B.A. MOM

Parenting Against The Grain Since '09. Single Mom. 27. Hannah age 5. Cara is 4 months.

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Hannah Bo Jamma

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Cara Jo boob monster

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14 days

2 weeks, maybe longer, maybe tomorrow. Either way you're almost here. I am so excited. I wonder what you will look like, what your cry will sound like. Will you let smother you with kisses? I am getting so anxious. Will you hate blankies like your sister did? We are going to have so much fun. I love you Cara Jo.

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While you were sleeping

Dear Hannah, You're Sleeping. It's 1 Am. I should be sleeping too. I have to be at work at 7 am and well for some reason I torture myself by watching episodes of tv shows on netflix. I'm sorry I woke you up tonight to put you in bed with me. I just feel much better when you sleep next to me. I always have, ever since you were born. Good night pretty girl.

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A letter to my unborn daughter.

Dear Cara, Here I am in the lunch room and I’m already tearing up writing the first sentence to tell you what has been on my mind the last few days. I got to see your perfect little face on Tuesday. I cried a little then too. It seems I have cried a lot this last year. Your big sister has had to witness it first hand, she’s only 4 but has wiped more tears from my face since last August then I could say I have had to wipe from hers. She’s a very strong, intelligent little girl. You will learn a lot from her. I can’t wait for her to hold you, kiss you, hug you, laugh with, joke with, and believe it or not even argue with you. She can’t wait to snuggle you. She already kisses you, sings to you, and gives you Eskimo kisses through my belly. You are very lucky to have a sister like her. Truth be told I am lucky to have both of you. Without you both I would have nothing. I feel you everyday. I know you’re going to be so amazing in your own little way. I will admit I am scared to parent you both alone. It doesn’t mean I am not up for the job! I like to think I am a pretty rad mommy. I would never allow you girls to go without. I can’t promise I won’t let you down from time to time. It’s going to happen, I figure if I openly admit that now to myself it won’t hurt as bad when the time comes that I feel that I may have. However, I do promise to make sure that you and your sister will always have a roof over your head, yummy food in your tummies, painted nails, pretty hair, and fresh kicks to match your cute outfits. I will love you both with every fiber in me. When your sad I will comfort you. When you scrape your knee I will tell you to walk it off and then give you a hug. When a boy breaks either of your hearts I will call his mother and let her know she needs to have a talk with her son about how to treat girls or else I will. I am so sorry I have been so upset and stressed while you have been growing in my tummy. I know that everything I feel you feel 20 times more and it’s not fair to you. I will try to stay happy for the last 13 weeks that you are in there. I am also sorry things didn’t work out between your dad and I. I tried, I really did. I love your daddy. I know he loves you. I love you too! I can’t wait to see you. It is going to be so wonderful to actually kiss your little face while I hold you in my arms. Until that day comes keep kicking me.

I love you little girl, Mommy

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Hey hey amazing parents!

Sorry I have been MIA.. I have been going through some serious life changes. I promise to get back to posting asap!

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Coconuts vs. squirrels

Hannah informed me that squirrels eat coconuts. When I asked her how they opened the coconuts she told me that the cut them into pieces with their tails. Please be careful not to hit any squirrels I assure you that you will need new tires lol.

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Hello cold and flu season

Ham Jam is sick :( ugh I wish I could take it all from her. Snuggles

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To sleep or not to sleep

Dear Hannah GO TO BED! I love my baby girl ok not so baby girl. But I wish she would fall asleep already.

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Comic-con

Today was the best day I have had in a very long time. Hannah and I went to comic-con. It was her first time. We had such a blast. She was truly in her element, the only other time I have witnessed her equally or more happy was when we went to Disney. I am so glad my little girl loves all things amazing. And I hope I can continue to raise her to be such an inspiring child. Good night lovelies!

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We had an amazing day at wizardcon comic-com in Columbus today

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Sleepy head

I am just not a morning person. I don’t think I will ever be. Even when Hannah was a baby she would wake up, nurse, and pass right back out. Now she is almost 4 and during the week when we have to be up early she wants to sleep all morning long yet the weekend comes and she’s is my alarm clock to wake up early even though we can sleep in. Last night we had a date night at Olive Garden and then came home to watch despicable me and eat junk food. It was a blast.

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Hannah and her fur bestie Rocky photosbycpat.com

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Ending our girls night with a bang!

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Goofball over here is eating breadsticks with a fork

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My tiny best friend is not so tiny any more. She's 3'6 and I am 5'2 she's going to tower over me. I'm not surprised, everyone towers over me.

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Tiny feet

I love Hannah's tiny feet. When she was little I used to kiss them and make her laugh by acting like I was eating all of her toes. I love her hair and the way it smells. I love her hugs and the way she tells me I am beautiful. I love that I am her mom the most. She makes me feel like I am doing something right.