willow hc dump. this is a long one, so buckle up, kids.
she’s certainly complicit in jacques’s actions and thusly indirectly contributing to the toxic atmosphere of her household. she’s aware of this and that’s why she doesn’t want her children to be stuck.
jacques has manipulated her to the point that she thinks her opinion and perspective are worthless, which causes her to never voice her thoughts to him or anyone around her. she almost doesn’t know how to talk about herself anymore.
sometimes she gets so bad she loses track of time. of hours, of days.
she actively avoids jacques. this includes staying in bed for as long as humanly possible ( some days never leaving her room at all ). she used to try to talk to him, reason with him about his children, but it always ended in screaming or slapping or arguments.
her drinking is pretty bad, coming in at least two bottles of wine a day. there’s always a bottle by her bed.
she sleeps separately from jacques. it was a mutual decision on both of their ends.
she has her own study, actually. she likes to write poetry and practice calligraphy.
an only child, she was heavily educated. read tons of textbooks. well read on remnant’s history and cultures.
discouraged heavily from learning how to fight, but she had the beginnings of a wonderful swordsman, and often sparred with personal trainers and guards hired by her parents.
played the piano and wrote poetry, won several competitions in both of these categories with her skill.
met jacques when she turned 17.
jacques won over her parents’ hearts, and hers too. she married ( and got pregnant with winter ! ) at the age of twenty.
having babies meant she wouldn’t have time to continue on learning her swordsmanship despite loving it dearly ( jacques discouraged her learning as well ).
willow was a stay at home mom but also made plenty of phone calls for her parents in the SDC before her ownership was essentially siphoned from her.
willow was unaware of the inner workings of the SDC once jacques took over because he separated it from her.
jacques and willow... well, willow married young, and jacques was a few years older. it was something of a grooming situation in which willow didn’t really see who jacques was. their relationship was rocky from the get go, and the physical violence started when winter was a mere toddler waddling around the schnee manor.
when their relationship was far younger, willow actually fought back once. jacques threatened to have her hospitalized for ‘insanity.’
having two additional children was actually willow’s idea, both times a silent plea for the light of a baby to somehow mend her ever-breaking relationship with jacques. jacques essentially saw it as more things that would keep her tied to him.
weiss’s 10th birthday rolled around, and willow was completely heartbroken. her drinking worsened, though her marriage had been suffering for years anyways. she hadn’t realized prior that he only married for his malicious intentions and never love. the man who’d made her swoon nearly 20 years earlier was foreign to her and at that point her learned helplessness was already ingrained into her system.
when things got physical, these beatings normally entailed slapping, grabbing her throat, wrists, waist, or arms in a violent manner, shoving her, and throwing items in her general direction.
willow could not fathom mothering 3 children healthily with jacques as her husband. klein helped her in the endeavor of raising her children and did much of the fathering and mothering role. willow helped where she could / was mentally able to. ( for example, she taught winter the basics of swordplay, but winter quickly outpaced her as a swordsman ).
now, she spends most of her time tending to plants, playing the piano, writing, and buying new swords at auctions ( only to have them placed on a rack on the wall for show ). her favorite is a longsword engraved with swirls of gold and a royal blue sapphire lion head embedded into the hilt.
she collects all kinds of pens. fancy, high tech ones, all the way to vintage pens that she has ink saved up for.
she also likes to donate money to atlas and beacon academies, where her daughters attend(ed), when jacques isn’t paying particular attention to the checkbooks that month.
when jacques is getting arrested in v7, willow just stands there and watches and frowns with her hands on her chest... you can just tell she still cares, despite everything? it’s sad to see how the cycle tosses her back and forth.
willow is. on both the ace and aro spectrums. i’ll detail that more in another post too.