three categories:
good shit that happened: experimented with mixed media and different styles / finished stuff / did observational studies and visual development on my own time / had something to show for each month / took a character design class and a sequential art class which was more of my jam than my actual required classes
bad art nonsense: this blog was literally inactive for months…. / was always finishing shit super last minute! I’m lucky my teachers are typically kind and lax graders lmao 😅/ turned in so much half done work?! / not! enough! ocs - talk about them dude! DRAW. THEM / still struggling with procrastination / also struggling with time management + work ethic and habits
things I want accomplish in 2k17: I wanna draw my stories / OCs so bad!!!! not like a comic but just!!!! drawing them and writing about them so people know what’s going on in my Noggin / finishing work on time / fill out a sketchbook! maybe even two!!! / understanding the amount of workload I can take on and how to accomplish assignments efficiently / pace myself / paintings! / just post your work!!!
overall I hope this year was just a stepping stone to bigger and better things....a hurdle I clumsily jumped over and slightly crashed into.
I’m probably gonna be using this blog as a dumping ground because social media in general is intimidating but tumblr really freaks me out? I’ll make an official post on this later but I’m way more active on IG (I’m at asterioma) and I just recently made a twitter (at astriferious) so whatever I dump here would probably be at one of those places first, although I probably will talk more on here when I do post on here….tumblr’s good for Huge Blocks of Text.
hopefully I’ll be more active artistically and virtually but like….I’m not promising anything! and thanks for reading this if you did since I’m just blabbering rn!
