Ava

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I just got a call from my new job. I will start my first day on Monday 3/11. May the good Lord bless me and help me keep this job until my retirement. I'm tired of changing jobs and tired of being unemployed. Some judgemental people who can't see what's in my heart and what I am really thinking think and say that I am lazy. They don't know how I work. Only those people whom I have worked for a long time can attest how hardworking and dedicated I am when I work. Bottom line. I want to find a job that can help me in the future not just at the present but also long after I retire working. I do not want to continue jumping from one part time job to another. Since I started working I have been working for a part time work only with the working capacity of regular and fulltime job with excessive overtime. I don't think I deserve that kind of work. I just want to find something that I know that is equivalent to my hard work and dedication.

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Today the day 3/6/2024. More than 4 months I have been unemployed. And I don't know what's the next chapter of my life would be. I am going to make this life better. No matter how hard life will become I will make this time more meaningful and stronger.

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I realized you are getting older and I feel your strength is diminishing. Inspite of what happened to us I know I should be grateful for all the things you gave me..

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" To take whatever you want because it pleases you. Some aimless infatuation which for the moment. You feel like indulging. It's messing everything that matters. Which is, Trust. Responsibility. Taking the weight for your choices snd feelings, and spending the rest of your life living up to them and above all not hurting the object of your love."- Meet Joe Black

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I deserve better..

No I will no longer make excuses.. I deserve better.

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Goodbye Selfish People

I will no longer allow you to be in my life..

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Finding the Right Love

At 47 I know I have seen and learned enough. I know there is no one I can blame for every mishap I have made in my life. All I can do is get up and be a lot more better than before. My life has been like a trial and error and perhaps life will continue to give me a lesson until I learn. When it comes to love and relationship. I would like to find someone I am totally attracted to spiritually, psychologically, mentally and physically. I believe I would like to be with someone I am attracted to those every aspects. My childhood programming and experience will no longer influence me in making a decision on who and what to have in a relationship. I will no longer settle for something less only because I fear getting hurt or just because my past is haunting me. I will no longer allow my past and other influence to haunt me in finding a good deal in love. This time the next man I will allow in my life. Will have all the qualities I want not just one or two. Spiritually, Emotionally, Mentally and Physically. I will also allow him to see not only the good part about me and I will no longer pretend to be perfect but I would like him to see the bad side of me as well.

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Don't ever make me think and doubt . When I do it means it's over..

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Enneagram 2, INFJ, Type B, Capricorn, and born under the sign of Rabbit, Into gardening, interior design, baking and cooking, reading and writing. I don't tolerate, jealous, cunning, spiteful, toxic and rude people.

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*I am a sensitive kind hearted soul but when provoked and walked over too many times I have the tendency to bite back and defend myself* - Michael Gibson

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Hold on a moment. Let me see who you are and what you represent . Let me put you to the test.

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Secure Functioning Relationship

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❤️ ""I ask nothing of you, only that you will always speak to me clear and true. Always . Will you promise me only that?”'- King Henry V ❤️