C'est la vie

Pecinta warna hitam, malam, bintang, hujan, kopi, dan semua tentangmu dan patah hatiku

[aurum812]

Aku memang menyebalkan. Semenyebalkan itu.

Curigaku besar.

Emosiku meledak ledak.

Tidak mampu menyampaikan apa yang ada di pikiran.

Boneka rusak.

Aku lelah.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Cutting people out of my life doesn’t mean I hate them. It means I respect myself.”

— Unknown

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“There’s a difference between somebody who wants you and somebody who would do anything to keep you. Remember that.”

— Unknown

[gloupblog]

No one else cares for your success (as much as their own) so you have to care. You have to force yourself to get up early, you have to force yourself to turn your phone off and revise, you have to force yourself to workout, you have to care for the whole world because no one else cares until they start seeing results. And they won’t ever see your results if you don’t care enough first. It’s your life, they are your goals, your dreams, it will be your success but it has to be your effort and your work first and foremost x

[aurum812]

Kenapa sekarang saya jadi takut kehilangan kamu ya ?

Padahal, dalam suatu hubungan kita harus mau berteman dengan kehilangan juga.

Aku cuma bisa minta ke Tuhan untuk menunjukkan jalan terbaik untuk kita. Bohong kalo aku ga sedih kalo kita suatu hari nanti harus saling berseberangan. Tapi kalo itu untuk memperoleh tujuan masing-masing, ya kenapa ngga ?

Semangat ya, maaf aku ga bisa memenuhi semua yg km mau.

Maaf aku ga bisa diajak jalan.

Maaf aku ga bisa diajak kondangan

Maaf sering bikin kamu insecure.

Aku gatau lagi harus gimana,

831, arsuff :)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“It is very sad to me that some people are so intent on leaving their mark on the world that they don’t care if that mark is a scar.”

— John Green

[aurum812]

Lagi banyak banget ribut, kerjaan banyak, mau ketemu susah banget. Sabar yah, pasti ada waktu lagi lain kesempatan. Doakan semua baik2 aja yah.

Salam rindu untukmu yang kadang rese kalo aku ga bawa hand sanitizer atau males pake jaket buat riding jauh.

[shescardai]

Ketika kamu diberi rasa percaya, ketahuilah bahwa itu tidak sepenuhnya menyenangkan. Sebab, ada tanggung jawab yang harus kamu jaga dan jalankan.

[sajaksesak]

Aku tidak peduli atas masa lalumu, selama itu sudah benar-benar menjadi masa lalu dan kau berhasil melewatinya.

Aku 'kan lebih menaruh perhatianku pada masa sekarang, dimana aku ingin membuat banyak memori yang layak engkau kenang saat giliranku menjadi masa lalumu nanti.

Arief Aumar Purwanto

[sajaksesak]

Aku ragu apakah aku berhasil pulih atau hanya teralihkan sejenak?

Sebab di satu tempat aku mendapati aku tersenyum bak tidak ada yang perlu dikhawatirkan tentang luka kemarin. Namun di tempat lain aku bungkam, membias hati yang perih dengan kedok garis senyum yang membenam.

Arief Aumar Purwanto

[sajaksesak]

Banyak dari mereka yang kehilangan waktu-waktu terbaiknya, hanya untuk tetap setia pada satu hubungan yang sebenarnya menghancurkannya, untuk tetap bertahan pada satu orang yang bahkan tak pantas dipertahankan.

Kau jangan.

Arief Aumar Purwanto

[mbeeer]

Ingatlah namaku. Siapa tahu suatu saat ada yang bertanya padamu perihal siapa orang bodoh yang mencintai seseorang yang sudah bukan miliknya lagi.

(via mbeeer)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

I didn’t need you to fix me. I needed you to love me while I fix myself.

Michelle K. (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[camaceall]

i don’t know how much longer i can wait

[batmoan]

Borderline personality is being called a flirt when you have no idea how to make people like you without seducing them.

Borderline personality is being called a drama queen for having bigger than life emotions and not being able to restrain them.

Borderline personality is not recognizing a photograph of yourself a week after taking it.

Borderline personality is fully understanding you’re being irrational, clingy, or overbearing, and watching yourself fall further instead of fixing it.

Borderline personality is refusing every kind offer because it could possibly be insincere and you won’t let yourself fall for that again.

Borderline personality is being constantly cautious of what you say so you don’t come off as manipulative, and being a pushover when you don’t want to so no one will think of you in that way.

Borderline personality is not being able to love yourself unless someone else loves you, but never fully believing that they could love you.

Borderline personality is thinking of all the ways you could die, today, at this moment, on a loop every waking moment.

Borderline personality is hard. It’s hard to cope. It exhausts you. Treat people with BPD like normal human beings, please. We’re not monsters. We’re tired of our shit, too. Be patient, and i know constant need for reassurance gets annoying, but it’s sometimes so necessary.

[humor-is-coping]

[clusteredbpd]

you make me feel like a fucking worthless piece of shit