bleh

24 / welcome to the shitshow

[perisbpddiary]

If this is love I don't wanna be loved

[b0rderlineinsane]

once i catch you out in one lie i question everything you’ve ever said or done.

why is it so hard for people to not lie??

don’t do it. just tell the goddamn truth

[b0rderlineinsane]

being told not to say a word and literally trying to suppress your emotions until it consumes you

✨ my eyes ✨ are stinging ✨

i’m so done with this life it’s one thing after another i can’t get a break

[its-simply-just-krys]

Bpd anger is a whole other fucking feeling.

I swear to fucking god. It literally makes me want to tear everything apart, tear it all down. It’s fucking killer. The constant switching between intense anger and drowning despair and sadness and depression is fucking killing me it's a constant cycle in less than a fucking hour less than fucking 30 minutes less than 15 I just can't I fucking can't. It makes me want to surrender myself to it. To let it overcome me. Just blind rage. And god help anyone who gets in my fucking way.

[b0rderlineinsane]

this right now is it

maybe for once ill give in

[b0rderlineinsane]

when ur body gets all hot and tingly from a BPD rage episode

im trying so hard to keep it in

fuck

i can’t do this anymore

[abusedpixie]

𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞

[lengthofropes]

[b0rderlineinsane]

ow ow ow ow ow

someone make it fucking stop. please. everything hurts.

[bellafemme]

They send me away to find them a fortune A chest filled with diamonds and gold The house was awake With shadows and monsters The hallways they echoed and groaned I sat alone, in bed ‘til the morning I’m crying, “They’re coming for me” And I tried to hold these secrets inside me My mind’s like a deadly disease I’m bigger than my body I’m colder than this home I’m meaner than my demons I’m bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? I paced around for hours on empty I jumped at the slightest of sounds And I couldn’t stand the person inside me I turned all the mirrors around I’m bigger than my body I’m colder than this home I’m meaner than my demons I’m bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? I’m well acquainted With villains that live in my bed They beg me to write them So they’ll never die when I’m dead And I’ve grown familiar With villains that live in my head They beg me to write them So I’ll never die when I’m dead I’m bigger than my body I’m colder than this home I’m meaner than my demons I’m bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control? And all the kids cried out “Please stop, you’re scaring me” I can’t help this awful energy Goddamn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control?

[b0rderlineinsane]

sooooo basically a song about my life then yus ?

[b0rderlineinsane]

i can feel myself starting to get bad again

and i don’t think i can stop it.

[svnflowerdreams]

✨ just some things that trigger my bpd ✨

getting yelled at/when someone raises their voice

inconsistent behaviours from people i really care about

plans changing last minute/when plans are cancelled

when people don’t clearly communicate with me

feeling left out

having to repeat myself

✨life✨

[b0rderlineinsane]

literally

[abusivechildhood]

how can someone feel so much and feel so empty at the same time?

[bpdbean]

i’m either just going to be numb or have extreme mood swings for the rest of my life i guess

[b0rderlineinsane]

i guess

[11secondsfromabaddecision]

Ok so we all love a hyperfixation but does anyone else ever avoid certain things because you feel like you don't have the time to be fixated on that, or that you aren't in the right headspace for this to become your latest obsession