Poems and other small writings

Lauren ~ 17 ~ bi - I write poems to help sort out my brain so I thought I'd share this on here! - Used to be senior quotes

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Dreamer

I am a realistic dreamer.

It’s a contradiction. Yet, they complement each other perfectly. It gives life an extraordinary feeling.

I wish on rainbows and lashes and falling stars. Knowing perfectly well that I don’t believe in them.

But who knows?

Maybe magic does exist. In a beautiful subtle form. So subtle, it goes unnoticed by most of us.

The realist encourages the dreamer. In an endless universe, who’s to say what is fantasy and what is yet to be discovered.

So I continue wishing. Each time with a childlike hope that this one will truly come true.

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Hope

Hope.

It’s such a small word.

Nevertheless, it can do monumental things.

It can crush you.

But it can also put you back together.

It can lead you to places you could’ve never imagined.

Yet, it’s also the path to disappointment.

Hope.

It’s the faith of those who’ve given up on other believes.

And the curse of those who’ve leaned on it too much.

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Battles

I am a warrior and a worrier. Oh, how two so similar words can have such different meanings.

They fight with each other. And the battlefield is my head.

The warrior is happy and carefree. The worrier is afraid that’s a lie. The warrior thinks the worrier is melodramatic.

And in between these two is me. Confused, worried but persistent me. Wondering who is going to win this endless battle.

Author’s note: The poem pretty much speaks for itself. At the time, I was in a very dark place. I thought I’d never be happy and I constantly worried about everything. Looking back, I know that the battle isn’t endless. Yes, there are several smaller battles still to be fought but that’s life. I also know that despite what my teenage drama and I thought at the time, the warrior wins the battle. By far.

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I am not who I thought I was.

A realisation. For a second, my entire world stops.

I was always certain of who I was. But what if even that’s not true.

I’m not me. No, I am me. But not the me I used to be. Not the me I wanted to be.

I’m strong yet oh so weak. My weaknesses now used to be my strengths.

I love too easily. I think too much. I grew up too fast. Too much too.

I look in the mirror and see a strong mind. It makes me realise, maybe all this new isn’t that bad.

I’ve learned. That’s my new certainty. I’ve learned

That not unhappy can be better than fake happy. That changing your mind is not terrible. That sometimes, you need to stop loving. That it’s allowed to stop and think. But not too much.

It’s okay. I’ll be okay.

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I wrote this today so I thought I'd share it. For the people that can't read my horrible handwriting: I am alone. Yet, I am not. What I once thought to be a cliché has now become my life. It's a bizarre feeling. Unexplainable. How can you be alone when you're surrounded by people who love you? I don't know. The solution is simple, they say. Go out more. Live more. Experience more. So much more. It sounds easy but the sole idea of it terrifies me. I am trapped in my own cage of fear. Desperate to break out. Constructive criticism is greatly welcomed!

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I’m the absolute worst at posting on tumblr regularly but I made this yesterday and I felt like it fit this account?

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I made icons in response to tumblr’s censorship of the lgbt+ community because apparently our existence is “sensitive content.”

- feel free to use them for whatever you wish!

- also send an ask if you want me to make an edit with another flag in it because I’ll do it woo

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Once again requested by @breezeywillows98 not sure I get this one..

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Requested by @breezeywillows98 sorry for the long wait!!

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Hello. I haven't posted in quite some time. I know I haven't been the most active. Hello, I've been traveling the desserts of my mind and I haven't found a good idea. I haven't found a good post. I haven't found a good. I haven't found a good quote.

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I think my friends and I are all the ugly friend 😂

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And to stay true to myself. The second post is a Taylor Swift quote. (Don't worry. I won't spam her quotes ☺)

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This is my first ever post on this blog. So of course I had to make it gay..

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Hi everyone! (Or no one right now) Since my friends and I have a great love for terrible senior quotes, I made this page. Send in your quote and I'll post it!