“I wasn’t planning on it,” Abel replied, groaning as he was pulled forward into a much more hungry kiss. He was starving but this was more than just about his vampiric thirst. No, this was a hunger, a desperation, for contact. He wasn’t interested in men. He never had a need to kiss a man or feel another man’s body against his own and yet, he was here with one– desiring all of that. Beyond that, he wanted to protect this one and keep him safe from all of this. He was too pure and good compared to him. Even if he had dreams of this moment.
None of it mattered as he pushed the other man’s wrist against the wall, tasting blood that was so much sweeter than he ever had anticipated and reaching his available hand under his shirt. His skin was so– warm. For the first time in a long time, Abel felt cold and aching for some of that warmth. He wanted everything that the other could provide him. Maybe in drinking some of his blood, he could inherit some of that goodness.
“I’m not a monster,” he said, regretting it almost immediately. “Please don’t think I’m a monster.” At the end of all of this, he didn’t want Louis to think he was some bloodthirsty monster. Even if he thought he was himself. “I care about you.” The regrets continued.
His words were music to Louis’ ears, an affirmation. He’d imagined it before, being this close to Abel, and though this was never quite the way he had pictured it, he didn’t care. Abel wanted him. He could sense the hunger in his kiss and Louis was eager to give — he wanted to give until he couldn’t, for nothing else would have made more sense to him in that moment. It didn’t matter that he had just come so close to death, Louis has never felt more alive.
He took in a sharp breath as he felt sudden coldness on his skin, though such a contrast only made Abel’s touch more apparent. He welcomed the sensation, wishing to feel him — to feel him feeling him, but also wanting more. Louis pushed against the hand keeping his wrist on the wall, guiding it to his shirt before pulling it over his head. He was impatient, this time sliding his hands under Abel’s shirt, as if feeling every inch of his bare skin would allow him to know the other more — and Louis wanted to know everything.
Pulling back for a moment, he shook his head. “I don’t think you are.” If he did, then he wouldn’t have offered his blood, wouldn’t have said that he trusted him. “Abel, I know.” Slipping his hands from under his shirt, Louis took one of Abel’s hands in his, placing it on his chest. “And if you can feel this, then you would know that I care a great deal about you too.”