Axel's Vent Blog

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Axel | 28

Hello this is my vent blog where I scream about opinions and discourse thoughts I have. I want a place to put them, but also keep away from my main blogs since I don't wanna bring bad vibes over there.

I'm very opinionated about things and sometimes get into arguments, but this blog is kind of For That so I'm not too afraid of it.

I am a P-DID Trauma system who is Pro-Endogenic. I've read several peer reviewed and ICD-11 edited theories in support of them as well as believing that there is simply more than one way to be plural. If anyone wants the articles I have, I'm always willing to give out the links.

I am a radinclus and support mogai identities. I believe that being queer is a spectrum that does not have to fit into the existing boxes we made. You can use whatever label or lack of label that you want as long as you are being safe and supportive.

I'm always open to questions or comments in my inbox.

dni; proshippers - radqueers - anti-endogenic - 1ncest/r4pe supporters - "MAPS/NO-MAPS" - idk what else i'll just block you if you do something weird

ENDOGENIC RESEARCH ARTICLES:

Article One: Conceptualizing multiplicity spectrum experiences: A systematic review and thematic synthesis Zara Eve, Sarah Parry, Kim Heyes

Article Two: Young people's narratives of hearing voices: Systemic influences and conceptual challenges Sarah Parry ClinPsyD, Eve Loren, Filippo Varese

Article Three: Article Six: “Here’s Dissociative Identity Disorder, and we’re not that”: a constructivist grounded theory exploration of multiplicity experiences - Zarah Eve, Sarah Parry, Kim Heyes

Article Four: Article Three: Exploring the Utility and Personal Relevance of Co-Produced Multiplicity Resources with Young People - Zara Eve, Sarah Parry, Gemma Myers

Article Five: Exploring emerging multiplicity and psychosocial functioning: A constructivist grounded theory study Zara Eve

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Being the villain in all of my ex's stories makes me think I really am a villain

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I think my friend likes me less now. Like I moved a tier down in our friendship. Like they're pulling away. J know it's just my OCD but...I just hope I don't lose her..I really don't wann

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Sometimes is really hard to accept that your friends need a break from you

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Really wish I could suddenly remove random people from my life with no explanation line switching out team mates in video gamss

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i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this

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i bought her coffee and we put our minecraft beds together needless to say im down sickly bad

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thinking about good scenarios is fine but thinking about bad scenarios is way more common in my mind and. i'm just trying to enjoy the moments i can, i think these guys will inevitably drop me too but...i just want to feel good for a while and have them to think of even if its with tears

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i bought her coffee and we put our minecraft beds together needless to say im down sickly bad

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-holding my head in my hands- oh no

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maybe i should just? stop being their friend?

obviously i shouldn't im not even out of my week long limerence phase but like every time i'm scared it won't go away this time

i want to have a spirit i feel this close to without ruining it with attatchment issues pllllleeeaaaaase

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if i just slowly stop talking will they notice...can i? i don't know

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feelin this again....

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what if i just disappeared from all of the social circles i spent a years building up and became a dissociated shell of my former self

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does anyone else ever feel like they are constantly in danger of being punished and controlled and stripped of autonomy or is that just a me thing

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ohhhh new problem im liking her more and more OHHHH NO OHNNNNNNO

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i might have ruined a friendship but i said what was making me ache, and if it makes them uncomfortable then yeah it's best if it ends

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sends an ask....forgest if he pressed anon...PANIC

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i think i gave myself a small traumatic brain injury but i don't wanna tell anyone in my life because they're going to tell me to go to the doctor today and i don't wanna