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-this is the one plce no one knows me im not holdin back- -intp -

[b4llz4nsduch]

𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆!

𝒎𝒚 𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒂𝒓

𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒔 𝒔𝒉𝒆/𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚

𝒘𝒆𝒊𝒓𝒅𝒄𝒐𝒓𝒆/𝒔𝒂𝒎 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒃𝒚/𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒎𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒈𝒆

𝒅𝒏𝒊

𝒆𝒅 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒔

𝒔𝒉 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒔

𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒐𝒑𝒉𝒐𝒃𝒆𝒔

𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒔𝒕

𝒏𝒆𝒐 𝒑𝒓𝒏𝒔/𝒏𝒆𝒐𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒔

"𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒐𝒓" 𝒑𝒑𝒍

𝒂𝒔𝒌 𝒃𝒐𝒙 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒏!

[nuclear-addict]

[mrhoneybunny]

[sharkboxes]

[b4llz4nsduch]

b4llz update fr

today was actually a really good day, which i dont usually have, the weather was gorg, my fav and only ex i still talk to said he missed me and i was supposed to come over but idk things got in the way and i got distracted HEHEHEEHHE,i found some old dirt on my cheating ex and a couple of my friends, so i guess there was some bad today but not rlly, i hung out w my friends and i smoked a blunt, ive been trying to smoke less because i realized its a really unhealthy coping mechanism, im ab to go shower and than meditate and probably go to sleep. i have plans tmr to wake up for😿 hope everyone had a good day make sure to eat n drink water <3

[dlwrish]

[b4llz4nsduch]

BRO COZ I WAS JUST TALKING ABOUT THIS

[b4llz4nsduch]

EHHEHHEHE

[b4llz4nsduch]

HEYHEYHEY

I HAVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG I JUST FOUND MESSAGES BETWEEN ME N MY EX GF FROM A YEAR AGO

WHAT ON EARTH WAS WRONG W ME

[b4llz4nsduch]

i forgot that im a fucking idiot and nothing i want to work ever does

[inanotherunivrse]

in another universe I’m easier to love

[sweetpeauserboxes]

[id: a light pink userbox with a soft reddish pink border, and soft reddish pink text that reads “this user hates loud noise.” on the left is an image of a red heart. /end id]

[tobi-with-an-i-deactivated20220]

I love my boyfriend

[mcrv]

What color do you associate with the person you reblogged this from?

[nyannibalistic]

this cat sniffs gay people. rb to put him on ur blog

[theoriginalmkp]

growing up autistic / growing up gaslit

I.

this is the first lesson you learn: you are always wrong.

there is no electric hum buzzing through the air. there is no stinging bite to the sweetness of the mango. there is no bitter metallic tang to the water.

there is no cruelty in their laughter, no ambiguity in the instructions, no reason to be upset. there is no bitter aftertaste to your sweet tea, nothing scratchy about your blanket.

the lamps glow steadily. they do not falter.

II.

this is the second lesson you learn: you are never right.

you are childish, gullible, overly prone to tears. you are pedantic, combative, deliberately obtuse. you are lazy, unreliable, never on time.

you’re always making up excuses, rudely interrupting, stepping on people’s shoes. you’re always trying to get attention, never thinking about anyone else, selfish through and through.

it’s you that’s the problem. the lamps are fine.

III.

this is the third lesson you learn: you must always give in.

mother knows best. father knows best. doctor knows best. teacher knows best. this is the proper path. do not go astray.

listen to your elders, respect your betters, accept what’s given to you as your due. bow to the wisdom of experience, the education of the professional, the clarity of an external point of view.

what do you know about lamps, anyway?

[tobi-with-an-i-deactivated20220]

Seems pretty mentally ill of you for liking my posts