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Reminder: Don’t let your brain bully you, sometimes our minds are cruel to us. You deserve to live, you deserve to eat, you deserve to express your feelings. People do like you! You’re doing a pretty good job, and you are worth more than you give yourself credit for.

#this is all i ever needed to hear

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Actors don’t realize it a lot of the time, but the SM-Actor relationship can be extremely intimate. They trust us so fully to catch them. And we do. We catch them with our blocking notes and well-designed backstage paths, with the breaks we call with stunning regularity. We spend our hours planning how to keep them happy and safe. We watch them and learn their body language: we know when they are having just a slightly off night, or when they are in danger and haven’t realized it yet. Any SM cares for actors. But to really be there for them and for the show, we must fall in love with them a little bit.

An SM answers when an actor calls line– but the best of us can hear their voice falter and know to look down the moment before they call.

An SM calls cues between lines and blocking– but when we know the actor well enough we speak their lights and sounds into existence as if they were bringing it about themselves. They don’t see us behind that table, but we always see them.

Even if the person-to-person connection is not there, an SM who loves their actors will know how to give comfort when something goes wrong and does so unhesitatingly. Do they need a shoulder to cry on? A stupid joke to laugh off? A person to yell at to vent their frustration? We know, and we understand.

We are their advocate when they are not present, and we do our job solely so that they can do theirs. There is a martyrdom in that, but there is also love. Actors know much of what we do and know that they need us to make their magic happen. But I don’t think they know how deeply we love them.

#been thinking about this a lot recently #s

hey i love ur blog <3. some random asks: if you could change one thing in your life, what would it be? what was something good or bad that happened today? what's your favorite color?

oh my goodness hello you’re so kind, thank you! i apologize i haven’t been terribly active recently...

1. hmm i’m not sure what one thing i’d change, but maybe i’d start by getting some more fish (i currently have one baby fish who looks kinda lonely)

2. i discovered lots of new music, which was great! (i highly recommend gabrielle aplin and tessa violet) i also found a song that meant a ton to me like 2 years ago but i hadn’t heard since, which was weird and nice

3. my favorite color is probably some sort of dark purple/maroon, but i’m also a sucker for pastels oops

thank you so much for these!! much love <3

cockyhorror

Anxiety has no object permanence. You know when you put everything into your bag and then you have to take everything out and count it to make sure it’s still in the bag you just put it in at least 3 times? Because anxiety is like “if you can’t see it are you sure it’s there bro??”. Conclusion: anxiety is an infant

#wow this is really true

misswallflower

It was June, and the world smelled of roses. The sunshine was like powdered gold over the grassy hillside.

Maud Hart Lovelace, “Betsy-Tacy and Tib” (via akribisch)

#this is really nice

olearypoetry

#this is beautiful and very important

hannahkemp-deactivated20240409

Mount Hood National Forest//Oregon June 2017

Prints//Instagram

sleepygogh

9.10.16 oh boy am I pale, but I’ve given up on sunlight

tenaflyviper

Sleeping bumblebees (or, as I like to call them, “deactivated buzzyfluffs”).

#this is lovely

lagoonhag

wouldnt it be cool to just like not feel nervous about everything all the time

#... yes #yes it would

npr

A new mini-epic taken from The Hamilton Mixtape highlights the successes and struggles of immigrants in a country formed by them.

#this is incredible

papertownsy

#<3

thetroublesofbeingtrans

instead of assuring everyone that it “isn’t a phase”, why don’t we just assure everyone that if it is a phase it’s fine? it’s healthy to figure yourself out? because if we tell everyone it’s not a phase and it ends up being a phase, those people are going to feel guilty, like they stole resources or wasted time. It’s not bad to ‘go through a phase’. It’s a healthy way of finding out who you are. And if it isn’t a phase, that’s fine too. But if it is, there’s no reason to feel bad.