BaiCheng stands very still.
Not because he is calm—no, calm is the farthest thing from him—but because stillness is the only thing keeping the storm inside his chest from spilling outward. His breath leaves him in a slow, uneven thread, the kind that shakes more than it steadies. Snow or dust could have settled on his shoulders and he would not have noticed; his focus is fixed entirely on the man before him, on the weight Hisoki’s voice drags back to the surface.
His fingers curl once at his sides—barely restrained tension, barely contained ache.
“…Understanding,” he repeats, voice rough around the edges. “You speak of it as though it is simple.”
There is no sharpness, no cruelty—just a low, exhausted frustration, the kind born from wounds not yet healed and memories that refuse to go quiet.
“You say I have every right to say no.” BaiCheng’s head tilts, the faintest angle as he listens, as he tries to measure meaning through tone and breath alone. “But you speak as if the weight of that decision lies only with me. As if you did not place half of it on my shoulders the moment you left.”
The warrior's voice tightens, subtle but unmistakable. He swallows hard. “Do not mistake my silence for ease,” he mutters. “What you… left behind—” a pause, breath faltering, “—was not light.” He takes half a step back, not out of fear but necessity, as if distance might make the words hurt less. It doesn’t.
“But disappearing?” BaiCheng scoffs under his breath—soft, incredulous, aching. “You think that is what I wanted? That I asked for absence? For ghosts?” His jaw clenches. “If you believe that, then you have not listened half as well as you pretend to.”
The air between them strains, thin as thread.
He hesitates—long, heavy—before speaking again, voice dropping to something quieter, rawer.
“I never asked you to forget,” he says, each word pulled from a place he rarely lets anyone touch. “Only to stay. Or at the very least… not leave me to decide what pieces were worth keeping. Don't forget that you left a wife and child behind Hisoki”
A small tremor ghosts through his hand before he stills it.
It is not a rejection.
It is not acceptance.
It is the truth—frustrated, hesitant, and trembling at the edges—laid bare in the cold between them.