Pondering...

NSFW blog. For my more... passionate rants. Contains dark content.

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Welcome to my blog

You can call me Azu! This is my silly little writing blog :> I love the color purple and I'm a massive lesbian. I'm awkward but love interacting with people!! Don't be afraid to chat or anything, I'm friendly I swear >~<

Useful information:

I am pro-fiction and write about dark topics. Content warnings are given for fics containing said topics.

My asks are always open to ideas and suggestions, but there's a lot and sometimes theres are things I'm not into, so not every ask will be answered.

I am multifandom, but it's mostly Outlast Trials right now. Planning to write for Resident evil soon though.

This is a sideblog so if I don't follow anyone back thats why. I swear I do want to be mutuals... Sigh...

You can all find my fics over on my masterlist.

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The babies :(

Their parents are fighting in the other room rip

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So sorry to everyone in my inbox bruh I can't sustain posting that much here anymore since Ive been busy with life and doing my writing comms

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Will I have to be the one to write young Coyle getting bad touched by his mother or....

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CW: Necrophilia

It's been a while and I've been very busy but Franco and necrophilia.... Him touching and prodding and tasting a still warm corpse and stuffing it's holes with whatever's available... His tongue, lupara, various bits and bobs from the floor...

If he liked you enough he'll keep you in a nice little spot until you waste away. He doesn't even let the staff take you if he can help it. Not his fault he loves you and wants to admire you a bit longer... Gosh, gone too soon.

His only wish was that the shot hadn't been aimed at such an obvious place of your body. All the teeth lodged in your pretty skin was an eyesore. Really did ruin your natural beauty.

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I have the sickest idea for a composition with Chiara and Franco but I do not have the funds to get someone to draw it sighs

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THIS TRIGGERED THE BOTS AGAIN GTFO

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I have the sickest idea for a composition with Chiara and Franco but I do not have the funds to get someone to draw it sighs

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Im in the process of making a playlist for Chiara but its genuinely 4 songs long and is just Adrienne Lenker and Mitski 🥀🥀🥀

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okay so everything abt francoyle is clear buuut how does franco feel abt anal penetration in general if we're not talking abt coyle?

I thought I'd ask since its being discussed here xd👍 anyway i love your blog pookie

In general he's very indifferent about it. He knows its an option but really nothing compares to vagina. It's beautiful. Perfectly designed to give and receive pleasure and deliver new life to this world. It's where he came from—where he yearns to return to. Im comparison, he sees anal as inferior and almost disgusting. It's there to expel excrement and thats it. If he wants to spend time with a hole spewing shit he'd just go find a drinking buddy at the local bar.

If you really really wanted to though, theres a humiliation aspect to anal due to how demeaning it is. Thats where he can somewhat see the appeal in. Maybe if you're pathetic enough, he'll stuff a finger or two there and make you work for your real pleasure.

God forbid you bring up him receiving anal though. He will not doing it willingly even if you were really close to him. He's a high profile man, for crying out loud! Not the highest of rewards nor the most pathetic of begging will make him willingly want to stuff things up there.

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Franco seems to realize he's romantically interested in his sister but does she feel the same way about him? It's unlikely she realizes it but does she have these feelings?

CW: Incest

Nope! Chiara has no romantic feelings towards Franco. She loves him, but anything that seems like romance is just because she's so emotionally dependent on him that she'll take anything just to be with him.

Sure, she is a woman living with a man who provides for her. Sure they love each other. And yes, they do happen to kiss occasionally.

That's all normal stuff for them though! Franco is the best brother a woman can ask for. He's the best brother, never letting her want something for too long without getting it for her. They just love each other very much.

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Wait is Franco disgusted by anal sex or just indifferent? Or not? I'm confused... Tbh he doesn't seem like a butt stuff lover

CW: Non-con, Dub-con

Yeah, I feel like Franco would be disgusted by anal in the context of francoyle. Out of the two of them, he's definitely the one who will enjoy it less lol. I mean you'd probably have to force either of them into it but Franco genuinely does not get any pleasure in it and does not think about it unlike Coyle who partakes in secret and has fantasies of being sodomized. Coyle's arousal is real when he's forced into anal but he hides it.

Basically anal for Franco is non-con and anal for Coyle is dub-con.

I honestly do not see anything cute between francoyle so to me their relationship is just abusive lolz. Idk how they'd have sex someone will always get the short end of the stick. It's all just power and a carnal need to have sex even at the others expense bc both their ideals are to be masculine men who take what they want

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Within the dynamics of francoyle, I do not see Franco taking it up the butt. It never crosses his mind, really, especially with the access he has to hookers and whatnot. Meanwhile Coyle strikes me as a man who is violent to queers because he's experimented with butt stuff on himself before and is projecting his own insecurities because he likes it even when he isnt supposed to. Sometimes he looks at Franco's hands when they're wrapped around Lupara and he has to grit his teeth because god almighty, demons are wormin' into his head givin' him these satanic thoughts no man should be having.

Franco sees his erection and gets irritated, feeling as if Coyle is purposely tormenting him with what he doesn't have. Franco starts imagining himself with a weapon that large and gets himself worked up over it. They get increasingly snippier at each other with their individual sexual frustrations. Maybe something comes out of it, who knows.

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I commed more art for Chiara (From Rameses Mamano on Facebook) this is more accurate to how I view her!! Anyways have some small details about her appearance

- Very modest, is naturally timid around men but Franco especially doesn't want rhat attention on her.

- The pearl earrings are a gift from Franco, he doesn't like gifting anything too flashy but he still wants her to look classy and rich. (Also your mother owned a pair herself)

- Franco prefers her hair long. Was not taught to care for it that well so it tends to get messy, and she doesn't know how to do any complicated hairstyles.

- Pretty lean. A proper woman shouldn't be big, even if she is provided for properly.

- I mentioned this somewhere else but she has a rosary somewhere on her person.

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Ok guess who impulsively bought more art for Chiara

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Will you also be putting "x reader" on Big Sister posts?

Honestly I don't know 😭 I myself am peeved when ppl put their ocs in the x reader tag but I got like no traction when I didnt put them on Chiara's reveal 🥀🥀

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Incredibly pleased to reveal: Chiara Barbi!

The one and only beloved big sister Barbi!

This was my first time commissioning an artist so I couldn't explain her exactly how I wanted but the artist was great I am the issue I think this is still a really cute drawing,,, This is like older au when Franco drags them out somewhere nice ok,,,,

I will probably write a little info sheet about what I really imagine her to look like soon ok bye

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Ok everyone I'm trying to find ppl to commission to draw big sis big things are happening

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Okay my artist is making the sketch I'm so excited this is my first time c0mmissioning someone and also having an oc I am so excited to reveal her :D