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[mrhealyourgirl]

happy pride to losers who get no bitches and stack no paper

[pharsalianostra]

And if I said “I Bet On Losing Dogs” is obviously an Abercaulay song, but particularly so because it’s actually a reference to the racing dog that Charles saved from being out down for being too old, and how Charles is always trying to save helpless animals, but he’s the real losing dog that Francis can’t save…what then?

[hurricanehellion]

casey mcquiston writes like they were really into voltron. this is necessarily not a bad thing but it is empirically true.

[marvinthecrow]

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[pharsalianostra]

Okay I couldn't stop myself...here's a playlist for Abercaulay...enjoy and suffer I guess

[bazberkker]

Happy pride month to this meme specifically

[petaltexturedskies]

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned

[gabeofcrows]

i'm obsessed with unrequited kazper actually

give me a jesper fahey who just met a guy who saved him from being jumped and immediately becoming obsessed with him in a way that is almost unhealthy. he's always around the slat, trying to catch a glimpse of kaz. he's the first one to jump to a job, dangerous jobs, jobs that won't even benefit him, not really. but he might get kaz's approval, maybe even spend time with him. give me a jesper fahey who keep accepting dangerou situations, not just because he likes danger, but because he's forcing himself to, because this time, kaz is going to congratulate him, he can feel it. because maybe when he gets shot at, injured, bleeding out, maybe this time, kaz will do a little more than jut call for a medic and leave. becaue jesper injuring himelf for a job is commitment that kaz recognises, or because kaz wants to care for him, to look after him

give me a jesper fahey who reads into everything, good and bad. he wonders if kaz might've smiled at him, or was it just a grimace? had he complimented jesper' shot, or just the job well done? had he fucked up when he stupidly missed a shot because he wasn't focusing? was kaz going to hate him now, never peak to him again? was kaz giving him dirty looks? or is that a look that says 'it's okay, i'll give you another chance. give me a jesper fahey who replays every. little. thing. after every single job, who loses sleep over every interaction he has with kaz

give me a jesper fahey who's desperate to prove to kaz that he can be his person. he tries everything to find kaz's love language. he brings kaz gifts, he praises kaz, he tries to hang out with kaz in their spare time. he briefly figures he has it when he starts running little errands for kaz, bringing him coffee and doing his laundry, thinking his love language is acts of service, until he overhears a dreg mutter to another 'he's pleased now he's got fahey wrapped aorund his finger, doing whatever the hell he wants and doesn't wanna do himself'

give me a jesper fahey who cries himelf to sleep as he runs over every conversation they've ever had, desperate to prove to himself that kaz does like him, even if it's just as a friend. he notes every time kaz has played along with a joke, grinned at something he's said, comparing it to the times that he's done the same with the other dregs. give me a jesper fahey who wonders if he's being taken advantage of. give me jesper fahey who, with a broken heart, is ready to accept that a the best he'll ever get from kaz, and convinces himself that he's perfectly fine with being used, because it's better than nothing

give me a jeper fahey who's just desperate, so fucking desperate, for kaz's attention, approval, anything. he's desperate for kaz to ask him aobut himself to take an interest in him to want to spend time with him, and he'll do anything to prove to kaz that he's worth it. give me a jesper fahey who wants to be there for kaz because he love him so much that it fucking hurts and he knows he can do it, he can help kaz and he' there for him, even just as a friend. he'll do anything and everything and it's so unhealthy, but he puts all of his time and effort into kaz

give me a jesper fahey who is slowly ruining himself but he doesn't care because one day, maybe kaz will like him. maybe one day, kaz will care for him in the same way that jesper cares for kaz. because maybe one day, kaz will see all of the adoration and devotion jesper has for him pouring out of every orifice, and maybe, he'll return it

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

I just need a beautiful woman to tell me that my bizarre imitation of human social skills is alluring and sexy

[girlrustcohle]

i love being single except every few months when i want to be loved so bad that it eats me alive and makes me physically ill for two weeks but like the rest of the time im chill

[kyoodledoodle]

Silena Beauregard I will forever mourn you

[impishthing]

[pharsalianostra]

I’m wine drunk and watching old John Mulaney specials and I made a list of things that John Mulaney and Richard Papen have in common.

1. Socially awkward brunette white men

2. Wear suits

3. Supposed to be gay

4. English majors

5. Anxious all the time

6. Frequent liars

7. “I’ll keep all my emotions right here, and one day I’ll die.”

8. Cocaine

I might add to this.

[moaloves]

“Oh my god, I can't believe Kevin day fumbled two different situation ships” Kevin Day who surgically removed himself from the people he loved when he realized he was not the better option. Kevin day who even when he's the first option knows he's never the best option. Kevin Day who lets people use him as they learn to love each other and themselves until he has no use anymore and lets them go even as they rip parts of himself away when they leave. Kevin day who is always the first choice and never the last.

[one-1-eye]

[betryl]

Prey animal

[exhaustedlyqueer]

This episode was wildddd for the HJ LaVonte dynamic. HJ sired LaVonte? LaVonte regularly goes into deep funks and HJ has to talk him out of it?? HJ is fine with them being called gay but LaVonte reacts with deep anger and runs away???