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Secret School Of Solitary Artists

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I can’t believe I haven’t posted on here in so long. I am drawing for an hour or so a week and want to get in the habit of drawing every day.

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I haven’t been drawing everyday, mainly on the weekends and nothing beyond sketches in my DIY sketchbook. I want to make the effort to draw every day, in the morning and during work. I want to be an artist so much, I will practice as much as I can until I can draw scenes, characters, whatever my heart desires.

[theprettypoems]

Somebody that I used to know

She, then 22, balancing her chin like a sphere

Had the world in her hands,

But no love for herself, dropped her dreams by accident and it went

Splat! Like vanilla icecream

After you paid for it. Her name we don’t remember.

2 years later, 24, she’s on her knees praying, the weight of the world on her shoulders and she’s hoping Hercules will come ease her burden.

She will check to see when was the last time she wrote anything, then sleep.

Wake up when she’s 25 or 26. What day is it. She was afraid she couldn’t write at all.

Earth was a big world that

People treated badly

As bad as she treated herself.

Mother Earth’s metabolism is her metabolism. She doesn’t write poems after what happened. She’ll blame herself.

Until the day came that she noticed

It’s not that heavy any more.

All this time she spent lifting it above her had made her strong.

Now she’ll wrote new poems. She’ll love herself daily and treat herself to icecream.

[barbizonschoolofarts]

One of the poems that will be in the zine. ✨ it’ll come out when it’s ready

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Elephant drawing I did in charcoal when I was 17 2010. That was the year I graduated and I have this to our librarian.

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I have no idea what I’m doing with my poetry account. I’m a scroller, so I tend to scroll and reblog what I like and I don’t know if people like that on tumblr. So this blog will solely be my art and poetry. (I’m working on my first zine.)

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I’m so glad that I’ve taken the steps to get better at drawing but also to pursue other things that make my soul happy.

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Used a standing reference online. Anthony asked me how long I’ve been drawing and I said 13 weeks. “I haven’t been practicing every day though. Mostly on my days off.” I want to practice every day but my depression is at the point where I can’t eat. It’s a concentrated effort and after I get a few bites my jaw tightens. 3 months ago I saw my doctor and got Zoloft. It rattles in my bag full of colored pencils. I stopped taking it after 4 days for nausea and one of the symptoms is you might not want to have sex which I didn’t like the sound of. I feel helpless but if only someone could come over and bring home cooked food like Aunt Zella made. Or some barbecue - the kind you have at a pool party. Okay rant over.

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What I’ve been using on my art journey. Y E A R O N E Mechanical pencil .7 mm lead Ball point pen I told myself that I will invest in better art supplies if in 6 months I’m still drawing. I need to practice every day.

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9:56 pm Felt discouraged and gave up and then went back at it again. I’m glad I did. I am not saying this drawing is any good - but a drawing is better than no drawing. How will you know unless you try? You will miss 100% of all the shots you do not take. All those cliches about not letting the fear of failure keep you from playing the game.

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This blog is my idea of art school. I focus on subjects and read text books. I make sure to go on art field trips and watch art videos. (Which I’ll post here, in my “blog-university.”)

Today, Im catching up on a week of no practice and doing character sketches.

[barbizonschoolofarts]

I finally decided to make a blog for my art journey! The idea was to make an imaginary art school and design "courses." I can't go to a fancy university. I also felt like at 25 it's too late to pursue art. I want to create visual stories. It's also time well spent: I am unplugged and my depressed mind settles down to watch as I draw. I have a long way to go. I have so much to learn. Its been over 12 weeks and I'm still practicing how to draw the figure. I battle being incredibly hard on myself. I thought a blog would be a great place to record my art journey.

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