Boston Keep My Bones

Brokowski's Poetry Blog

[astheshipsinks]

I want catharsis. I want to vomit up poetry instead of empty threats to whichever artery seems most important to sustaining my anatomy.

I want agency. I want to erase this filter. This nagging tendency I have to self censor for no reason other than accidental exposure.

I want to be handsome. I want to focus my vanity, to be proud of the feeling that all eyes are on me for reasons that don’t pertain to being a monstrosity.

I want to be normal. I want to rid myself of my envy, of my narcissism, of the war against this constant enemy and exhume the entity hellbent on sapping all my energy.

[astheshipsinks]

Polaris

Even as the bows bow down and the masts crack and drown we’re both still bounding around the flotsam, sounding off for a compass rose, for one true north to close the distance between our sinking ships.

[astheshipsinks]

This one too. I think drunk me is a romantic.

[brokowskii]

Arr fuck you

I’ve been smoking all natural cigarettes so the mortician will know my cancer was organic.

I’m vocal with a keyboard, been practicing so my words per minute can replace my epitaph.

I’ve penned lots of poems about death and suicide to practice for the one time I sort of try and fail.

I say fuck more than I should but I’m sure in some cultures curses are the only thing that can counter other curses.

I really only drink water, except for the 6 nights a week where I only drink alcohol but I really only drink water.

I was never afraid of the dark. I’m just afraid of dimmed lights and grocery stores and everything outside my apartment door.

[astheshipsinks]

I want catharsis. I want to vomit up poetry instead of empty threats to whichever artery seems most important to sustaining my anatomy.

I want agency. I want to erase this filter. This nagging tendency I have to self censor for no reason other than accidental exposure.

I want to be handsome. I want to focus my vanity, to be proud of the feeling that all eyes are on me for reasons that don’t pertain to being a monstrosity.

I want to be normal. I want to rid myself of my envy, of my narcissism, of the war against this constant enemy and exhume the entity hellbent on sapping all my energy.

[brokowskii]

Arr fuck you

I’ve been smoking all natural cigarettes so the mortician will know my cancer was organic.

I’m vocal with a keyboard, been practicing so my words per minute can replace my epitaph.

I’ve penned lots of poems about death and suicide to practice for the one time I sort of try and fail.

I say fuck more than I should but I’m sure in some cultures curses are the only thing that can counter other curses.

I really only drink water, except for the 6 nights a week where I only drink alcohol but I really only drink water.

I was never afraid of the dark. I’m just afraid of dimmed lights and grocery stores and everything outside my apartment door.

[astheshipsinks]

Polaris

Even as the bows bow down and the masts crack and drown we’re both still bounding around the flotsam, sounding off for a compass rose, for one true north to close the distance between our sinking ships.

[astheshipsinks]

This one too. I think drunk me is a romantic.

[astheshipsinks]

Going through my old poetry blog and boy howdy do I suck at writing.

[astheshipsinks]

Going through my old poetry blog and boy howdy do I suck at writing.

[astheshipsinks]

Polaris

Even as the bows bow down and the masts crack and drown we’re both still bounding around the flotsam, sounding off for a compass rose, for one true north to close the distance between our sinking ships.

[astheshipsinks]

This one too. I think drunk me is a romantic.

[brokowskii]

What is the value of blood upon exiting a vein and staining the ground?

What is to stop the flood, the great uncoiling skein the final trumpeting sound?

We have destined ourselves to rust, ash, bone and fuel for a manmade ouroboros.

We have been put on shelves, made to sit, made to stand, made to pledge odes so porous.

[kafaminguzelligi]

[ojos-del-cielo-deactivated20221]

I’m craving reciprocated feelings.

[katara-deactivated20130617]

sometimes im like ? but most times im like ?????????

[astheshipsinks]

fake panes and outdoor opaques behind faux frames and plexiglass stunted arches mask bolted on doors that beg to ask to be opened more but the nails in the walls stand stronger than the nails that pry, impatient and sober to the fate they resigned themselves to by signing the name and date on those pages lingering like shamed dogs in their cages

[brokowskii]

It’s Saturday night and I’m out of the stuff I need to keep me grounded. So now I’m stuck floating in an apartment missing sleep and astounded. How did I strike out at twenty three? I was supposed to have a few more years before I felt this old and unwanted after going a day without a couple of…

[brokowskii]

Arr fuck you

I’ve been smoking all natural cigarettes so the mortician will know my cancer was organic.

I’m vocal with a keyboard, been practicing so my words per minute can replace my epitaph.

I’ve penned lots of poems about death and suicide to practice for the one time I sort of try and fail.

I say fuck more than I should but I’m sure in some cultures curses are the only thing that can counter other curses.

I really only drink water, except for the 6 nights a week where I only drink alcohol but I really only drink water.

I was never afraid of the dark. I’m just afraid of dimmed lights and grocery stores and everything outside my apartment door.

[brokowskii]

Arr fuck you

I’ve been smoking all natural cigarettes so the mortician will know my cancer was organic.

I’m vocal with a keyboard, been practicing so my words per minute can replace my epitaph.

I’ve penned lots of poems about death and suicide to practice for the one time I sort of try and fail.

I say fuck more than I should but I’m sure in some cultures curses are the only thing that can counter other curses.

I really only drink water, except for the 6 nights a week where I only drink alcohol but I really only drink water.

I was never afraid of the dark. I’m just afraid of dimmed lights and grocery stores and everything outside my apartment door.