Random Stuff

Hey there, welcome I would introduce myself but that would be pointless, now wouldent it. However all i shall say about myself is I'm just someone, i like to write random stuff, I have no sense of literacy and will if i want to write in the most illiterate fashion, come back soon :3.

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I Drew something very, very amateur and then slapped some Digital paint on it to make it very amateur thus losing one Very, still not happy about the "smokey eye" and whore lips.

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Why?

1.

So for the past 5 days I have had really bad nightmares, the ones that seem to make you sweat upon waking up. The shitty thing is that I don't remember what the dreams are about aside from the music played in the background. 

2.

I have been feeling like shit for the past 5 days due to sleep deprivation and thus fueling myself with food, cigarettes and coffee to the extent that I feel shittier (as is my nature)

3.

I find out that an Ex has called my workplace pretending to be social service's in order to find out information about me. This has got me in trouble and went from warning to "we dont need you anymore".

Finally:

I wouldn't particularly care if  most of the stuff happened rarely but for all of it (nightmares--->fucking myself up---->being fired) were to be spread out throughout the weekday's I wouldn't be in a pissy mood. 

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Ok.... :)

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I have found out that as i get older:

I enjoy the simpler things in life which mainly involve: -Acting campy with very masculine men whom are uncertain about their own sexuality (its worth the occasional "faggot" remark or the very rare punch in t'face) -Very suggery tea and i mean 4-5 teaspoons of sugar type of suggery tea. I don't mind diabetes and a following amputation due to poor circulation as i have found out that you can live quite happly without legs, hands now thats another story. 

-Making fun of misanthropists, Philosophists and any other self proclaimed intellectual whom spew the same predictable, endless and rehearsed bullshit. 

- I like being mean

-I like being fucked up

- After 13 years of self hatred, despair and  PUBERTY I can actually accept myself completely with all my flaws, which makes me somewhat happy. 

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Dirty mind

So i asked my friend "what do you want to do today" and she just replied "Eating out" to which I suddenly burst into laughter and said "I know that, we have all seen the videos, I mean what do you want to do during the DAYTIME"....sadly I got hit in the butt with a very heavy foot. 

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Until the age of 10

I thought Misanthropy meant a house that's able to acquire the form of a living creature thus making it one of the biggest threats to humanity ever. One day you may be chilling in your house very comfortably on that same old chair that has the comfy arse dent on it because you have lovingly used it like a premium prostitute for the last 2 years. You find yourself engulfed in a  huge Cerberus like stomach which slowly makes you meltyface man and everything OMGGGGGGG. 

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Dear Freind of the female agenda

I dont think you deserve to be treated like a princess as that would demand an air of grace and femininity. However I do promise that if you behave I will not treat you like a common or premium whore, With love my real name xxx 

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There are many reasons (Home truths)

I am not allowed to do things, for example once in Starbucks I asked the cashier 4 times to write Stinky and Perky for a friend ordering a take out coffee whilst pointing at her thingamajig parts. You know the thingamajigs Men, lesbians and for some strange reason horses have an attraction too. Also Known as the affliction of man and "the Human disposition"....wait that's kindness and pity...anyway.   I also spend a whole 5 hours bulshitting on the concept of free will and constructive chaos to a nun whom was accompanied by a priest to some destination or other that holds high significance in their little lives (probably mass, who the fuck knows). Mind you they did try to convert me by preaching endlessly with the same vigor and conviction only Zarathustra had and even he fucking failed.

I also like to rant and push the buttons of self proclaimed intellects with semi retentive minds (Whom are basically stupid people in disguise). I have to admit that I get slapped and told to fuck off a lot but in all honesty I would never change the person I am. It does make it hard to have a relationship but at the end of the day the people that understand and accept you are worth twice as much as something short and anti-climacteric (no pun intended) 

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One of these Days...

I will become a pretty Faye with the ability to turn my hair green, my ears will be especially pointy because I will have acolyte blood in me which makes the crazy Jesus people constantly chase and throw bibles at me in the hopes that the ensuing concussion will somewhat stupefy me into religion.  

I would go on adventures, experience love, Loss, Passion, Desire and despair before poetically perishing due to some affliction or other, as is common to the human disposition...especially humans celebrated for being able to pose and make faces for moving pictures. 

But back to reality however and I have patients to look after, Placement to pass, assignments to do and hopeful catch up on some sleep before this cold takes me. 

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If I ever get a dog....

I would teach him a specific phrase and movement which will be mentioned later, then I would give him the Jokers make up and a silky purple 80's suit with some purple doc martins, I would call him Joker Dog (JD for short). Every morning when its time for him to go walkies I will say "time to go walkies joker dog!! lets go walkies" afterwards I will expect it to give me a side wards glance and with sparkly eyes reply "Yes, I want to Kill the Post man" and my life will be temporarily complete. 

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A random westernized concept of a Japanese crest  drawn during a moment of inspired boredom. I might edit it into color and make it a bit more symmetric later, but the likelihood of that is extremely slim. 

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Definition of....

Doublespeak (George Orwell)   

language used to deceive usually through concealment or misrepresentation of truth (E.G lay offs instead of "Fuck you, your gonna be fired") 

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One of these days...

I will write a novel called Nanoc the passive agressive monk and it will become a classic. 

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A lesson in Creepiness

I honestly didn't know that expressing you're infatuation (even if it is humorous) with someone as:

"This is my voice, all shadows stayed this is my heart, upon the altar laid Please take all else away, hear my cry, I beg, I plead, I pray I'll walk into the flame, a calculated risk to further bless your name So strike me deep and true, and in your strength I will live and die both unto you"

Is creepy....too bad that tumblr doesn't have a voice thingamajig so sarcasm can be heard.

Yup kids, the moral of this story would be never speak in lyrics, they are extremely powerful....just write your own, that'll make you twice as creepy. 

If anyone is interested in the song its by thrice and its called Identity Crisis although I would suggest listening to the acoustic version because it sounds better. 

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8 Free Indie Games that are a Must play

Right so recently I have been infatuated with indie games because new releases have been absolute crap and that's me being kind.  If interpreted I mean "Recently games lack complete ingenuity, use the unreal game development engine too much and have over powered heavy graphics to emphasis character muscle tone whilst completely ignoring story line and even character development, making the game a complete and utter mess that mindless fuckers play to develop some pseudo-philosophical ideologies that another game or the games predecessor carries"....*Deep Breath* That said, here are many decent pay to play indie games such as Trine, Blackwell saga, Deponia, the Whispered world (ahh... makes me reminisce of old sierra Games), tiny&Big and Zeno clash among many other awesome concepts, story lines and even graphical designs.  

However some free indie games that have caught my attention (even though must involve aesthetically pleasing sights, Yay Psychedelia) Involve:

1. Under the garden (Re-make with more content available on steam called Under the Ocean)

2. A nation of Wind

3. Boson x (Fucking annoying but addictive) 

4. MayhemTriple

5. Super Amazing Quest 3D

6. Zenith

7. Antibody 

8. Zzz-zzz-zzz If you're interested in these games and more theyare downloadable via: http://gamejolt.com/games/best

Remember Graphics don't always make the game, Story line, gameplay and concept do.