New blog, who dis? (Please help me.) So, I wanted to start this blog to offer some hope to anyone that is struggling. Let me give you a quick intro into my story.
In 2014 I graduated high school and move to Switzerland to study. I met my “boyfriend” my second semester and after knowing him for only a short while (… a couple weeks) I found out I was pregnant. This was late January 2015. He pressured me. He said he wanted an abortion. Now, I am pro choice and I would never tell another woman or mommy what to do with her own body but I knew in my heart I could never live with myself if I had an abortion; it had been my dream since I was very little to have children and I could not deny myself that dream even though it came earlier than I expected.
I left Switzerland and came back to Florida to continue my pregnancy.
My “boyfriend” could not come to the United States because he was a Brazilian citizen and they require visas to enter the country (and vice versa.) He was the quintessential mistake you make as an 18 year old in college. He was a party boy, a play boy, etc. He was also a stoner which was fine, honestly, except when he had attended the University of Wisconsin a year prior to me meeting him, he had gotten a misdemeanor for drug possession with intent to sell. He was deported. This essentially meant that unless I wanted to marry him to get a green card, he would not be coming into the United States any time soon.
I was in love though so we started the legal process to get married. That was March 2015. He had problems that I knew were not healthy for a child so we are broken up. Rather, we are working things out.
He was not present for my pregnancy.
He was not present for the birth.
If you ever want to see who your true friends are, have a baby at 18.
I struggle with severe depression and loneliness but my daughter brings joy and love to my dark world. Her name is Ella Valentina (last name omitted for privacy.) My daughter has just turned a year on October 16th, 2016. The picture is of her when she was about 8 months old but do not worry I will posting a lot more!
So here it is. I am a single mother who works a shitty job getting practically no money. I am depressed and find it hard to keep fighting yet somehow I still do. Every day I fight to push on. My hope is with this blog I can share to people how much love one little princess can give. She has no idea; but my daughter saved my life and continues to do so everyday. I am not making this blog to get a lot of notes or views or to become famous (is that a thing? Tumblr famous?) In many ways, its just me venting for my own peace of mine. Though, if even one person sees it and can smile then that is all worth it.
So without further ado, I unleash upon the internet my life, my story, and my experiences. We are never truly alone.
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