i love my desire

[10:24 PM] ateez said: you're my treasure

[ateezsofthours]

[6:00 PM] seonghwa sees you sitting alone with your hands in your lap and a sad, distant look on your face. quietly, as to not startle you, he approaches and asks if the seat next to yours is taken before asking about your day. when you tell him that it could be better, he gives you a little smile and though to be honest he looks a little bit awkward, it does make you feel slightly better. 

you try your best to hold it in but when he puts a hand on your back and tells you that he’s here if you need someone to talk to, your tears spill on their own. 

he seems taken aback, almost apologetic but when you look up at him quivering lips, red nosed and teary eyed, he moves closer and wraps his arms around your shoulders without hesitation. 

warm in the embrace, you find yourself burying your face into his shoulder and like he’d promised, seonghwa stays, silently rubbing circles on your back as he listens and lets you cry. 

[ateezsofthours]

[7:00 AM] it’s barely daybreak but as you watch san already practicing with his bow and arrow in the garden down below, you feel energized by a thousand suns. your elbow on the window sill, your chin rests on top of your palm, gazing dreamily down at the boy of your affections. you watch with great interest, the way he skillfully draws back the bow, taking aim and letting the weapon hit its intended target.

even from the tower, you see the tension in san’s muscles, as if the weight of something as heavy as the world rests upon his shoulders. perhaps it has something to do with a certain member of the royal family.

you think back to the first time you ever watched san shoot. how you had heard praises of the young prodigy and his skills as an archer before seeing it yourself. how truly impressive and composed san was. for days, you didn’t let yourself forget the image of san proving himself to be the best archer of the kingdom, the control he had over the weapon even on the back of a horse and the accuracy of his shots.

you’re snapped out of your daze when you realize you’ve been caught staring, or rather, admiring the boy. san waits until he catches your gaze, holding it for as long as he allows it. he’s conflicted, caught between his feelings for you and his duty. nevertheless, san knows his heart. he’d do anything for you.

[ateezsofthours]

[11:00 AM] having felt under the weather for the past couple of days, you text wooyoung to cancel your date plans. not even twenty minutes after you send the text, you hear knocking. at your door stands your boyfriend, bags in his hand with eyes wide with concern. he’s asking you too many questions too fast for you to answer but he’s worried and it’s sweet. quickly wooyoung’s moving you along and sitting you back down on your couch, wrapping a blanket around your shoulders. he tells you about what he’s brought over in order to nurse you back to perfect health. with a kiss on your forehead, wooyoung promises to look after you for the rest of the day. 

[ateezsofthours]

[9:00 PM] you're leaving a frozen yogurt place, hand-in-hand with san as he's humming to himself. you realize that he's been side-eyeing you for a moment, and raise an eyebrow to ask,

“why are you looking at me like that?”

“i'm just super duper in love with you,” he replies simply, squeezing your hand. as sweet as that is, you're still suspicious

and san can tell, a cheeky grin coming to his face as he stops the two of you. despite kissing him many times, you're still momentarily surprised when he locks his lips with yours. you can still taste the lingering sweetness of the frozen yogurt he had. coconut, if you’re remembering correctly

as he pulls back, he admits, “and also you had froyo on your face”

your cheeks turn a slight shade of pink in embarrassment. san leans back in,

“oh wait, you still got some. i'll get it,” he says before reconnecting your lips

[ateezsofthours]

hi! uh, so i was the anon that asked about the street racer! mingi fic a long time ago, and i actually did start that fic. i didn't really know if anyone would read it, but i noticed someone ask about it, so i posted the first two chapters. i'm not sure if i like how it turned out so far but i'd love to hear feedback from you or any of your followers! :')

[5:20 PM] 💌 admin starlight said: ahhh this makes me so happy that someone made a fic off one of my posts!! for all y'all asking, here's the author of the full street racer!mingi fic. i don't have the time to read it as of right now, bit i will eventually and i'm sure it's lovely and that you're very lovely too 💖

[ateezsofthours]

Congratulations on 2k followers! San and 9pm?

[5:49 AM] 💌 admin starlight said: aah thank you!! scheduled for 9/11/19, 9:00 PM est

[ateezsofthours]

[10:16 PM] it's loud in the room. a good kind of loud, but it’s still overwhelming to you. not that you’d really expect ateez to ever be quiet or mellow around each other. it was just that you were more sensitive to sound than others, the stimulus more intense and mentally taxing to you

yeosang must have noticed you physically curling in on yourself, angling your ears further away from the main source of the noise, the arm wrestling championship happening at the coffee table in the center of the living room

he shifts to quietly ask you, “ready to go home? because i don’t know about you, but i'm tired”

that’s something you love about yeosang, the unspoken understanding the two of you have about each other's limits

you nod

your boyfriend stands, keeping a secure arm around your shoulders as he waits for the boys to quiet down. they do. kind of. when its quiet enough for him to be heard without yelling, he announces, “that's it for us. goodnight, guys”

ateez give a chorus of ruckus goodbyes, and you can't wait to get out of there. exiting onto the quiet and open sidewalk, you can physically feel a weight come off your chest, able to breathe again

“thank you, yeosang”

“of course, my love”

[ateezsofthours]

2k 🥳

[7:40 AM] 💌 admin starlight said: wow!! we hit 2k followers!! i started this acct as a lil smth fun to do on the side, and im so incredibly overwhelmed by all the love and support its gotten

to celebrate, admin comet and i are opening the 'time + member' requests again! so go ahead and start submitting those for us, and thank you again

[ateezsofthours]

[1:32 PM] “do you ever think about soulmates, y/n?” yeosang asks you one day, disturbing the comfortable silence you’re in

“not really, why?” you reply, eyes still trained on your laptop screen

“just wondering,” he mumbles

it’s then that you look up at him curiously, seeing his eyes downcast and brow furrowed. taking his hand in yours, you squeeze it before prompting him to continue, “why, yeosang?”

“i don't know,” he sighs, still unable to look you in the eyes as his voice goes quieter, “’cuz i think we are”

you're not sure of what to say, and instead peck his lips quickly before focusing once again on your laptop, hand still holding his

[ateezsofthours]

[6:30 PM] you’re playing with the rings on wooyoung’s fingers when your eyelids start to droop from exhaustion. you stifle a yawn that wooyoung notices and he grins, cheeky, and decides to strike a bargain. he lets you rest your head on his shoulder as long as you promise to keep holding his hand. the rest of the train ride, wooyoung doesn’t stop grinning. there’s a heavy blush across his cheeks, even reaching his ears as he hadn’t counted on you taking up his offer. every time he sneaks a glance down at your entwined hands, the butterflies in his stomach and the rush of adrenaline makes him want this moment to last forever

[ateezsofthours]

[11:02 PM] you wake up for no apparent reason, the whole world absolutely still around you. the comforting weight of san’s arms around your waist are still there, and you’re perfectly positioned to just be able to make out his profile in the minimum light. pressing a soft kiss to his jawline, you nuzzle your face back into the crook of his neck. your eyes flutter shut as sleep comes back to you. right before you slip away into dreamland, you swear you can feel a gentle peck to your temple

[ateezsofthours]

happy fanfic writers appreciation day!! thank you for all the soft hours that literally make me soft any time of day ☺️☺️❤

[5:40 PM] 💌 admin starlight said: oh my gosh thank you so much angel!! i didnt even know there was a fanfic writer appreciation day oml 💖💖💖

[ateezsofthours]

[6:10 AM] you can’t sleep. in all honestly, you’ve already been up for an hour and a half. an hour ago you gave up on tossing and turning in your bed, your mind moving way too fast for you to try to get any more rest. you think of your boyfriend, who’s spending tonight as his dorms. maybe hongjoong is awake

[you: joong, are you up?]

it’s only a couple minutes later that your screen lights up with a reply

[hongjoong: no, i’m fast asleep]

despite his quip that should annoy you, you’re relieved. normally, you’d chastise him for being up so early and working himself so hard, but today you’re glad

[hongjoong: why are you up anyway?]

[you: can’t sleep]

[hongjoong: do you want to get breakfast? i know a place that opens at 6:30]

[you: sure]

[hongjoong: perfect, i’ll grab you in ten]

[ateezsofthours]

[11:06 PM] it’s not long after the movie night starts that you’re completely distracted, throwing your hands up to block the pieces of popcorn mingi was throwing at you. honestly, it was supposed to be chill and relaxed, until your boyfriend got bored and decided that a popcorn fight would be much more interesting. you lunge for the bucket, and in your haste to get it and mingi’s desperation to not let you have it, it’s knocked to the floor. the two of you stop, and finally take stock in the state of your living room

popcorn scattered to the furthest edges of the room, most definitely under all the furniture, and of course, the giant pile directly in front of you. looking over to mingi, you sigh and accept your fate. as you move to stand up, you’re instead pulled backwards into his tight embrace, his nose nuzzling into your neck

“mingi—”

“we can clean it later, i want to finish movie night”

[ateezsofthours]

I would like to request [23.02] + San, maybe some cuddling / sleeping in each others arms? I hope that is okay, thank you guys so much!! 💗

[8:33 PM] 💌 admin starlight said: thanks for the request! this one was super cute;; scheduled for 11/22/19, 11:02 PM est

[ateezsofthours]

[6:10am] with Hongjoongie pretty please and congrats to 2k u really deserve it!!

[6:26 AM] 💌 admin starlight said: ty love! scheduled for 8/20/19, 6:10 AM est

[ateezsofthours]

11.06pm with mingi? Maybe some movie night? Love you so much, guys, you are the best!💕🍀

[6:24 AM] 💌 admin starlight said: aww thank you so much!! scheduled for 8/18/19, 11:06 PM est