Lost in the fear -

Alexander John Mercer - 17 - Human Resident

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[blackwellheiress]

Why do I have this feeling that you’re that kid behind it?

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Really? You'd be right, or well, your feeling is right!

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[blackwellheiress]

That smart kid would be my idol. Oh I like the guts of that kid.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Too bad all we have to thank is the anonymous!

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[zachreagan-blog]

Yeah, I can tell. You look completely unshaken like nothing could ever phase you. 

How are you really doing?

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Well, I was happy and unshaken until you brought it up! I've just decided that in this world, the smart kid always comes second, always comes last, so what does a smart kid do? He lies, he hides how he feels so that his friends can be happy and his sister won't know that he's dying inside and when his friends are done fighting a cause he might not come out alive in, he'll be there waiting for them to return. That's what safety is, right? Just living my life the way that I can!

[destructivedonovan]

Hey, — I’m here. I’m not leaving. You don’t have to worry that someone else is going to just cut out on you. You’re one of my best friends for a reason, man.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[blackwellheiress]

Sounds like something interesting happened

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Who knows? Someone said a smart kid booby trapped their lounge.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[zachreagan-blog]

That’s…weird.

On a different note — How are you, Alex?

[batclenchingboy-blog]

You bet! But this is Mystic Falls and weird is a term often used!

How am I? Never better! How're you doing?

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[dylan-forrester]

How did that manage to happen?

[batclenchingboy-blog]

I don't know... Constant screaming, low pay, nasty coffee.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[zachreagan-blog]

…Did I miss something, Alex?

[batclenchingboy-blog]

I don't know what happened, but three are out front, screaming.

[destructivedonovan]

Fine. Whatever you say, man. Your life sucks and you’re stuck in the supernatural world that you didn’t ask to be a part of. You don’t think I understand where you’re coming from? I was in your shoes, Alex. When Vick got killed, I hated everyone and everything supernatural. I had it out for everyone and, yes, part of the reason I chose to become a vampire was to make sure that no one else had to go through that loss again. At least not in Mystic Falls. You just need to push past all of this. 

I — I’m sorry, Alex. I’m still here though. I died, but I’m still here.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

[batclenchingboy-blog]

She ate my homework! | Alex + Keira

He drove her, by force, of course! “You’re coming with me.” She told him, as if it were his fault that she ate the homework that would have gotten him an A+, like his father wanted him to get! “Say cheese!” He cheerfully called out, holding his phone to get a picture of her clinching her stomach like she was going to puke. “Green is a nice color on you! It matches your eyes.” He teased, snapping the picture of her before getting out of the car to go around to her side of the car. He opened the door with a jerk and bent down so she could get on his back, “Come on, Coli. Let’s get you sterilized!” He greeted her, but she ended up greeting him by jumping on his back with a thud that nearly made him lose his footing.

  “Geez, Yetti, you trying to kill me?” He wondered as he slowly began walking towards the entrance of the ER. “Don’t worry, I got you.” Even though he teased and avoided her, maybe deep down, he did still care. He just wanted her safe! He didn’t want her in Mystic Falls, not because he was angry with her, cause he was, but because of the dangers roaming every turn! Reaching the door, he took a breath before walking in and walking to the receptionist. “What’s wrong with her?” The nurse asked, seeming bored with them already. “You ever hear the term my dog ate my homework? Well, my dog is my sister, and she ate my E Coli project.” He replied, feeling a sharp jab in his side.

  “I can drop you, you know that, right?” He demanded, looking to his side, to her head. He made a face at her before looking back at the nurse, “Impossible! How does a kid like you get E Coli?” She demanded, smacking her chubby hand against the counter, making a loud thawp sound echo in the waiting room. The people around him looked their way, giving them mean looks. “I. GREW. IT. Cause I’m smart.” He replied through clenched teeth. He expected some kind of witty remark to come from his sister, but only felt a low rumble escape her lips. “Could someone help her, or does she have to die in order for you to realize that I’m telling you the truth?!” He exclaimed in a more protective manner that he hadn’t shown in a long time.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

Three teachers are on strike! Whoops.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

You're just the little human boy in a crowd of witches, werewolves and vampires... Somehow, I sense blood shed, and it's going to be yours!

[destructivedonovan]

Screw you, Alex. I don’t know what your problem is, but I know that it shouldn’t be with me. I know that you’re pissed that I didn’t tell you, but does it really change anything? Does you knowing ahead of time make what happened last weekend any different? No, it doesn’t. Do you know why? Because I still would have had my neck snapped and you still would have been stupid enough to try and save someone you care about when an Original has his fangs in her. How do you think it feels to wake up and hear that one of your best friends almost got himself killed. Just stop feeling sorry for yourself. I tried all of that and it just doesn’t work, man. Not in this town, anyways.

No one is going to die. We have a strong alliance and we have good people on our side. No one has to die except for the Originals. We can desiccate Klaus, but we need to kill the others. But I’m not going to beat a dead horse. I’ve said all that I need to say and it’s up to you what you wanna do with it. I’m trying to be there for you, but you can’t shut me out. Not when you tell me that you love me. Because then I just know you’re scared.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

You're right, Matt! I am afraid. I'm afraid that my father will find another reason to hate me, my sister will get hurt, that I'll always be in love with someone that doesn't love me back, and that one of these days, I won't think about saving my friends, even if it means me dying, because it'll be me, the one who dies. I don't care that you're a vampire or that you'll live forever, but I do care that now, even when you tell me to stand by you and be careful while you're off fighting with the big boys, I'm nothing. I'll always be the smart kid with the much stronger and braver friends! You say you know what it's like to feel helpless? That's how I feel!

What do you want me to do? Just be here when you return? Fine, I'll be here! I'll find the stuff you need to know and help send you in the right direction, but you know me better than anyone, and you know that I want to help in more ways that I can... It kills me to know that I can't help you other than just reading a book! Just get this, Matt; you're wrong about me hating you didn't tell me, but because it kills me that you died. You may be here, but in more ways than one, you're dead. 

[honorinsalvation-deactivated201]

Where is everybody's school spirit ?!

[honorinsalvation-deactivated201]

As surprising as it sounds, It’s nice to see your humor side back.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

I guess getting snorted by an original just does that to me!

[destructivedonovan]

But you’re not in any position to be dealing with us, Alex. You’re still human whether or not you like it. Look, I’m sorry about what happened to your mom, but she didn’t die because of us. She died because of Silas and Shane. You can’t blame the supernatural world for everything that’s gone wrong in your life. Yea, I know I’ve done it, but there comes a time when you just need to move past it all and do what’s right. And in your case, that’s staying out of danger you can’t fight your way out of. The other night was a lucky night for you. You could have died and you would have died had none of us been there to stop Kol. Alex, I know this is hard on you and I know that you’re struggling with all of this, but that’s why you have me here, man. I’m supposed to be there for you…I am here for you.

I’m not asking you to be sorry about it. I just had no idea, dude. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner, but that isn’t exactly something you want to go telling the son of a council member. But, now you know everything, so. You’re not weak at all. There’s strength in numbers and it just so happens that the people in your corner are the ones that can protect you better than anyone else. So being a human isn’t so bad when you have an entire supernatural army standing beside you.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

So... I'm just supposed to hide behind you until I croak? You know what, don't worry about it - I'll talk to Neilson to switch me to AP, since most of the vampires hiding out in the school have a 2.2 GPA or lower, and the werewolves don't even come to class anymore. I'll stay away, I'll stay out of your way now. You're right... I'm only human, and that's all I'll be!

You know what sucks about being in a war? Someone is going to die, even if you have an entire species around you, Matt! Whether your death is a warning, or a mistake... Someone always breaks a little inside, and sometimes, it's best to avoid anything relating to it... Because then, what happens, happens, either way. 

[halebxnt-deactivated20171228]

It’s not needed. Your eyes say it all.

[batclenchingboy-blog]

[honorinsalvation-deactivated201]

Where is everybody's school spirit ?!

[batclenchingboy-blog]

I ate it! Nom nom nom!