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bad animations#4:

breath in

and

let it go...

does it feel much better now?

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Not as bad as I thought.

It felt like a burden has lifted off my shoulders.

I can't believe it has taken me so long to do such a simple thing,

to breathe.

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bad animations#3: You’re all alone. Again. .

But I no longer regret it, ya know?

I feel like...I'm finally set free,

free from all the worries that have burdened my mind every time I should have been happy;

free from all the tears that have threatened to betray me in front of others;

Yet there is now a void right where they just left

and I don't know what to do with it.

I've ended up giving into its gravity more often than I want to admit, doing nothing but crying on the freshly ripped off wound,

crying about being left alone. But at least I am finally

free

(for now).

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bad animations#2: I don’t recognize you anymore,

was it falling in or out of love that has changed you?

.

love changed me. love blinded me, that’s why

you don’t recognize me. 

believe me, I don’t even recognize myself. 

yet deep down I have always known that once the dopamine rush fades away,

I could never help but question 

why I did that

why I let them do that to me…

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bad animations#1: why do you still cry about it?

it is but a memory. shouldn't you have gotten over it?

.

no, you got me wrong. I'm over it.

but every time I look their way,

every time my eyes accidentally glance over their place,

I keep reliving that moment when my world felt like it went tumbling down.

I hate how hurt I felt back then, so

my eyes can't help but water.

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SERIES I. bad animations

Ingredients: - an iPad and pen - a throbbed heart - a dull mind