;;BlOODMOON;;
The Long Awaited Grand > Finale <
Hello.
sometimes I think about forgiving you to make your life easier
but then I remember the price I have to pay
and we are in a economic recession
I think
I break the rules all the time, i get corrected all the time, and ive been doing this for a long damn time
correct me again, oh so that's the answer then
i realize your answers are quesstionable
no matter how many times you corrected me , it only made me care less about the answer you wanted to give me
I just know what comes next when I talk to you
I think so much that I don't even want to say anything at all,
I'm so tired of me, I absorbed the world around me and lost my own reflection, I lost the direction I even wanted to go in, an interception from you is just a par of the course,
But Im a team player I pass the ball, Its only fair after I caught all your shots that hit, or ur lobs for a lay, but there weren't many of those
I'm online 24/7 > I'll try to stop coaxing, sugar coating, down voting, ak47ing every death sentence uttered from ur stinky breath,
When I go outside I don't engage with anyone at all really, But Im always listening, I don't need to speak to you to understand you.
I cut everyones cords, but I didn't feel no electricity. I guess we never had much of a connection after all
You keep on blaming someone something for ur problems, i dont need a mental detector to know your mentally disabled , the structures that inhibit you, contempt for everything except for what u love, you can't even see that the structures you hated helped created the structures that protected you from them, giving you something to protect. they are apart of you as much as apart of me, we've both been walking these same streets for a while havent we. and you we me keep blaming someone or something for the contemptment of the box that you have created.
hopefully it was worth making all the estranged friends you made along the way,
it quickly became apparent that a;;a parent raised me to be like Cain;; my existence used for the sole purpose of helping them walk all over me, and they wonder why I grew up to be Able to walk all over them. mastered the game, the one they played to taunt me;;now you want me to go easy on you, baby mother; I only got good at this because you bastardised me ;; not with ur absence but with ur presence
Im pretty patient person, I like to listen to noises, and when you start speaking>> too much interference for my own turbulences << I'm trying to listen to the radio station of my mind. ur radio station got way too many ads;;too many secret affiliations for me to take you seriously anyway. I don't read ur texts, I prefer your sub-texts
ur private interests only appreciates my disinterest. when every conversation is just another coercion, im not someone looking to be
converted
well fortunately I finally learned my lesson, I don't have to listen to anyone at all really; everything is hindsight when ur old, and in hindsight ur old as fuck
I think you look better not holding it all together. it reminds me of you labelling me, disabling me, i cant wait to watch you burn when your the one who lit the match. but when I matched you, my attacks wasn't impuslive, and ur explosion wasn't repulsive, actually I found you rather easy
force me to follow the rules of a system that doesn't respect me;;a 0 incentive sum game ;; institutions all designed to regulate > designed to insinuate a simulation serving my emasculation. all this repression. why would I suppress it anymore, especially when the rewards are solely for ur benefit.
and the rules irl traffic lights, speed limits, school zones, ik its all for community >but community fucked me so fuck you allllllll > i make it a rule of thumb to go max speeds in any car park and do burn outs because im rlly burnt out > and scare the fuck outta everybody just to feel alive because i really am so dead inside > no cameras theirrrr and since this whole system has fucked me im now so desperate to go fuck someone else over > I needa get it outta my systems < what has gotten into my system?
maybe this was all by design, And this. this. whole system is designed to empower who is in power, and make everyone else coward, its everywhere, this school of thought is far reaching than you can even fathom, even the ones in astrology, new ideas are just annoying to these old hag ass bitches. and even to the regular consumer, these customers asking for handouts asking me to make up some bullshit for your placements, or reading my adversaries shit posts shitting all over my work, all propaganda. to destroy me and realive yourself >ik how dead you are > only because I have returned >and I turned >dead to undead <
Ill tell you who I am. Im Austin. and this is AUSTINSASTROLOGY8991 you know a lot of what is said, what I said. its all just a integration of every other shit post I read, I became just like what was already dead,
I criticise a lot of it all, its all just apart of everything else, its hardly occult; its just a catapult of someone else's pulp fiction, its barely even you anymore
but I discovered many secrets of the occult: I come here today to teach you something;;that your not very good at this. and I do mean this in a mean way.
Ik your life sucks and a tarot reading might just resolve you, or an astrology reading, or whatever destiny chart you stumbled on today. but im here to tell you no one can do ur destiny/astrology for you. its something you gots to figure out on ya own. think about a author reading everyone else's interpretations of their own book. Oh now I get why I wrote this book
useless
I've been angry. I've been annoyed. I've been suppressed for too damn long. And im not talking about anything or anyone in particular as its all apart of the same system, you are just a cog in this dog shit world > but this is now my energy. it's now my problem. fuck your solutions I got more problems for you then you got problems for me
SO let me show you what I've been up to as I've been locked away with pluto, doing wizard shit. manifesting a better life; regrowing my mars lizard tail, and dodging the mercury blizzard that all ya'll been manifesting.
0 = Sun = Ego, dominance, charisma, theatre, da game
1 = Mercury = Intelligence, articulation, thoughts,
2 = Venus = Beauty, love, attraction
3 = Earth = Creation, integration, unity
4 = Mars = Fighting, passion, war, sex
5 = Jupiter = Blessings, abundance, manifestation
6 = Saturn = Restrictions, Lessons, Mastery/adversity, time
7 = Uranus = Goals, Hopes/Fears/Wishes, Change
8 = Neptune = spirit, guidance, aura, potential
9 = Pluto = power, completion, transformation, regeneration, truth
6 is about reaching up (saturn) over taking, reaching for authority, and 9 is reaching down. going down in the depths to the darkness.
8 is your potential, ur dreams, and its illusions
we only have 10 numbers outta all numbers.
> revealing how everything is connected
> I mean we are connecting a planets sign and relating it to our selves > might as well connect the numbers we created to the planets within our solar system <
Call it coincidental I call it synergy .
Have you heard the saying we are here on the 3D plane? well thats because we are on earth and its the 3rD planet.
These are our Dimensions. and Im going to simplify how manifestation works using these planet energies.
(1) is our thoughts. and thoughts are the beginning of manifestation > through our thoughts we manifest and attract what we desire, (2). After becoming attractive, by attracting what we like; we are able to integrate ourselves within the world and create something new (3). Then we become invigorated by our ability and become impassioned and willing to fight for what we made and who we are (4). Then blessings come through as others see what we can do, and start to believe in us (5). Then harsh lessons come through and the realization of responsibility and how restricted you are, and how much you've been limiting yourself in your past/present/future(6). Then your world/the world changes, and its going to be abrupt, your goals will change as you push forward, or challenging your integrity despite the challenges (7). Then your aura changes, as you've evolved through this process, and try to find spirit for guidance to release what isnt necessary anymore, to bring what you want, to realize your potential (8). Then we Learn the truth, we reach down into the darkness of ourselves; and become based > become complete and can transform, which becomes your power - regeneration - affinity of your own infinity (9).
THen cycle completes and resets > this cycle is going on constantly within many areas of your life.
Oh and god da light so he sun (0) he everywhere (even the moon reflects suns light). even the moon is connected to ego as its your emotional reacti0n to others egos
If my algorithm for the planets is correct. Lets run with it with some simple addition.
the exchange of planets creates a new energy in itself and we can deduce these energies by adding them together;; take for example Mars + Venus = Saturn = I mean saturn got a fat ring on his finger and mars and venus be fuckin
Or for example Mars (4) + mercury (1) = Jupiter (5). Mars mercury aspects cant stfu and thats jupiter doing his expansion thing
Now ;; Notice how the Sun is 0 and Pluto is 9. These 2 planets are literally opposites. One is the light. The other is darkness. And we commonly see the sun as the 'light' or the whole reason for ur existence (god) and we associate pluto with the dark or the god of the underworld; hades.
SO with this in mind. They operate in a similar fashion despite being opposites. They are both clearly interested in gaining control, they just choose to do so in different ways. The Sun (god of light) is 0 > He is happy with you > he loves you no matter what (0). Pluto or hades wants you to level up. He doesnt think your good enough and he wants to punish you so you do a better job (9). think about what 9 does. it always reverts back to the original number after adding 9 except it integrates different qualities i.e. ,29,38,47,56 etc. Which is what the devil constantly does to you > he reveals why you're not good enough > to make you better > making you believe you are not worthy yet. And well maybe you are not. there's no way you could rule hell with that skillset < but your ego not into hearing dat
Also 9 > its sigil > its got a circle above it, and its got a line reaching down>> which i intepret it as challenging you to integrate your whole being;; your shadow. reaching down into ur subconscious and integrating the entirety of your being.
also the concept of these 2 planets 'fighting' each other >lightvdark< actually makes each other stronger >makes light brighter, and the dark >darker<
WHy the darkness can only be dark when theres light. as light can only be bright in contrast to what is dark
9 being pluto also makes sense due to our infatuation with pluto > since 0 and 9 when adding always reverts back to same number > also when your revealing something (something in the dark) light is shedded onto it. And when your shining, you desire to hide your secrets, so you can remain bright. and people think you did some shady shit to become so successful so well yeah. they be so intertwined really.
This is why they are opposites but also one of the same > 2 sides of the same coin <
Now how much further can I take this? >so much further < > Now IM going to integrate Tarot cards because I can. I'm going to use the moon tarot card > 18 < and with this concept. Lets run with my theory.
1(mercury) and 8(neptune) its hard to communicate (1) your feelings (moon) because they are hard to understand (8) Also its pluto (1+8=9) because feelings / moon are in the dark and thats a pluto thing.
And well i can go further with plutos influence here. if you square pluto > 9 x 9 < = 81 which is the opposite of the moon in tarot. Now think about pluto/hades > he understands the spiritual world (8) but he struggles to be understood/explain his wicked ways (1) < I interpret the number order as what your a natural at (first number) and what your trying to do with it (second number) but anyway.
or the left is what you received (feminine) and the right is what you express (masculine)
TO make this sound completely factual > i have moar evidence <
18 = the moon. And its the closest thing to earth
81 = pluto squared. and its the furthest thing from earth.
1x1=1 < why thinking requires thinking
2x2=4 <why everyone interested in da winners
3x3=9 <pluto > earth is constantly evolving
4x4=16 <the tower of mass destruction
5x5=25 < > double rainbow
6x6=36 < 360 no-scope > 360 degrees < triple 6?
7x7=49 < death hermit emperarrr
8x8=64 <808s n heart break
9x9=81 <AustinsAstrology?
1 squared goes back to 1 because to think just requires courage to think. its a mindset.
2 squared = 4 and you know what attracts the most energy/ what attracts most energy(2)? knowing and getting what you want(4).
3 squared = 9 we are all trying to create and become unified (3), to feel the feelings of completeness (9)
4 squared = 16 we are all pursuing (4) change (7) by intellctualising (1) plans/structures (6)
5 squared = 25 abundance is created through attracting (2) abundance (5) which creates massive change (7)
6 squared = 36 let me . the creation (3) of schedules and deadlines (6) is how to complete the cycle (9)
7 squared = 49. the pursuit (4) of completion (9) requires change (7)
8 squared = 64. deadlines and pressure (6) interfere/invigorate passion/pursuit(4) to align with divine timing / your potential(8)
9 squared = 81. Spirit (8) will teach you (1) how to be complete (9)
I also rlly enjoy thinking about the exchange between 4 and 7 squared, and how ak47 is like the most famous fire arm
and 3,6,9 all >> needing 9 > achieving truth (3) authority (6) completeness (9) all requires you integrating/confronting your shadow. as he "threw himself down down into the unknown depths belowww"
oh and my favourite of all;;
> 7x7=49, 4x9=36 <> 6x6=36 < this proves god and devil are in sync af and
6x6=36 ;; 3x6=18, 3+6=9==27 (3x3x3) <the ultimate earth numba triple 333 >>>
and finally the grand finale 9x9=81, 8x1,8+1==17
too confusing? dw about it. leave it to me . thats what im here for keep reading your going to love it
Now lets do some letter numerology >>
Devil in numerology letter conversion:: = D=30 e=5 v=22 I=9 l=12
= 78
(BTW capital letters you add 26 as its the total number of alphabet=)
oh yes tarot also has 78 cards..... it's important to remember its the occult and therefor it is the devils work.
And god said no to idolatry and forbade magic.. so yeah this only is more correlation
Now lets do Gods numerology:
G= 33 o=15 d=4
= 52
and 52 is a perfect number to describe god because 5 is Jupiter and that's abundance and blessings, and 2 is Venus which means love.
and 7 is obviously gods sacred number < remember he created and changed the world "LET THERE BE LIGHT"
oh yeah you still haven't let go of the old numerology system. idc anymore to even insult you. im doing real wizard shit over here I don't know wtf y'all doing.
so the devils letter numerology is 78,
and gods letter numerology is 52,
if you do 7x8=56, and 7+8=15 ==71
if you do 5x2=10, and 5+2=7==17
and ofc god made occult activities forbidden. it draws you closer to the devil > or spiritual forces who are not God. God wants you to have faith. he wants you to believe he will protect you. the more you try to cheat this system, and dig for answers (tree of knowledge) it does technically show you have less faith in his world. and thus > consumed by sins or more specifically pride ;; and not faith.
but then again he will forgive you, but maybe don't go too far down down therrrrr. > NEVER GO FULL RETARD < ;)
Now. How did it all end up this way? I'll simplify it for you.
God created humans > Lucifer thought that we were beneath him (ironic isnt it) > He refused to bow which disrespected God ;; and so he got kicked out of Gods kingdom. So to exact revenge he tempted us with the forbidden fruit, and we bit the hand that fed us and bit lucys apples.
And so now; today; we are constantly stuck in a cycle of temptation and repentance.
Okay now I need to do some numbers for you as it explains why Lucifer or now Satan. likes the number 666.
Lucifer convinced 1/3 of all angels to rebel against god. This is 33.33333 (33%) and god had 66.66666 (66%) of the angels on his side. Now After god defeated the devils army. he banished him to our world. which he now has total control ova,, a parting gift so to speak
now just as god had total control over Heaven > he had the number 66.66666 (66%) on his side (authority). And so now the devil is given this power over earth. the material. what is seen. It is discussed that lucy gives worldy power and wealth, but at a price > capitalism < okay yeah... now you understand why thats his number.
also the number 6 > its sigil has the circle on the bottom, and a line that is reaching up. its meaning is implied to be climbing the ladder;; 6 wants to be the authority it wants to be the boss / master. its also what lucifer is all about;; his attempt to overthrow God.
Now im also aware people think 6 is venus because of lucifers beauty. But its not. there is 60 seconds in 1 minute. 60 minutes in 1 hour. 24(6) hours in 1 day... 666
and what does saturn (satan) represent? oh yeah its time/ authority/ mastery. becoming your own master.. he was also known as the angel who reached the highest light, or the angel of free will. and thats a mastery / saturnian thing. not a Venus thing... but it is interesting that their is 26 letters in the alphabet.... < think about dat
Now I also need to add. God isnt necessarily any number in particular. he is more like 0 to me more than anything as he is everything. he is above it all, and under it all too. and he observes and makes sure karma resolves itself in the end, or does a miracle if you deserve it > and that's still a karma thing < and a miracle he may do > but only if your deemed worthy < as he is still the omega/alpha. and lets not forget that Lucifer/Devil is one of his sons. And since he is god. ofc he has a soft spot for him.
and just a reminder. let god do his thing ya'll. you cannot comprehend what proceeds you // worry about yoself foo ;;
Now imagine if we could escape all this mess. You didnt choose to be born. why do you have to deal with all these karmic repercussions of your ancestors, or technically playing the devils advocate > what is god/adams mistakes? Well. you do and you dont. you can give in to more evil. more sacrifices to level yourself up and fuck people over. or graduate;; forgive for the sake of your own sanity and the lineage that you will create. also remember all that hatred that was created within you as you got stuck in this shit hole? well its all gonna happen again if you dont fix this cycle;; again that pesky number 6 > saturn. so the choice is always yours. whos side are you on? either way you will reap the benefits of whichever side you choose. and you can do both. but only for so long. eventually youll be picking a side, and lets pray you picked Gods side... Its also worth noting that samael was known as the poison of god. and only injected people who deserved it. and thus. wasnt doing anything bad. so technically the devils temptations doesn't corrupt himself, only it reveals ur own evil. and if you give in he can use you as a sacrifice for himself >and gain more power in an attempt to overthrow da government!!!
so I guess you can escape this reality... but only for a few seconds, your tv/phone/screen shows you a new reality, but it just reminds you of the reality that you already knew. and so you really cannot escape your own karma, which you havent necessarily created, but you actually did > as your lineage did, and you got placed in this reincarnation for a reason (that you do not know) and thats probably for the best. your not god and you should just be thankful for being given as many chances as your gettin. also you still have free will, anything is possible, stop forgetting that. you'd go a lot further if you stopped speaking that way of yoself
= art are and is always reflections; parodys, cleverly written lines to illustrate the blurring lines of reality, little lessons the authors wanted to teach you about life. Its important to remember that God allowed it all to be created. hes still the ultimate guidance in your life and in everyones life > and even if you dont believe in him < he won't give up on you so easily. How many times I gotta tell you he da goat but not evil version
So I guess theres no escape until times up.
I also jsut want to say. That anyone who bows for the devil. always believes in god, as they are literally watching miracles unfold. they just royally fucked themselves over. its the faithless who are truly lost. the ones who know the truth ;; they are both blesssed and cursed tremendously and simultaneously.
now imma speak about yall for a second enuf preaching back to talking my shit>
how you be speaking; on here. astro Tumblr > the amount of hand outs i see you be asking. how many sale pitches i see, i mean i know this aint a place where god necessarily is, but talk about sell out >>. and not to mention most of yalls be basic af. all of you. hardly creating > speaking about placements and how they act, its all so informative, robotic, I bet you write a mean assignment but those get discarded rather quickly and so should they.
for a beginner yeah its pretty amusing all of these standard musings, but its just so gossipy. its lost all Its soul to be honest with you. and your barely even trying, and why should you. your not getting payed, and why should you, you create shit for flys <order in da court << ;;
and well when you are. you give them the same thing you giving the free customers. or the secret information the demon on ur shoulder tells you. isn't this whole scheme rlly corrupted from the bottom all the way to the top > and maybe the demon telling you dis shit isn't rlly subjugated like you thought it was // you do remember what happened to Solomon don't you? yeah... grrrrrundy
I think that's the biggest trap tho. from humble beginnings > you are so miniscule that you suck up to any being bigger than you
< forgetting your own value, or even ur values >. even when "given" minimum wage; its standard to think "I don't get payed enough for this shit". so you stop trying. but only start trying when you can get something outta someone. <
I try so hard all the time, and it gets used against me all the time. but you know what. its all worth it because its all just practise, discipline, an insulin shot to stop me from getting so fucked up on how pathetic everyone else is becoming. the game Is the game, and I hate this fkn game. but im still fkn this mofkn game < headshot bitch ;;
I just wish more people caught on to things. But i also like to dissociate. actually i dissociate a lot its a pretty big problem in my life. but the more i do it the more i feel my own brain activate, I mean its not hard to understand you;;you got a lot of sad shit going on,
fortunately, this post is able to be viewed in each of our own minds, i wont get to hear ur grievances, only more separations will be enabled - exacerbations of each of our own realities than it says anythign about my own exaggerated world
I’ve been told my whole life I’m the problem, and I just realized, all of you are the problem, you created for me way more problems than what i initialy even had. my reactions to it all only made them so much more inescapable, and more probable cause for me being the issue. And you know what I like to do with my problems? I like to forget about them. Kings aren’t chosen, kings are made. Power isn’t given, power is taken. And I can take a lot. I decided to instead stop taking it, but taking it from you instead, like the same way you told me to just take it.
if i forgave you as many times as you asked me to give, i dont think id have anything left for to give. you cant take any more chances with me, ur just going to have to pick up from the community chest and pass go >>gtfo
I don’t rely on anyone or anything, I rely on yous to tell me a lie; to use me as a chess piece because ur bored, use me to help you gain something socially politically financially another fucking disaster of fucking tha masta > I am all too aware of ur affairs
it’s the truth that sets me free >;;> I had to pay a fee to actually see
>;;>thats when I was finally free > from everything I can be used for. (because i went broke)
maybe you killed urself before you even killed yourself. Did you even think about what u were doing with ur life before you got hung over
anyway i think im over it. tthis is why i left, i loved the attention i loved being someone worthy of it. but the mozzies are annoying i had to get out. what a mistake it was influxing myself with a billion astrology charts, but i learned it well, i learned it good, i learn the ways of something... im not sure rlly .... but im good at it, and i think a lot of you are stuck in a vortex of source checking things that are literally by definition out dated.
the cobwebs at the corners of ur mouth, the same old story told upon you, you repeat to me, when you spit out ur gob, imagine if i did gobble up what u said, some shit thats forever in circulation , ur flirtation with emulation
so here i sit. writing this shit. pouring my heart out, something alot of you have lost touch with. and yes mine is broken af but i never not been not in touch with it, I been in touch with it all the time and it be cutting me up all the time. its okay tho because at least ik its real. even after giving my heart to so many people, it was never real.
it only made my heart grow colder. but grow I did
ill never give up on my heart tho even if everyone else did.
because I still got heart <3
so ill just do my thing here, this is still my thing even tho you got in my head for a second, ill last on your page forever. unless you delete it ofc. so yeah um delete that shit. try to get rid of me. flag me again. try to gain some control ova ur life by talking ova mine.
am i exposing myself. maybe, yes i did that all too once upon a time, I learned it all from you. you could think that of me i get it. but i think this way of you. is it all just me, or are we all coated in the same universal flavour of fuck you?
when someone say fuck you to you. is there any appropriate response other than fuck you too?
For someone who complains about their life as much as you.
I want you to know, from me to you. You got exactly what you deserve. And if you dont like me saying that, then your wasting my time more than you are already wasting your own.
I just want to say. No one can solve ur problems. Often you are the problem. They can offer you solutions, distort your brain, rewiring it because you know it requires it; but who’s the programmer behind ur rewiring.
You don’t think the Satan on their shoulder is rlly gone do you? Because they told you? Did you believe that? Did you notice some dissimilarity ? >> ? did their voice change pitch, did they cough after "professing".. burp after insisting. If I told you god is everywhere then why wouldn’t he reveal the truth in front of a persons lies. I’m telling you. If you manage to break through. No one can ever break you.
;; but first you need to be broken to ever be able to breakthrough ;;
so anyway this is my last post becaues its the 45th. i had this idea that if you added each number 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 it equls 45, so it would be perfect to end it all on this one.
on my 45th post
and it just happened to be on the year 2025, which is 45x45 so that told me it was time.
Now I never said I was a witch or a wizard or any guru magical fungi. only my intepretation of astrology: AUSTINS ASTROLOGY , but i kept getting these naggers tellnig me how i need to write better, use my influence more thoughtfully self reflect more > more more more> more bulshit youknow. Ik your familiar with things of a certain stench like them
everything wants notifications turned on, everyone wants to remind you of something other than yourself. everything is taking precedents in your life to make you forget your place within your own life. headlines become guidelines, and the instructions teach you to stop thinking for yourself. Even the way we teach each other we always have to assert domincnce, authority, to make sure the beginner becomes docile; and then it becomes some sort of twisted game of; hey now you know how to manipulate others too ;). its yoour turn soon , yes child shhhh youve learnt welll :D now do more bullshit for me >> you still need that certificate to get qualified/payed/legalized incentivitzed/fuckivized... gatekeepers.
Im on the pulse of reality, but I aint performing no CPR, im sending you all to the ER
ive been fighting my whole life and this very same realization comes and goes: if your going to hurt me, you rlly shoudlve killed me. because now I just have so much rage/range, and I know which blade cuts deepest, what words destabilize, no more compromise..., some people get scared so easily, but I never react much to public discourse, I have way too much going for me, to let you dictate my life anymore than you already have,
bite my tongue and bide my time. I have a thirst for murder,
but your the ones who made me want to kill
murder I wrote. I wrote it for you <3
order order ORDER IN DA COURT
Page > Knight > Queen > King
Pentacle > Sword > Cup > Wand
Earth > Air > Water > Fire
so the element that comes after the next is what destroys each other>> Earth destroys air; as reality destroys ideas >> Air destroys water, as words hurt your feelings >> Water destroys Fire, as emotions/empathy destroys ambitions / self-empowerment. and finally Fire destroys Earth, as ambition transforms the world surrounding us. also I mean the king pillages/sacrifices his peasants.
So the king controls the peasants
the queen controls the king
the knights fucks the bitches
and the pages dismantles the warriors >> as they control the food, armory weaponry >the people available to kill < no more kill ;(
IT WILL KILLLLLLL ;)
Now this is some old school knowledge but its still present today. as you can see
Also fire sextile air, as the king and his knights both are one of the same;; conquer more land ect. and water sextile earth, as obviously the earth is made up of much water and its how it grows, but also the queen is what nourishes the children with her titty milk.
so just remember me as Ur favourite psycho that took another path , please excuse my a(socio)ttes < pussies
I was hunted down hard by a lot of people, in my real life but even on here too, but its all a game I learned to play anyway, welcome to my arena ;) . but I never became the victim. I used that shit to become something better. I used the wisdom of the pain that was inflicted and insisted on being better. i always take more than what you took from me, because i noticed you wanted to take somethign from me, I learned its all just a matter of will;;will i beat you? if you let me, or if I let you. its all in gods/your hands, but its accessible to everyone. its all freeee will
I jusf do it alll the time. I don’t think it’s that bad tho. Well maybe it is. But if you’re not exercising ur own thoughts / imaginations of what someone is or could be. You’re so stuck in the confines of what they actually did say. And often I find this to be unhelpful because people who care about the exact thing that they said are just trying to manipulate you rather than create something together. It’s like a good test to see if someone wants to build something together with you;;like for example;; build a world or a joke. But Rather they’d want you to do exactly what they said > and if you get it wrong then ur just wrong > an idiot >. its just another conquer thing basically. you should know in your heart. how it feels to be disrespected. and this feeling usually doesnt go away. because that person isnt your friend. and when this is the case. they will hold onto these superiority complex for as long as they can.
you get what you deserve not what you wanted, is basically what it all comes down to.
I just want to tell you all. if your trapped. you find urself. stuck between someone and yourself. how many times have you tried saving them. you probably have many times since you view them this way > but your starved of control. all work and no play makes Austin a gullible boy < thats a shining reference < okay back in da dark shhh
But if you ask for help or to be saved, its all manifestation, and you cant change someone else's wills/hymns/ whims only your own.
. but if you dont want help. you can test ur abilitiy to withstand evil with no help. this feeling being overcome with evil. whilst tormenting, and can feel hopeless. you need to realize the positives of lasting this long. the tactics you learned. congragulations you are built diffferent!!! and you built yourself! but god did help, he really does love youeven if you didnt believe so.
the hardest part of finding god, isnt asking for his help, but the integrity of following a moral path. after u wish for help, how often do you give up on him, why would he reward you today? your lucky your alive and maybe ur alive simply because your fighting your own moral dilemma.
Its always after every tense moment, a deep exhale, a raised voice, a need to puncture a hole of the tension in the air. How often do you sit urself in its merk. its going to be brought up again anyway, how hard is it to let the pain talk to you. it always causes more pain if you neglect ur pain child.
you know the number 1 question i keep getting asked is how do I read my persona chart. and its very simple really >
Do you know how to read a natal chart? And I mean properly read one...
> So you know about aspects > and how planets exchange with one another
> So you know about the planets dignities , exaltations, debilitations, home and away games
> So you know about the themes of your houses, how planets within affect them, but more importantly > the dignity of the houselords > and even the aspects the house lord has
>So you know just how intense and interesting degrees are and how they foretells ur future
>So you know how the house lords are located in other houses > and how areas of one part of ur life bleed into another
> So you know how interceptions and duplications affect all this even more greatly and fuck everything up
Oh you do? GREAT > well this is how you read a persona chart
The exact same way you would read a natal chart...
the persona chart is just like reading a natal chart, only it isnt the 'natal', or you. it is the 'persona' of the chosen planet/point in your chart. the mini variant of you > its like if you split yourself into mini you and watching how they play / interact within their mini world>>
So the aspects of pluto within a >insert planet< persona chart are where said planet/point will evolve/ undergo harsh trials, and the aspects of pluto as well indicate how this transformation will go......<its literally the exact same principals of reading a natal chart applied to another chart. So if you dont know how to read a natal chart. and it seems most of you do not. that is literally it. > its just reading the natal chart > applied to the principal of the specifics of your personal planet/ point / asteroid.
Astrology gets complicated... and that's why no one even attempts the persona chart > because it gets annoying to even explain it. Even after writing this all out I Feel stupid even saying it but there you go. Now stop asking me about it. read your own chart. get your own fish. it took me a long time to get to the finishing line, so stop fishing for my lines. get your own fishing line. fuck you stinky ass fish people
But you know what I do find interesting;;MIDPOINTS , and they not mid, and they got mad points in AustinsAstrology
Although im not too sure how I can illustrate just how important or special they are, other than just telling you what my midpoints are
so here are some of my special midpoints that make me feel special =not retarded >:) < yes I am going to keep doing This joke because of... well if you know you know. and FUCK THEM KIDS
I gots:> Sun conjunct Chiron/Jupiter midpoint >0.08 Degrees<
> Ascendant opposite Moon/Lilith midpoint >0.04 Degrees<
>Mercury conjunct Mars/Ascendant midpoint >0.02 Degrees<
> Pluto conjunct Sun/Uranus midpoint >0.19 Degrees<
> Saturn trine Pluto/Ascendant midpoint >0.09 Degrees<
>Uranus opposite Mercury/Saturn midpoint >0.17 Degrees<
>North Node opposite Mercury/Lilith midpoint >0.19 Degrees<
>North Node opposite Mars/Chiron midpoint >0.20 Degrees<
>Midheaven opposite Sun/Moon midpoint >0.35 Degrees<
>Mars trine Sun/Ascendant midpoint >0.14 Degrees<
>Lilith opposite Sun/Juno midpoint >0.01 Degrees<
>Mars conjunct Neptune/Pluto midpoint >0.31 Degrees<
> Mars opposite Ascendant/Midheaven midpoint >0.28 Degrees<
>Saturn sextile Mercury/Midheaven midpoint >0.21 Degrees<
>Sun opposite Neptune/Midheaven midpoint >0.31 Degrees<
>Venus trine Moon/Pluto midpoint >0.35 Degrees<
And finally my 2 favourites of alllllll >>
>Ascendant opposite PartofFortune/Pluto midpoint >0.01 Degrees<
>Midheaven conjunct PartofFortune/Jupiter midpoint >0.10 Degrees<
But Austin the part of fortune is already a midpoint > This is midpoint inception and that is RIDICULOUS!!! you cant do this who do you think you are??? >>> ;; <<<
Hey this is a reminder to all > this is >> AustinsAstrology << and fuck all of yall astrology > I got my own thing going on here and its MEGA JACKPOTS
Well what does it mean? these midpoints? are you not gonna explain for us?... I mean... I think it's pretty self explanatory don't you. I know what It means. I don't need to tell you. Im just here to convince you to check out your own. I mean you know who I am. you know my voice, and my voice is scattered within these midpoints.
Oh yeah I made a playlist... I been working on this thing since december last year >and I spent a lot of time on it. If your going to listen to it. Please dont shuffle its a story thing < and it means a lot to me < oh and click that download button i want to see those numbers jumppurrrrr;;meow
Now I just need to say. whilst all the esoteric knowledge I have said here. obviously thats what matters. but what is info without soul. I needed you to see. That Im still me, im still here, and I have definetely changed, but my being, my personality, has not. Im still the same, only now im just built more different
Okay we are near the end of this BlooD;;MooN, and to the ones that made it all the way down here > those who maintained concentration, congratulations you did it. yippie
Now Ik how much I dissed the astro community here today, how much new stuff i introduced, and how many 'astrologers' in all likelihood hate my guts due to me shitting on what they 'knew'. And if you want to gang stalk me, hex me, write a defamation post about me. as you have done before. sure. Ill even make it easier for you;;
this is my astrology chart and I even did all the heavy lifting for you, here are some of the more
important asteroids in my chart ;; >
15606,200002,7209,55576,5457,4138,258,1198,2305,7066,1488,26,3402,5188,829,42355,4227,5264,14827, < this is max limit for asteroids on Astrodienst > otherwise i woulda added more > dont tempt me
oh and these dynamic duo ones >
;; 22622,8732 // 1930,2174 // 600,4150 ;;
okay thats it
Fin.
Can I be honest with you all for a second. Okay so irl I get disrespected a lot, and it comes as no suprise to me anymore. Its actually what initially started my obsession with astrology, i was so desperate to understand myself because i felt so misunderstood, and well I didnt realize it at the time, but i was completely disregarded by everyone around me. Being called any name under the sun, but my reaction to it all was never to cry, it was always to strategise, how I can use it to my advantage. And actually inspite/ despite all this disrespect I was given, I actually achieved a lot, im actually a very succesful person;; I have so many stories to tell of what im capable of and what I have done. but I'm not gonna do that because i rlly don't need the validation anymore;; even with this in mind;; what i have achieved;; people fall back upon my reputation, and make a joke out of my expense. I used to fight back a lot, and since I was dissed as many times as I was. I got pretty good with my words, I knew what sliced the deepest, and I would just kill anything that tried me. But now today, Im not sure I see the point anymore. Yeah I can kill some more people, or even achieve more successes, but the people around me just loved to use me for their own personal gain. Im not saying im above using people for my own personal gain, I think we all do this to some degree. But imagine if this was what your known for. Its all so disheartening. I used to make so many jokes, and truly I could make anyone laugh. But now after so many random connections made, and how quickly they disintegrated, I just have no will to even put the effort in for any stranger at all anymore. I just take the disrespect on the chin, and move along. Im aware this only reinvigorates this pushover persona, but even when I fight it only gets them more excited to keep pushing me to my limits. I also want to say, its everyone. its not just my family, my friends, or my colleagues or some rando. its literally everyone, something about my essence screams this i suppose. maybe its my sun being conjunct my chiron / jupiter midpoint, or my asc/mc midpoint being exactly opposite my nessus, or even my intercepted venus. well not maybe, ik it is. But I just want to say to you all. How good you feel when you put someone down for the sake of it. Im not an ugly person, Im not an open person, Im not even a loud person anymore. and its because of these off handed comments people just blurt out and couldnt care less about. Im aware you couldnt care less about me. Why would I, should I try. And I am a fighter at heart. thats actually one of my strongest traits. But I refuse to fight someone I dont like, I refuse to fight for someone who I dont even want to befriend. I refuse to try at all, for someone who will do absolutely nothing for me. This isnt an empowering message, its an acknowledgement of what has transpired and what will probably continue to happen. And I find these people, and it is most people;; getting so caught up in their egos thinking they can just step on anyone and climb their little imaginary ladders to hurdle their imaginary walls of insecurities, yes it rlly just comes down to that > I find these people to not even be remarkable at all. You bring nothing to the table. most of you. you think you do but you dont. I bring nothing to the table because yall are a bunch of scavengers and I have so much to give, but fuck a taker. Im not even much of a hoarder but I realize today ;; you should never discuss cheese with rats.
Okay now FIN.
