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SORRY LAST ONE, but i don’t like the people using this opportunity to talk down on riize or just follow a hate train, calling him a dozen and saying how they’ve secretly never liked him or riize in general, or i even saw people trying to put him and taro against each other? or trying to find clips to prove that he’s been racist all along, like his black shadow name or his bubble pfp of him when he was younger
i also seen all that, and it honestly just all goes back to when seunghan was getting attacked and how that all created ot3 riize and stuff. i remember around that time, so many leaks were posted of riize predebut and a bunch of rumors that got out of hand and it seems like people are using this as the time to try and bring it back to light even though a lot of the things were like "omg sohee is gay" like what ?? 😭😭
and the thing about eunseok's pfp and nickname 'black shadow', i feel like he's explained the name before. but the way that i take it is that it refers to him being "stone like", similar to being just someone's shadow, he's barely there. that's why his representative emoji is a rock. i personally see nothing wrong with the name, but a good handful of people on twt see the opposite. idk about his bbl pfp but the one he has on weverse i saw people talking about it as well. it's nothing but him when he was little wearing a wig. again, i see nothing wrong with it, how many people have worn a wig that resembles an afro?? let's be real.
just because someone does one thing, doesn't mean that EVERYTHING they have ever done was a hint to what has happened now. i don't get picking him apart.
i do get that his apology was... def something, he could have definitely elaborated more instead of being so bland in his response. it's sad for me to say but i don't know if i'll ever see him in a normal way, at least not for a while. maybe if he shows actual improvement and that he's learned from this.
a lot of people who have already accepted his apology and are taking it as an honest mistake seem to be slightly and indirectly attacking those who are iffy about it. "this proves you never loved him." i think loving someone includes holding them accountable and wanting them to better themselves, but they can't do that if you always let them off easy.
no matter what really happened, i hope he applies what everyone is saying to himself.
i’m honestly embarrassed and disappointed 😭 i never would of expected riize to have a scandal like this especially after everything that happened, they just starting gaining back their international popularity too. him also deleting it immediately after cause he realized what he said is crazy, cause there were other messages after the photo. eunseok isn’t even my main bias but i have wayyyy more things of him up in my room compared to sohee (my bias) and i just heavy sigh when i see him, again im SO embarrassed and i can’t even imagine how the directly effected community feels.
i feel like you just described it in words i struggled to find when my friends asked me how i felt about it, i am also embarrassed as much as i am disappointed.
even though im not as into kpop as i was before, i still heavily keep up with riize and eunseok to me was just that one idol yk?and to answer this ask and ur second one, he's been my ult ult since their debut. it feels like at this point, my whole kpop world revolves around him, that's how much i liked him. people are talking about how it doesn't shock them that something like this happened with him specifically and that shocked me honestly. following him for so long and it might be just me, but he's never given off any sort of weird vibe.
but it's so crazy to see him go from being caught with a vape, which imo is like nothing, to saying a derogatory word like that. and i'm not going to lie, i laughed off the whole vape thing because it's just not that serious to me. he's old enough but that also crosses over to this situation. he is old enough!!!! to know better.
there's so much talk about how people see koreans use the word and some even ask their korean family and friends, but answer is just different from the last i feel like. some say it's equivalent to a slur and the rest say it's not. i saw someone compare it to how the word monkey isn't offensive unless used against a southeast asian person, while that correlates to how some people described the word eunseok used, i feel like it shouldn't compare??? monkey is an actual animal yk
hi if ur reading this ples share ur thoughts on the eunseok situation and his apology thank u
lowk hating everything im writing rn and i feel like this
my life been crazy and shit but WE!!! are so back cause i've been writing stufffd 😛😛😛🙌
went to a ruel concert and took my fav eunseok pc cause i saw his post with ruel's newest song on it like
i feel deeply connected to eunseok now that's bestie
what if we all just kill ourselves
i also kinda wanna make like a permanent taglist(?) idk what they're called
idk if anyone would wanna be put on it tho
wonder - s.es
wc #1413 f!reader ₓ! unrequited love, bestfriend eunseok
note i love writing things inspired by music so ofc this one is inspired by a song i love so much ╰(*´︶`*)╯ 🤍
your families basement had been yours since you were in the seventh grade, back when it still smelt like new upholstery instead of popcorn butter and old energy drinks. now, it is deeply rutted, molded precisely into the shape of yours and eunseok’s bodies.
you were draped across it now, two halves of one, well-worn duo. you were struggling through a tedious history chapter, legs tangled with his as he scrolled on his phone, one arm loosely hugging around your shoulders—a position requiring zero thought—to you, it was equivalent to background noise.
wonder eunseok vs let you break my heart again sungchan, who is winning??
you met neighbor!anton during your early years of highschool. he was new in town and luckyly for him, you were attending the school he had enrolled to. unlucky for you though because you hated making new friends. what was the need to meet new people when you've been with your group for a few years now? it just felt unnecessary.
neighbor!anton felt something between you two so he never gave up. catching you on the way to the bus stop just down the street from your houses, sitting in the closest seat to you. trying to make small talk—on the way to school, in the lunch line, when the teachers were late to class, even in between bells when you're both rushing to your next shared class—anywhere, if he got the chance.
neighbor!anton was the one who finally got you to open up to the idea of letting new people into your world. maybe it was out of annoyance but you gave him props for being persistent.
neighbor!anton showed you stuff that you never thought you'd experience but things that felt essential once you did them. like going on your first rollercoaster. your friends were all too busy to spend the day at an amusement park so it became something you expected to never do. anton changed that. he took you and made sure you had an amazing time.
you and neighbor!anton continued to grow closer as the years went by. you became friends with his friends and he did the same with yours. he showed you that change is okay, even holding you closer when it scared you and because of that, he was now the person you entrusted the most.
as the end of highschool approached, neighbor!anton wanted to get you something special to celebrate, but he couldn't figure out what exactly was good enough to give you.
the two of you made some of the most beautiful memories since you met and he's felt the way he sees you change over time. while graduation is a week away, neighbor!anton is sure you feel the same way he does. if he's right, then he thought nothing could be better than confessing his feelings as you throw your caps into the air during the ceremony.
as expected, you said yes and the guy who was once known as just your neighbor, became your everything.
anton was your first to many things: your first confession, first date, the first time you ever felt so jealous that it mad you mad—first everything—and you wouldn't have it any other way.
hit post if i do say so myself
staring at the mark fic i got unfinished in my drafts
i might post this one soon idk
my last post on this blog was mark 🙁
thank you for everything you've done for me nct mark. i will cherish your kind words throughout the years and i will hold them close to my heart so i can continue to grow.
i will support you through what ever it is that comes next in your journey.
❤️
i went to clear some notifications from my old blog and saw that my last post on there was something mark had posted on insta at the time.
it's just so odd to me, thinking of nct without mark. it's so bittersweet because he's truly played such an important role in the ten years he's been an idol and with the group. he was my first ult bias and he always will be.
it's sad to see him leave behind the place i met him and the place that he started from but it's nice to see him grow. on the brighter side of things, i am so proud of him. this is one of those beautiful things in life where you know you've done what you can. you've done what you were supposed to and you made a great impact. being able to move onto better things is something not everyone can do and a lot wish they could. nct is a major part of his life and he's finally comfortable enough to take another step.
it makes sense in a way, considering how he presents himself on the internet and to his fans. the way he went about this might not be the ideal way to some people but i think it happened in a way that's very him. from what i can gather just through the screen, he's been thinking and talking to them about this for some time now. they made the decision and kept it private until the last show. i'm happy that they got to live in the moment and feel real emotions. he just seems to be someone who would always be looking for ways to grow and better his life. if this is how he thinks he can do it, then i'm proud of him.
it's okay to be sad but i feel like we have to think about how it was probably scary for him to make a decision like this, as it is a big change. all we can do is support him because he's doing what he thinks is best for him.
now he can finally get some well deserved rest ❤️🩹
staring at the mark fic i got unfinished in my drafts
this kpop shit is really too much for me
mark leaving is not real this isn't real hahaha funny april fools BEEN OVER.
✦ ݁˖ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ONE LAST DANCE .ᐟ ──── prince sion (ft. crown prince wonbin) ୨୧
genre 𖹭 ANGST !! doomed lovers words 𖹭 2889 cw 𖹭 YEAAARNER sion !!! kissing , emotional infidelity , sion crying on his knees , making out ryu says ⊹ ࣪ ˖ so this was originally a 10k fic.. but <3 guess who's super smart and forgot to back up her files and got her computer corrupted >.< silly me :3 i lwk gave up on rewriting so this is a shorter version, the premise remains the same hehe :3 i love love looovee yearner sion ok pls pls give this lots of love if u like :c this fic is my baby ok written especially for @awnezz !! love u
thirty years ago, when the war had painted the borderlands red for a decade, a treaty was signed in the great hall of your ancestors. written with dark ink on parchment, words so cold and pricise that it might have well been carved into stone. it ended the bloodshed. it bound two kingdoms together. and it decreed, that the firstborn princess of jaechong would one day marry the firstborn prince of seungnam you were born twelve years later, with your fate sealed before you drew your first breath. today, at the age of twentyfive, you stand in your childhood home in the gown you were always meant to wear, waiting to walk down an aisle that was planned before you existed. crown prince wonbin will be there at the altar, dutiful, noble and everything a future king should be. his father trusts him with this alliance, with the future of both kingdoms. his father trusts him with everything. but prince sion? sion is the second son, the spare. the one his father calls foolish, scatterbrained and too soft-hearted to be trusted with anything of consequence. sion, who has loved you since you were ten years old, when you talked to him at the gala. sion, who has spent fifteen years proving himself worthy of a fate that was never his to claim. only a handful of people know about the love that grew in the spaces between treaties and decrees,, the servants who looked the other way, the ladies in waiting who learned to hold their tongues. the two of you, who learned to love secretly in stolen moments because it was the only way you could love at all. today, the treaty comes due. and today, you become wonbin's bride.