bay allison huxley. dcs class of 2018.
human tragedies:
we all want to be
extraordinary
and we all just want to
fit in
unfortunately
extraordinary people
rarely fit in;
eleanor banks is a precious flower
I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better
I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better
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I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better
what? Birthday sleepover n Bay gets her mark. Spoiler alert: its El.
Bay flopped down on her bed, at least attempting to pretend that she wasn’t counting down the seconds to her sixteenth birthday, and simultaneously pretending she wasn’t absolutely terrified of the moment it happened. Admittedly, she’d been disappointed since Dustin’s mark had come in showing his soulmate was older than he was and her hopes were somewhat crushed. She’d since resolved that whoever her soulmate was, she didn’t know him yet. But knowing herself, she was still terrified of the unknown and needed someone with her to hold her and/or be the first one to look at the mark when Bay couldn’t bring to do it, thus inviting Eleanor over the night. “Do you wanna watch a movie or something?” she asked aloud, pulling herself out of her own thoughts. “I can’t handle just sitting here waiting.”
Eleanor sat on Bay’s bedroom floor, watching her lie on her bed, stressing about getting her mark the second she turned sixteen. She found it somewhat amusing. Eleanor was ecstatic when she had gotten her mark almost two months ago but Bay was definitely not her. “Yeah, sure! What movie do you wanna watch?” she asked, moving herself from the floor to join Bay on her bed. “Yeah, I get it. This is exciting, though! You’re finally gonna find out who your soulmate is. And who knows? Maybe it’s someone you already know!”
Bay sat up to look at Eleanor when the weight on her bed shifted as Eleanor sat down. “I don’t know,” Bay groaned, knowing that no matter what they watched it couldn’t provide enough of a distraction from her current state. She grimaced at Eleanor’s next comment. “Exciting?” she questioned, raising her eyebrows. “More like terrifying.” She sighed and lied back down, staring at her ceiling. “The only guy I know is Dustin and his mark is Becky Baker, so.”
Eleanor looked away in thought. “The Sisterhood of Night, maybe? I know it’s your favorite. We can pretend your mark is Jeff Johns,” she suggested, laughing. “I mean, yeah, it’s scary too, but it’s a sixteen year long question that’s finally being answered!” Eleanor looked at her own mark on the inside of her forearm.” He’s the only guy you’re friends with, but know of other guys.”
Bay let out another sigh. “I could only dream of a boy like Jeff Johns,” she said in a jokingly wistful voice. “Will you kiss a corpse for me, Jeff Johns?” she questioned, placing a hand over her heart and letting out a deep chuckle before sitting back up again. “I’d be happy for the universe to not decide my soulmate for me,” Bay responded with a roll of her eyes. “He’s the only guy whose mark I know so it’s not like I’d recognize anyone else’s mark even if I do know of them.”
Eleanor laughed as Bay pined for a fictional character. “Yeah, it does kind of take the choice out of the matter. I like that, though. There’s no question once you’re marked. You know that that person is your soulmate and you’re their’s. There’s no uncertainty,” she explained, a dreamy look on her face. “Isn’t that nice? It takes the stress out of it.”
Bay shook her head. “Nice isn’t the word I’d use. I think it’s more stressful. Like, if you don’t already know them, when you do meet, there’s all this sudden pressure to be the most important person in their life. Even if you do know them, how can you expect that much from someone?”
Eleanor tilted her head to the side, taking Bay’s words into consideration. “Yeah... okay, that makes sense. I guess I’m just a romantic,” she replied, shrugging and smiling. “Let’s watch the movie, yeah? It’ll take you mind off of things until it comes.”
Bay gave a small nod before settling back into her bed, attempting again to relax. Still, her attention kept focusing back to the alarm clock on her bedside table, the minutes until her exact birthday ticking away both too quickly and not fast enough. She let out a mingled sigh and gasp when she felt a slight burning sensation on her arm. “Oh god,” she mumbled, looking away and shoving her arm toward Eleanor. “You have to look, I can’t.”
Eleanor jumped at the opportunity to be the first one to see the mark on Bay’s arm. She excitedly pushed up Bay’s sleeve to see the mark forming on her arm. Eleanor’s smile started to fade when it fully came in. “Oh,” she said. “That’s not what I was expecting.”
Bay’s head quickly turned back to her friend,s till afraid to look down at the mark for herself . “What? Do you know who it is?”
Eleanor let out a sort of laugh of disbelief. “Uh, yeah,” she said, pushing up her own sleeve to show Bay her now blue outline of a star on her arm. “It’s me.”
Bay finally looked down at Eleanor’s arm and then over to her own before letting out a sigh of relief followed by a chuckle. “Oh, thank God,” she looked up at her ceiling.
Eleanor laughed again, a little confused this time. “Relieved it’s someone you know?”
Bay sighed again. “Relieved it’s you!” she responded enthusiastically. “A platonic soulmate makes everything easier.”
Eleanor raised her eyebrows in surprise. “Oh! Yeah, for sure,” she agreed half-heartedly. “Leaves your whole romantic future a fun little mystery. And hey! I guess we’ll be friends forever!”
Bay smiled sweetly back at El. “Exactly,” she agreed before settling back down, cuddling closer to the other girl to continue watching the movie.
Eleanor’s smile quickly faded as she rested her head on Bay’s. She had almost forgotten: Bay was straight.
@baynxtdoor: @theesmescng shes an actress and writer. she wrote and starred in ruby sparks and shes also in what if, the pretty one, some girls and in your eyes
Dustin: No I don't. I have experience fighting Bays. It's one of my special abilities. DO IT. I wanna see.
Dustin: 2. fuck u if I am an alien then I'm just cooler than u sooooo 3. I've made u go to the pool U've seen it before it's not chubby & awk I've got abs O M G
Dustin: hmmm idk not by my calcs
Dustin: then I don't trust u either
Dustin: "How'd ur 17 year old friendship end?" "A math problem."
Bay: you have no special abilities
Bay: 1. no 2. ur abs are gross and i dont want to LOOK at them
Dustin: ha -shot ineffective, Dustin is at 100% energy-
Dustin: 1.that's what I'm saying IDKKKKKKK 2. U SAW ME GROW UP 3. #RUDE no pants are the best pants to sleep with but 4 u okay but I'm not wearing a shit u can't make me
Dustin: I am right .0000000001% of the time
Dustin: and Math is normally it so u gotta trust me
Bay: that's not fair bro u gotta take the punch. i'll beat u up irl
Bay: 1. ok ???? 2. i didnt see u BORN tho so its a possibility 3. ur wearing a shirt or i'm kicking u out i don't want to see ur bare chest
Dustin: 1. k but do u think I still know 4 real? 2. But don't u know I'm human 2? 3. lol I was point making But I say yes. + do just sweat pants count as pjs? 4. IM RIGHTTTT
Bay: fine -fist emoji, explosion emoji-
Bay: ok
Bay: 1. still know waht for real 2. no i think ur an alien 3. yes sweat pants are 100% pjs as long as ur wearing SOME pants
Dustin: I mean ur not beyond it but like u don't really do it much anymore. Like I dare u I fuckin dare you to throw me on the floor when I come over toniht.
Dustin: well that sucks
Dustin: I can say it though. I saw your face @ 12 and I'm MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU.
Dustin: 1. cus like I wanted to say the thing was like legit confusing as fuck and so like it was like learning something that like seems confusing as hell at first but then if you take a sec to look ur like oh okay def white with black but then like someone comes around and tries to tell u ur wrong and u gotta learn the other way. You feel? 2.RUDE 3. No, seriously. I'd rather talk to you than go to some party. Like how fuckin impressive is it that I've known u all ur life and like basically know everything about u and I wouldn't change a single thing about u? 4. idk u just said ur boring and like I don't agree #sorrynotsorry
Bay: i fucking will. fight me
Bay: ya
Bay: ok dus
Bay: 1. i honestly dont understand at all tbh and i forgot what the issue was (i mean aside from the zebras like what were you using them as an example for) 2. thas me 3. don't go getting all like deep on me rn or smtn bro. do we need to have a heart to heart in our pjs tonight? 4. ok
Dustin: Rihft sure. Yeah being just ur best friend is nice. I mean prob not all I need pizza and sleep are pretty importanat too though haha. K but I mean different isn't always bad either u know what I mean like I legit love we've passed you throwing me on the floor when we played tag so no more of that and we're still great for each other lol. But yeah I get you lol
Dustin: I mean that couldn't hurt?
Dustin: 1. that's what I'm saying my point 2. u should laugh I'm funny AF 3. I don't think you're boring I like being with u 4. ur 100% right
Bay: i'm concerned for ur mental health if u think im beyond shoving you on the floor for any reason at all
Bay: well i'm not gonna say that
Bay: 1. i'm confused why did you say they were black with white stripes 2. nah 3. ok 4. i usually am i mean
