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New pfp (I think I have a new fav color scheme)

#my last one was lowky so ugly #art #pfp #art blog #ibispaintx

Started playing ace attorney recently

#my friend got me a 3ds and im so happy #its a very very very late bday gift (cuz he was away) and like I feel bad now cuz I didn't give anything for his bday...#he says he doesn't celebrate it anyway so its fine but I still feel bad #anyways im in love with this gay man #he may be a bitch but im still in live #miles edgeworth #ace attorney #art

papayajuan2019

hmm it seems i have started bandaging wounds that aren't even formed yet

#lowky how I dealt w self harm for a while #I’d just bandage my wrist without doing anything #genuinly helped #another thing I’ve been doing is applying scar cream instead of harking myself #idk why these things helped

Fuckkkkk I need to finish my history essay…it’s due tmr and the teachers already mad at me for submitting the last one late…and I need work out…I skipped the gym today cuz I forgot my sweatpants so I gotta make up for it at home somehow…fuckkk I wanna draw…I really need to finish that walking cycle thing…I need a finished result by the end of this week so that next week I can show it to the cute girl who’s starting the animation club in school…fuckkk…I also need to draw sm for my friend who’s birthday was almost a month ago who I promised to draw sm to but forgot so I gotta start it…but I need to sleep I have school tmr im gonna be late…*proceeds to waste time for the next 2hrs*

#i have diagnosed adhd but like is this an adhd thing like fr??#is this the executive dysfunction thing ppl talk abt a lot??#I heard just starting things help but whenever I just start something I end up doing it for like one second before getting distracted again #help

Guys how tf are you supposed to take notes like

I used to take very detailed notes in every subject, but then I’d end up like falling behind on those notes and eventually this resulted in a thing I’d like to call “note-paralysis” where I open my book aiming to make some simple notes, only to be faced with previous attempts at making notes where I either

a) didn’t fucking finish writing notes from 3 units ago

b) crossed out previous notes because I for some reason decided they’re not viable/I messed up a graph

c) doodles in the notebook in a previous class thinking it’s my personal notebook where I doodle and write random stuff

d) all of the above

And I always end up getting overwhelmed just by staring at the blank (or more accurately, not blank and full or random useless shit) page, not knowing what to do and then closing it and not looking at it for the next month

Help how do I fix this wtf

#note-taking #studying #help

Attempted background lol (changed from previous title because I realised it was a bit obnoxious lol) (also added texture)

#art #krita #digital art #school #art blog #apologies if the background sucks #i tried #i also tried experimenting a bit w colors and shit #something abt it looks a bit off but its whatever #idk how to tag #new to tumblr

Bro how tf are you supposed to troubleshoot emotions like, like how tf am I supposed to know why I’m depressed?? Like how do I know if it’s over something that happened recently?? Or something that happened a long time ago??? And if so then why do I still feel upset abt it?? Do I even feel upset about it?? Is this upsetness caused because this event triggered an insecurity?? And are those caused by a past event?? Or is it my depressed serotonin deprived brain doing its thing again?? How do you know if you’re over something or still upset about it?? How do you know when you’re avoiding your emotions and when you’re just picking on an old scab?? How do you know if you can even fix the problem that causes this feeling?? Did I eat today??

#I always end up just bedrotting tho #or trying to distract myself with video games or sm #I feel like I have so much ugly emotions in me that never run out #like they’re just bleeding out of me endlessly #but at the same time I feel weirdly empty #I would go to a therapist if the mental health system in my country wasn’t so ass #back to rawdogging it is then #mental health #depression #grief #emotional regulation

Is it just me or did ads increase like SIGNIFICANTLY in the past month, cuz I remember before only getting ads at the start and middle/end of videos, now they’re like…every 5 mins…

Im mostly talking abt YouTube on this post, but like I noticed it on other platforms too, and while I’ve tried getting an adblocker most of them didn’t work for YouTube and Pinterest made me change my password due to “suspicious activity” for using an adblocker…

#every time one comes on I turn off my volume and close my eyes #and it’s getting so inconvenient because the ad would just skip into the YouTube video #like id have to take a sec to realise it’s an ad and not the video playing #and then I’d have to mute my phone/laptop and guess how long the ad is and when to turn my sound back on #ik it’s a bit dramatic but I’m not letting these bitches psyop me into remembering their company and buying their product #I fucking hat ads fuck ads

kmnm1403

selectovision

#danganronpa #trigger happy havoc #dr1 spoilers #leon kuwata #sayaka maizono #makoto naegi #this is so awesome sauce

Character doodles

#line art #art #art blog #sketchbook #traditional art #new to tumblr

cinnamonstrr

Does anyone know when taking care of yourself stops feeling like this

#real #It all just ends up the same anyways #i get random spurs of motivation to better my life and change everything #and it lasts like less than a week before I go back to my usual self #and then it all goes back to doing the bare minimum to keep myself alive again

triangleguy

why is half of youtube filled with 47 minute long videos that look like this

#the type shit I be watching when I draw #it’s such slop content but I still watch it simply as background noise #and it’s always either titled something like what happened to X or the X situation is Y

redstonedust

my transgenderism is honestly such a natural part of my life i tend to forget its noteworthy to other people. so when an aunt i dont see often was like "so... are you still taking....... medication?" i completely forget she probably meant hrt and responded like ''well my doctor prescribed me omeprazole recently idk if its gonna help my stomach issues much tho'' . completely blanked. sorry ma'am.

#hoping and praying I get to that point one day #i have the opposite problem where I’m paranoid about trans things bcs ppl around me very teansohobic :/#I hope my life right now will be nothing but a bad dream for me in the future