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beth, 25, canadian. Just your average writer, artist, and all around waste of space.  I love pretty much everything habs and supernatral

[augustdean]

okay so I'm like 90% certain I'm reading into things and like also kind of living younger me’s dreams but Thursday night when I had to go see a play for my program I ended up sitting next to this guy I’ve been sort of had this vibe with for the two hour ride in and the two hour ride out and like we shared his headphones and listened to some really weird, really awesome experimental music and talked and shared stuff. it was super personal and super sweet and I feel incredibly close to him now but I'm not sure if I’ve caught feelings straight up or I'm so starved for intimacy that I needed it ??? 

I'm still with Eliott in a way. like we’re open because he’s so far away and he’s not going to be home till March so I don’t think I've entirely committed a bad, but it still feels like I've somehow done something wrong

like I know he won't be here for the holidays, for Valentines. he’s missed so many lows and I hate that I feel like I'm always just waiting for him to come home, but knowing that he’ll only be back for a few months before leaving again is making everything feel so raw

the thing is, and I hate to admit this cause it feels really shitty, but those couple hours felt more intimate and more special than literally my entire relationship with Eliott and I’m not even entirely sure I like Jared. like okay yes I like Jared, and I’ve probably liked Jared for a lot longer than I’m willing to admit, but I’m an adult now and I know that if it was going to happen, it would’ve happened already. what was a really intense, sweet moment for me might not have had that same effect for him and thats honestly 100% okay 

idk. idk what I’m doing.

but I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up breaking up with Eliott soon. he deserves a lot better than this

[charlie-bradcherry]

Papa Winchester (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ [13.03]

[bebopfirefly]

this headline just delights me

[augustdean]

my brain: you're gonna hate yourself in the morning if you don't go to sleep

me: haha, AM I ? ;D

*morning*

me: yes

[augustdean]

so this is the story all about how my life got twisted upside down

the past two years have brought on a lot of good solid fun. particularly, I switched from college to uni, I stopped pining after guys I couldn’t get and started sleeping with a lot of guys I could get (oops) and I may have a small drinking problem

but otherwise things have been pretty solid. I mean I've grown up a whole lot in the past bit (I'm 25 now oh my fucking god) and I've levelled out a bit. I mean I'm not rage crying at the world on a weekly basis so theres that 

I joined a sorority. thats right, yah girl is literally a walking cliche 

my fella friend guy dude man thing is in Australia rn cause he works on a boat so we’re both open and theres a strong possibility I'm gonna end up fucking a guy who’s dressed up like bob ross tonight 

I'm honestly not overly proud of my life decisions but I mean I've got one year left of my under grad, a whole life time of bills and loans to pay back, and maybe fucking a guy dressed up like bob ross isn’t the worst possible thing I could be doing with my time 

anyway, thats how I went from whiny 20-something college student to uni-hoe byee

[barryallhen]

30 days with sam winchester (day 29)

[augustdean]

muldler and scully are old news!! and dean and sam are the better team so yeah shut up bitch

it’s been a solid two years since I was last active so I mean like yes, I did shut up. you’re welcome

(also high key curious what this was about mostly cause I don’t even like x-files so ????)

[augustdean]

also highkey back for a bit cause my dad started watching spn and all my ridiculously strong feelings for Sam Winchester came back tenfold

[augustdean]

remember that time where I actively ran a supernatural blog and life was both easier and quieter and not flying by the seat of my pants? ahahaha

[augustdean]

also hi guys, been awhile <3 

[augustdean]

Hey hockey fam! 

If anyone’s interested, I’m selling two tickets to the Montreal vs Toronto game on October 14th. I bought tickets entirely forgetting that I’ve got my cousins wedding that night and am now in panic mode a bit. 

Game’s at the Bell Centre. Hit me up if you’re interested!

[augustdean]

To all my American friends, I am 100% willing to green card marry. I gotchu fam

[whitetrashlucy-blog]

IS NOONE GOING TO MENTION HOW HARD IT IS TO MAKE DIRECT EYE CONTACT? DO YOU STARE IN THE LEFT OR THE RIGHT IDK

[ripcstiaalisonsselena-deactivat]

“Anna for you to sit here & call Trump a racist is outrageous"

“well lemme do it again and lemme do it in two languages”

SHE ENDED HIM 💀💀

[angryegyptiann]

DAMN SHE DID THAT

[porcelain-dolle]

tag yourself as a pokemon go team

[nejicanspin]

Well I am Mystic and this is pretty accurate 

[augustdean]

so i may or may not have gotten hammered and slept with my best friends roommate last night 

i mean she was cool with it and all but my shame spiral is very strong (probably cause he wasn’t very good) 

i should also note i texted ekrem “i miss you” beforehand and he may or may not have said “I miss you too” at some point during and I feel really really skeezy despite the fact that ek and I aren’t even a thing 

if this is adulthood, it sucks

[augustdean]

hello, tumblr. It’s been awhile! 

much has happened over the past x amount of months. finished my first year of university for one. dealt with ekrem leaving the country, which was a whole other ball game. I lost my high school best friend in two weeks ago which was, by far, the hardest experience I’ve ever had to deal with, and I’ve come to learn a few things about myself I didn’t really think possible 

i guess what I’m trying to say is holy fuckballs batman, 2016 has been a clusterfuck. 

not all of it has been totally bad tho. I mean, I’ve strengthened all my friendships significantly and ekrem, my god. I thought this summer was gonna put the final nail in the coffin of whatever might have been happening between us but his texts have gotten increasingly more flirty as the summer’s progressed to the point where literally every conversation ends with a sappy little heart emoji and idek it just feels so good. so right 

anyway, it’s been crazy, and busy, and awesome and i guess maybe it’s kind of a good thing i’m not around here so much anymore cause it means I don’t really need it. and thats pretty great, yeah? idek