"what if this is my becoming?"

August // 21 // Queer // Disabled // Writer

[cloudabserk]

lyric from i’m still standing by elton john

[ratbebes]

more devils minions stuff 🫰 i love having a skill

[boccher]

doctor will fix me they'll do a scan and find a terrible darkness seated in my stomach and be like "oh my god we're so sorry we were supposed to remove this at birth like everyone else, i don't know how this was missed, we're so sorry you've been living like this your whole life" and it'll fix my brain too and all clouds will part

[tristealven]

“When people ask me what Emily Dickinson poems are about, I want to run away and hide, simply because for me, some poems are not about the ‘about’. They are metaphysical spells that you hold close and don’t really want to elaborate on. They help you to go on when you have nothing else left to go on with, the kind of poems you remember even when you don’t want to remember them.”

— Ilya Kaminsky, before reading ‘hope is the thing with feathers’ (via juliens-bakery)

[gorebonk]

Having a blorbo is so embarrassing like sorry I have to go and self regulate by looking at The guy

[free-my-mindd]

James Baldwin knew love

[gratefulturbot]

i DON'T need them to kiss i need them to come to the sobering realisation that their souls are merged and no part of them is extricable from the other anymore

[oneiric-wanderlust]

Jayme Lawson as Pearline.

“She is a performer. She is a sharecropper who was married off young to an older gentleman and seeks to find her life in these kinds of juke joints. That’s where she seems to come alive. That’s where she tends to have some level of freedom.”-Jayme Lawson.

Sinners (2025) │ Directed by Ryan Coogler.

[prisonrot-deactivated20260602]

u can either reach me on tumblr dot com or hand written letter

[catoswound-moved]

you cant even begin poems with "i will sodomise and facef uck you" anymore. because of woke .

[queixumes]

[unquietgravekeeper]

Holy fuck

[fiona-widdershins]

female awesome meme: [7/20] female dynamics → Violet and Sunny Baudelaire

How did you get to be so brave?

[tybalt-tisk]

About an hour ago, I was in Walmart looking for my conditioner because today is wash day for my hair. As I’m looking for my product, this older white lady approaches me and she says, “Excuse me, miss. Please don’t be offended by this.” And usually when white people tell me not to be offended, 9 times out of 10, whatever they are about to say is going to be offensive af.

Anyway, she follows it up with, “My husband and I just recently won our custody battle with our foster daughter and she means the world to us. She’s a beautiful African American girl and her hair looks a lot like yours. But I’m afraid because I don’t know what to do with her hair. It’s a lot different from mines and our other children and we are at a total loss. I’ve tried looking up the YouTube videos and my husband went to the braiding shops so they can teach him how to properly braid her hair, but he’s still pretty new and it will be a while before he gets used to it. Do you have any tips you can give me? If you don’t have the time, it’s okay, really! I just needed a little advice because I want her to look beautiful.”

Y’all. swear I almost started crying on aisle 6. So for the last 30 minutes, I spent my time talking to her and what products to use and how to properly detangle and comb her hair with the proper tools and what not to do with natural hair. And I showed her a bunch of easier to follow natural hair tutorials on YouTube and saved them for her. (I also had to create a YouTube account for her so she could save it for later.) but omfg, she was so sweet, and I could tell that she listened to every single thing I had to say and she took little notes on her little notepad.

And what really filled my heart was the fact that her husband actually taking classes from African braiding shops. And she showed me a picture of him wearing a little sweater vest and loafers in a little shop surrounded by beautiful black women showing him how to braid black hair and even the lady he’s braiding on is guiding his hands. And omfg. Bless these old white people and their black daughter who I know have new loving parents because they are willing to step out of their comfort zone just to make her feel and look beautiful.

I really hope our paths cross again one day, Mrs Cicilia. 💖💕

[robinancy]

[motherfucker-somewhat-limited]

[userarmand]

ASSAD ZAMAN as Armand Interview with the Vampire

[thebibliosphere]

Ugh, the low histamine white chocolate I can tolerate that’s also soy and coconut free doubled in price.

And it was already $40 for the box to begin with 😭

Having food allergies is so fucking expensive and depressing.

[ecrivainsolitaire]

At what point do you just buy honey candy

[thebibliosphere]

Never, because I’m allergic to honey 😭

[typezerostudios]

So what exactly is the process to make the chocolate low histamine? Is it raised in a specific soil, or is there some process used to reduce it?

[thebibliosphere]

No, it’s just the nature of the food.*

There are lots of different things that make chocolate high in histamine, but the key factor is the strength of the cocoa. So dark chocolate is very high in histamine compared to say a milk chocolate. (The other ingredients that make chocolate smooth and rich such as dairy or a soy lectin are also higher in histamine so it compounds the histamine.)

White chocolate however, is made with cocoa butter which is lower in histamine and better tolerated by some people. Of course to keep it lower histamine you need to avoid things like dairy and soy and certain types of sugars.

The brand I like primarily uses rice milk, tapioca and cane sugar, which does make it a little chalky and it doesn’t melt well, but it’s one of the few dairy free options that don’t have soy or coconut which my body doesn’t always like.

- -

*Strawberries are also high in histamine. So are citrus fruits, dairy, beef and lots of other things which are very good for you and nutritionally dense and vital to a healthy balanced diet. Low histamine diets are low in nutritional value, so please, don’t do it without medical supervision because TikTok/facebook/instagram told you it would “lower your cortisol” or cure your kid’s adhd. I do it because of a life threatening disease and it still almost killed me from malnutrition because the doctor who initially put me on it did it wrong. I am now rebuilding my diet with the guidance of an MCAS aware dietician who cheers ecstatically when I eat what many people would consider to be “junk” food and don’t experience idiopathic anaphylaxis. So no one start talking about “fads” on this post or offering dietary advice. I will instantly block you.

Sorry if this seems aggressive but people are being weird online right now about low histamine diets and I will not tolerate it on my posts.

[thechemiedemon]

what sugars do they have to avoid for it to be safe? ive been having problems with reacting to brown sugar and caramels(and maple syrup, and imitation maple syrup) and was trying to figure out if this might have any connection to that, but looking it up is not yielding results

[thebibliosphere]

Unfortunately, sugar will be dependent on the individual as anything that raises blood sugar levels can also raise histamine, and then the histamine dysregulation makes it harder for the body to regulate blood sugar so it’s a whole miserable cycle.

When I was super sick I couldn’t tolerate any sugar. Now I do okay with organic cane sugar and maple sugar and syrup in moderation, but too much of either can still trigger an attack.

Lots of “sugar alternatives” trigger an almost instant reaction for me. Like within minutes I’ll go hot and red all over and start to throw up. Aspartame and stevia me beloathed 💔

[ftmtftm]

Leslie Feinberg, Judith Butler, Kate Bornstein, and Riki Wilchins are all Jewish nonbinary people who have paved the way for trans and intersex rights and transfeminist action in the United States over the last several decades and you should know their names and what they've done.

There is a reason why there is a more modern antisemitic caricature of "the college educated coastal elite trying to erode at western masculinity and femininity" and it's literally, in part, because of Jewish led transfeminist action. It is a caricature that exists in dialogue with longer standing antisemitic stereotypes, but we're talking specifically about the modern iteration of it.

It's because of Leslie Feinberg's action, mobilization, and writing in the late 70's through the early 00's as a vocally Jewish transgender feminist. It's because of Judith Butler's essay "Performative Acts and Gender Constitution" and their book Gender Trouble in the 90's. It's because of Bornstein's books Gender Outlaws and Gender Outlaws: The Next Generation, the second of which was worked on in collaboration with Jewish trans man S. Bear Bergman. It's because Riki Wilchins has been an active part of trans and intersex feminist action for decades despite you probably not knowing hir* name.

Wilchins co-founded Camp Trans with Feinberg. S/he co-founded Transsexual Menace with Denise Norris. Wilchins coined the term "genderqueer" and they also helped lead to the foundation of Intersex Awareness Day thanks to her work with intersex activist Cheryl Chase and the Hermaphrodites With Attitude! protest group. Wilchins has been a backbone of trans and intersex activism since the 90's.

All Jewish nonbinary people from different assigned gender backgrounds working towards trans liberation and solidarity. For decades.

If you ever question why my own politics are aimed so pointedly towards liberation and solidarity, particularly across the lines of sex and gender, it's because it is a legacy that I'm very proud to follow in the footsteps of as a nonbinary Jewish person.

*I've seen a few different sources on Wilchins' pronouns, I've seen articles that says s/he prefers "s/he and hir", their Wikipedia article just uses "they/them", some interviews just use "she/her" when referring to her. Instead of defaulting to one set of pronouns, I've made the intentional decision to rotate between them.