Ari's Grotto

Ari - 26 - Genderfluid - Her/Him - Pansexual - Read About before interacting

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Wednesday June 17th, 2020 12:50 pm

How are you feeling today?

Refreshed and optimistic!

How did you cope yesterday?

I got so much done! Working out seems to be my best coping skill so far.

Who has been your support the past 24 hrs?

Mom, husband, Miss Jay, Natalie

Appetite/Sleep?

Appetite keeps getting better with exercise, I actually ate a lunch today after swimming! Sleep very interrupted but I blame that on late night caffeine this time.

QOTD: What elements of pop culture will be forever tied in your mind to your childhood?

Definitely Barbie and Britney Spears, TMNT, Sailor Moon, Spider-Man, and Disney. I miss Sky Dancers, forget the danger, bring em back!

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Tuesday June 16th Health Journal

Activity: 10 min vibrashake, 30 min various machines at gym, 20 min dog walk, chores that somehow felt like more workout than the rest combined

Nutrition, Bfast shake, 6oz marinated steak, glass of cola, small chicken wrap

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Yesterday's monday workout selfie.

Weigh in 183lbs

Activity: vibrashake workout 10 min, 30 min treadmill, 15 min walk with dog

Nutrition: Bfast shake, chicken wrap with hummus, spinach, feta, and mixed rice, 2 cans arizona green tea

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Tuesday June 16th, 2020 4:09 pm

Combining journals for the last couple days since I slacked.

How are you feeling today?

Generally happy, relaxed

How did you cope yesterday?

I bought groceries and hung out with a friend, even cooked because I wanted to rather than was bugged to.

Who has been your support the past 24 hrs?

Mom, husband, my friend Bri and my friend K, and my friend Natalie who is letting me start using her pool!

Appetite/Sleep?

Appetite is a little better probably due to exercise. Sleep is about the same, interrupted.

QOTD: What do you wish you could tell yourself 10 years ago? What do you think you’ll want to tell your current self 10 years from now?

“They’re right. It will get better. They’re just a little off on the how.” and I have a feeling it’ll be the same in ten years.

GLAD journaling

Gratitude:

I am grateful to my mom for helping me with groceries, and I’m grateful I found goggles that really don’t leak or fog!

Learned:

I learned I have a lot to learn at the gym.

Accomplished:

I accomplished getting groceries, cooking, hanging out with a friend, going to the gym, taking Miss Jay on a walk, doing dishes as I dirty them for the most part, getting goggles and swim ear plugs and drops for my ridiculously sensitive ears.

Delight:

I am delighted the steak I’m cooking up smells good!

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Mermay 2020 by Devin Elle Kurtz

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Mermay 2020 by Richelle Canto

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Health Journaling

Starting tomorrow I’ll post health logs, what I eat, what exercise I did, weekly weigh-ins and selfies on Mondays. This is mostly for accountability and to be able to go over with my doctors when they ask because they ask me a lot. Some might look at my weigh-ins and think “Wow what a cow” or “Bitch where is the fat what are you talking about?” But it’s not about what anyone else thinks. It’s about me, my health, and my goals. I won’t pretend there’s no aesthetic slim trim sexy body ideals involved. I’ve always struggled with that, and my mom knows it can be traced to her obsession with weight when I was a kid. We all have baggage to work through with our bodies. BUT I’m also weak, easily exhausted, easily ill, and I have goals to keep up with my friends, with kids in my life, to get back into all the dance classes I’ve always wanted to take, to fit back in the ballgown I was originally going to wear for my wedding, to get scuba certified and learn to swim like a mermaid, and to do all those things I have to get in shape. My food logs will totally include half a pint of ice cream here and a cheeseburger there, but I’m hoping to incorporate healthy, easy foods my depression doesn’t slack off from eating. I may even share recipes when I find good ones! I already have a few in mind! But for today I shall make my plans and plot my schemes. 

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Sunday June 14th, 2020 5:02 pm Journal

Combining am and pm journals since I slacked this morning. 

How are you feeling today?

Mostly chipper, aware, unfortunately quick to pick up other moods and tempers

How did you cope yesterday?

I didn’t cope well, but I hung out with my mom.

Who has been your support the past 24 hrs?

Mom, husband, stepdad. We buried Butterscotch the guinea pig today. He was with us almost 5 years.

Appetite/Sleep?

Appetite barely exists, I slept a lot but woke up several times

QOTD: What would be your first question after waking up from being cryogenically frozen for 100 years?

“Did we beat back all the racists n shit yet?”

GLAD journaling

Gratitude:

I am grateful for my stepdad who did most of the work digging Butter’s grave.

Learned:

I learned one of my friends has an open community pool. Huzzah for my plans!

Accomplished:

I accomplished getting Butterscotch out of the freezer, cleaning out produce drawers, moving drawers over from mom’s house, attending dog training evaluation, writing a brief poem.

Delight:

I am delighted to swim soon!

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bridges,

and bridges,

not a river in sight,

landlocked,

the skyline my only call

to shine, to fly

but I cry out for the sea,

to drift into dreams of eternities,

shoreline set me free

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Saturday June 13th, 2020 7:21 pm

GLAD journaling

Gratitude:

I am grateful for my mom who took me for snow cones and hung out with me at the park. And for my husband buying me a good burger.

Learned:

I learned about some local monks who do things like singing meditation. They gave me their card. I might check it out. 

Accomplished:

I accomplished making the bed, eating 2 meals, taking the dog to the park, making this blog.

Delight:

I am delighted by the singing monks and by the fish and ducks in the pond at the park. 

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Saturday June 13th, 2020 2:04 pm Journal

How are you feeling today?

It’s a rollercoaster. Needy, Depressed, Ancy to DO something, Lonely

How did you cope yesterday?

I didn’t cope well. I mostly slept.

Who has been your support the past 24 hrs?

Mom, kinda husband... 

Appetite/Sleep?

Appetite barely exists, I slept a lot but woke up several times

QOTD: What food do you know you shouldn’t eat but can’t help yourself?

I get so upset and jealous when someone has a good ice cream dessert.