From which I will never recover

my obsessions run deep. they meld their flesh to mine and I'm no longer the same

[atom1o6]

Extra updated intro post! :3

My name is Adam and my pronouns are he/him. I'm transmasc and aroace (aromantic, asexual)

I'm a minor, so please don't be creepy

More cool stuff ↓↓↓

I sometimes post about my interests.

Current fixations- The Owl House, MCYT (Hermitcraft/Life series), Murder Drones, Octonauts, Dead Cells, Deep Rock Galactic, The Binding of Isaac, and my OCs

Tags I use:

#myclosetofcrusties- Any of my original posts

#adam talks about video games- I talk about video games

#:0 an ask!?- I answer asks

#all of it is complete garbage :)- My attempts at art

NOTES VENT POSTS AND PERSONAL RANTS

Currently untagged, I'm sorry. Triggering subjects are tagged accordingly though

Vent posts always start with a full stop then a space and a cut

Most vents get deleted later, but sometimes I forget

Bracelets v

Left- 22 Right- 18 Total- 40 :3

[foxett]

draw gay shitttt

Sure I guess 🙄🙄 ugh 🙄🙄 you won't get it

[our-queer-experience]

[queer-as-city-folk]

send this to all the fags in your life

[epicsause-official]

since its june i wanted to admit that about 3 years ago i made what is probably my biggest contribution to the internet

[ximenasbrokencd]

can't wait to say "during pride month?" at every minor inconvenience all of next month

[fa3ryb0t]

goodbye straight people

[radawaycuntt]

[dontbullysora-blog]

So... mcyt again, huh?

[fuwungi]

Happy pride month!! Reminder that trans rights are human rights & theres no LGBT without the T 🏳️‍🌈🫂🏳️‍⚧️

[parakeet]

just saw a 'comments' tab on someones blog you know where the following and likes tabs would be if enabled and it was just showing all the replies theyve made on peoples posts. this is fascinating when did this feature come out

[parakeet]

EMERGENCY - ITS AUTO ENABLED!

if you've made replies on posts there is now a tab on your blog showing every post youve replied to and your reply.

if this is not what you want, either go to your blog and click comments and disable it from there or just go to your individual blogs setting pages. just change it from blue to grey if you dont want everyone to see your replies AND the post you're replying to

PLEASE BE ADVISED that it is set to disabled for blogs that have not made any replies but it will turn ON if you reply with that blog in the future.! i just tested it with my main, which was greyed out but it turned on the moment i left a test reply

figured i'd get the word out bc i have not seen a single mention of this and i'm sure there are plenty of people who maybe comment on things they don't want on display for everyone to see on their blog lol. you can still look at your replies with it toggled off just no one else can, like locking the following and likes list

[parakeet]

so for some reason this feature was actually announced on the tumblr engineering blog. interesting choice not to reblog it to the staff or tumblr blog, esp considering they asked for user input on how to implement it, but i suppose considering the response to the last update maybe the replies would be too overwhelming...

so couple of clarifications. comments are disabled as default for primary blogs that have their likes disabled. they are seemingly enabled for all other blogs that have replied to posts

posts you comment on may show on your followers 'for you' page if you leave your replies publically available. they may, in the future, show in on your followers dashboard if your follower goes to their dash settings and enables this. apparently, if your likes are enabled, your followers can already see those on the dash if they've gone into preferences and selected to do so, which I was unaware of, and that seems to be disabled at default, but it's possible i disabled it previously and forgot about it ig

[catchymemes]

MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE MANIFESTING A GOOD JUNE

[musiicpix3l]

Yes yes i know love is love. But they are still killing CHILDREN. over this.

[a-rather-sifty-sketcher]

you’ll NEVER guess where they are

[candyskiez]

The fact that people don't think friendship is enough to justify characters doing insane acts of love for each other baffles me. Like have you never loved your friend so so much you want to live in their ribcage. Have you never been really weird about a friend. Have you never wanted to bite your friends parents or shove them down a staircase. Have you never wanted to be buried in the same grave as a friend. Have u never. How do u people live like this.

[niraheist]

Sometimes it's ok to leave things unfinished

[until-openocean]

YOOO I also had a dream about your fic!

Except I don't actually remember what else it was about

i swear i didn't put anything hallucinogenic in my fic why does this keep happening /lh

maybe the king in yellow is celebrating pride month by beaming slimeknight into people's heads??? help??? this is the 2nd time??? guys r u all good

[themainspoon]

There's so many horror games about having to try to weed out and deal with inhuman imposters, but I want one where the script is flipped. You are something inhuman, you are an imposter, and if you want to survive you have to blend into a world that is trying to hunt you down and destroy you. You aren't human, but you must masquerade as one and infiltrate their world, or you will die.

[themainspoon]

I actually think we need to start inverting more Horror premises/tropes.

Like "You have to venture into the scary insane asylum!" VS "You're a patient who was admitted by force to an asylum, and you are very clearly in real danger, but everyone is pretending that you're just deluded, and are essentially leaving you to die because they don't really see you as a person."

I feel like there's a lot of Horror tropes built off of the fear of the other, when in reality it's actually often the other who is in danger. Maybe we could start recognising that more.

[themainspoon]

Interesting how the first half of the post has picked up popularity while the second part, which perhaps clarifies the idea of the original post, hasn't.

It's been interesting to see what media people are recommending based on the first post alone. A lot of recommendations for games/franchises like World of Darkness, Carrion, Kill All Humans, Among Us, etc. It's interesting because these are games that put you into the shoes of the violent other that has to infiltrate, without actually challenging the idea that the other is a threat. They actually parrot the ideas of the other as violent.

Funnily enough, the people recommending the comedy game Octodad understand the post much better than most of the people recommending horror media. A few mentions of Am I Nima, which isn't finished yet but does look like it could be what I am describing, so brownie points to the people recommending that.

But everyone saying stuff like "This is just being Trans/Autistic/Etc" really gets it, like really really gets it. Horror always communicates the fears and anxieties of the people who create it, this post was basically: "What if instead of communicating the fear of the other, we communicated the fears of the others, which are actually vastly more legitimate than the dominant groups fear of the other. We should recognise that it is overwhelmingly the others who are the ones who actually suffer and die, all for the perceived "saftey" and "comfort" of the dominant group."

This idea is about transphobia, it is about ableism, about anti-imigrant rhetoric and white supremacy, about queerphobia, it's about all of it. It is horror from the perspective of minority groups. It is the twisting of a trope built upon reactionary fears and narratives in order to critique them, it is a direct allegory for all those experiences you are describing.

Overall, it's just interesting to see who gets it and who doesn't.