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they/them

[axe-boi]

mini comic i made after tree months of living together before returning to our countries of residence! also happy 2 years to us :)

[axe-boi]

the urges to 1 never post ever again, diverce my digital footprint and throw away all gadgets 2 post about all the wonderful and not so much things at all times every day

[axe-boi]

digi-minimal experience for young adults suggestion? + personal experience

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ive been getting more into digital minimalism and thinking about possible phone-free experiences. and before you say any mundane thing can theoretically be done without a phone- i mean spending days/weeks with no phone.

and i realized that even before I started educating myself on these topics I was already searching for opportunities and one of them i know and trust is camp counseling!!

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i mean a sleep away camp type, 5-10 weeks. usually a camp would mention being screen-free either on their web or in the job application. screenless means no cameras, no consoles, not even tamagotchi.

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ive done 5 weeks after freshman year of college and it was both very demanding and very rewarding. I definitely enjoyed sending letters back to family and being pretty unreachable for a while. I enjoyed time wo my phone probably the most out all the things ive done that summer. get ueself a music player, a couple of books and tolerance for children, that's all you really need..

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let me know if this makes sense!

[axe-boi]

simply have no clue how to grow my account but here’s an OC👹👹😤

[axe-boi]

it’s my 18th bday today. and i want to remind myself of who i am :з

cw: mentions of bad mental health state

- once i thought i’d never make it to eighteen. i’m grateful i did tho. 

- once i thought i’d be a medical worker and aimed for a med school. now i’m a freshmen in the school of visual arts. i follow my childhood dream. i wanted to be an artist.

- once i thought i wasn’t worthy of love, thought im not enough. well, now i know: i am love and i am enough, just because i am still here.

- once i thought i didn’t need help, i thought asking for help was equal to being weak, thought i’ll figure it out on my own. now i get it - asking for help is a tool, it just makes my life easier and me happy. i mastered this skill!!

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i’m so happy that now i am following my decided path to my authentic self. im so happy i no longer try to be someone i am not. i’m sooo happy i am still here and get to experience all the amazing things that life offers me.

happy 18th bday, me!! <з

[axe-boi]

i’ve just started learning ASL and the gesture for “20” is the same as the gesture for word “monday” in russian sign language.

[axe-boi]

apps i do recommend checking out!!

(semi-mentally stable + nd edition)

• moonly - guided meditation, sounds of nature, affirmations, moon calendar and a lot more, ugh i just love this app!! some sections are only available if i have a lifelong subscription tho ,_,

• dailybean - basically a diary/mood tracking app, i personally use it bc its fun to capture all the things i’m feeling using icons instead of journaling in text. also it can help to identify episodes, like u can see how many days you’ve been feeling <any emotion you captured>, also gives you a big picture of your mental health status!! i also have a lifelong subscription for it but it really is not that necessary. ALSO U CAN TRACK UR PERIOD WITHOUT WORRYING cuz app is created and owned by korean company and doesn’t require authorization :з

• speechify - text-to-voice app!! you can scan text on paper, load documents, listen to websites, all in this app!! they have a subscription available but i use the free version and can’t be more happy. i can finally read with no distress beforehand and not feel exhausted afterwards 

upd: I don't support speechify anymore, if anyone has good text-to-speech alternatives recommendations would be greatly appreciated!

[axe-boi]

sensory aid i use as neurodivergent person!!

heavy blanket - does good to any user actually but it’s life changing for ppl w/ anxiety or those who struggle with sleep. (fall asleep easier, sleep longer, quality of sleep ↑↑↑, waking up u actually feel rested)

sleep/mediation eye pillow - cancels all light, relaxes small muscles on your face, may be scented (if it’s stuffed with herbs) so also works as aroma therapy!! great thing.

earplugs or noise canceling headphones/earbuds - this saves me when going to loud/noisy places, just helps me not to get overstimulated hehe (i personally use loop earplugs, highly recommend!)

aroma jewellery - amount of stimulation i get from smells just drives me ins@ne, i have an aroma-necklace and i fill it with my fav essential oil :з

long sleeve/comfort clothes - helps avoiding unwanted touches and feelings, also puts a mental barrier between you and surroundings!!

sound of rain tracks to listen to! really calms me down before bed, it might take a while to find sound that you like (i personally hate “sounds of nature”), but i believe there is enough for you to find the one that suits your needs!

[axe-boi]

my bois!! inspired by one of the otp prompts on this app- don’t remember who’s ;-;

[axe-boi]

fuck i feel broken again. it seems like everybody abandoned me even though i know it’s not true. i want to isolate myself so badly…

it’s just a day, it’s just a week, it’s just a fall.

[axe-boi]

я только из клуба 1930 мск, счастье есть.

[yoptadze]

Картина маслом: гений, бывший миллиардер, филанроп, основатель соц.сети и по совместительству один из знаменитейших преступников мира, уже обросший щетиной с серьезнейшим видом рассуждает о плане его конкурентов в лиловом свитере с совятами

ПРИЧЕМ СВИТЕР В ТОЧНОСТИ КАК ИЗ ДЕТСТВА

[axe-boi]

😭😭😭

[axe-boi]

Добрый день! Великолепный хэд про сероволчат. Я веду скромный паблик с хэдканонами, хотелось бы предложить вам опубликовать там эту работу (с указанием ссылок на автора). Было бы такое интересно? :)

УВУУ пасиба мне очень приятно///-/// да конечно! кинете ссылку если вам не сложно?

[axe-boi]

Дадада, ваши сероволчата! Такие славные, я прям не могу 💗💔💗🥺

спасибо😖✨💛✨

[axe-boi]

АОаоаоао боже каже хочется обнять маленьких сероволчат аааааа мое сердце просто 💔💔

панимаю!!!!!

спасибо за коммент (первый anonymous said в моей жизни😭), если вы про моих сероволчат, то мне крайне приятно, а если нет то просто соглашаюсь!

[axe-boi]

ау где одного из или обоих маленьких сероволков забирают,

я думали разлучили ли их или забрали двоих...

родители изначально хотели забрать только сережу, потому что он весь такой миленький-умненький-перспективный, а он просто отказывался уходить без олега

внимание сцена:

его уводят, держат за руку, он упирается и виснет на руке, орет и плачет что без олежи он никуда не уйдёт-

[ioannushka]

Major Grom: Plague Doctor

Razumovsky/Volkov/Bird